Monday, December 31, 2012

Confessions

Just imagine that I said the title in a husky whispery voice :P

I must confess..... I didn't bond with Zoe right away. I did love her. I loved her ever since that 6w u/s when we saw that little heart beating away.... but I dunno... just a bond didn't happen right away.
With being SO tired and worn out, all I wanted to do was sleep and never being around a newborn before and suddenly having one, I dunno, it just took me a while to accept this new reality.
How crazy is that, I wanted this more than anything, had 9 months to prepare for it, and still wasn't entirely prepared lol. I guess no new mother is really all that prepared for it.
And plus, never being around a newborn before... I had this fantasy of how things were going to be. That Zoe was going to be a great content little baby that rarely cried. AHAHAHAHAHAHA
*ahem* Anyway... yeah, that fantasy was shattered!
I'd often worry at first if something was wrong with her b/c she would fuss so much. Of course I quickly realized, nope, nothing wrong. She's just being a baby :)

Anyway, just wanted to throw that out there.
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And again, Don't buy new newborn and 0-3m clothes!!! We didn't even have a lot of newborn size stuff and Zoe still only wore most of them only once and a few others (that were slightly larger) twice.
Go in to a consignment shop and I bet you most of those newborn clothes have only been worn once or twice, if at all.
That is def where we are going to be getting a new LO's 0-3m clothes *nodnod*
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Zoe is awake, gotta watch how to make roast beef before she starts getting fussy hehe.

2 comments:

Kellie Rose said...

I confess...that I felt the same way! I way happy and loved her very much...but was so exhausted and worn out and felt like I was missing something. I even had to go on medication for PPD. I can happily say now that I have now never felt more connected, closer, or more in love with anyone in my life. I adore her with every fiber of my being and finally feel like being a Mommy is what I was meant to do. I think a lot of first time Moms feel that way to be honest, but no one talks about it!

lisabttc said...

That is good to know! I'm sure it's that way with almost everyone. Thank you for being open and sharing :-)