Sunday, March 25, 2018

Lady business (TMI incoming)

I don't want to jinx myself, but it seems like my period has been really regular lately. I think the last 3? or so times it has started... it was probably a 30 or so day cycle. I mean.. I've never tracked it really outside of TTC b/c there was never a need to do it since they were always irregular.
AND my periods are still a little weird. This last one was a bit more normal, but a lot of discharge doesn't make it to the pad. It mostly comes out when I use the bathroom.
I've also noticed a LOT of EWCM too before my period starts.
Ya know what... it frickin figures. All that trouble we had b/c my body refused to work properly and here we are... never to ttc again and my body decides it wants to start working right. ;\
SIGH!

Diet is going well. Other than Friday night dinner (and sometimes dessert after)... I've been sticking to it. It hasn't been too difficult, but I do have a lot of sweet cravings and just the want of something quick to eat.
Snacking sucks. It's SO limited.
"Oh but just eat as much veggies as you want!"
Yeah b/c that's the same thing as a bag of chips or something sweet! :\
We've been getting oranges and I've been snacking on nuts and lunchmeat and... it's just not the same damnit! :(
Hoping the cravings at least subside some more.
Thank goodness for sugar free jello. It's no carb and helps. You get tired of the texture, but it does help.

Ok... cutting this short b/c the house is a GD disaster area and it's gotten on my last nerve.

Thursday, March 15, 2018

At it again

Ok, so Ezra did finally go to sleep last night after crying for over an hour. Felt SO bad and wanted to go in there to comfort him, but this had to be done.
Thankfully he just went down for a nap with no problem. THANK GOODNESS.
My sanity and blood pressure couldn't have handled another day of screaming/crying kids.

IN other news... we started back with healthy eating this week. Ya know... I'm cool. I'm still getting over that want/urge to have something sweet after dinner, but overall, I'm good. It sucks not having a variety of snacks I can pick from, but I know the snacky stage will pass soon too.
My weight has gotten to around 225 give or take, but I feel the fattest I've ever been. Like all this weight gained has gone right to my stomach, arms and double chin.  I have the body of a very unhealthy 70yo woman right now and I am not happy about it.
Only have myself to blame though. I should've stuck with it when we started back up again before, but I let holiday stuff get me off track. I made excuses and then didn't bother getting back to better eating again.
My downfall is that... I just love junk food. I love the food that isn't good for me. I love the food that makes me gain weight like no ones business. And I LOOOOOOOOVE to eat it! Oh and I'm lazy as shit too. SO.... LAZY.... and I enjoy being lazy. I enjoy not getting up and doing. I enjoy lounging around. I don't have the spare energy to exercise or go out for a walk b/c pfft.. NOPE... that's why.
I should do it though. I know the kids would enjoy walking around the neighborhood.
Sigh......
So off on this weight loss journey I go again. I still have that feeling of this being different some how. Like.... I mean... I'm not going to beat myself up about it. I've kind of accepted myself. I'm not happy with my weight, but I'm good overall. Does that make sense?
I'm also not obsessing over my weight. At least not right now. I've weighed myself maybe 3 times in the last month.... and before, I would've completely stripped off my clothes and weighed myself lol, but now.... pfft. Aint no one got time for that lol. Helps that I have kids to distract me, but I just haven't had the urge to weigh myself like I have before.

Anyway..... as it was before.... plan is to eat low carb. Friday dinner will be a cheat and yep... we'll take it from there. I think right now we need to be strict other than Friday dinner.
Get back in to it and then once we're used to it again and are losing weight, maybe introduce one carby meal every other week. Like something with fries, rice, noodles/pasta whatever.


Wednesday, March 14, 2018

Someone send margaritas!!

GD daylight saving time!!!
Ezra has been screaming his head off at bedtime since DLST b/c we're trying to keep their normal bedtimes at the new time and it's just not working b/c it's still fucking daylight outside when it was getting dark.
This sucks.
Plus today... he decided he wants to scream and carry on instead of nap, so yeah.. he's extra fussy and this SUCKS.
I want to go comfort him, but I know it's only going to prolong this hell.

Zoe also hasn't been wanting to go to bed at her usual time obviously. So she's SUPER frickin whiny in the morning when it's time to get up for school.
I don't want to get up either baby girl... me either. BOOO DLST.
Frickin politicians need to pick a fucking time and STICK WITH IT. Stop this spring forward and fall back bullshit. 99% of the population hates it!!!

Please Ezra.... go ... to.... SLEEP.

Sigh.....

Oren and Ezra are both on a destructive streak right now too. Both of them are wanting to mess with my fish tank and that's not cool. No the fish does not want to try scrambled eggs, or a catalog, or crayons, or stuffing from the dog toy. Please stop.
And whenever Oren is done eating, he starts playing with his food which means if it's something soupy, he pours it out and splashes in it, or if it's not, he pours it out and smooshes it.

Thankfully other than the whiny bit in the morning, Zoe has been ok.

This momma is exhausted, has no patience left, done with it. I just want it to be the weekend so we can all sleep in and DH can be here to help. I don't wanna sound like a lush, but damn... a good mixed drink would be nice right now.


Monday, March 5, 2018

Disney trip... the good and the bad

So we got back from our Disney trip Thursday afternoon. Took the weekend to just unwind from it all b/c boy was it a very tiring and hectic trip.

We left Saturday early morning. Around 2am.
Foggy and we saw deer grazing on the side of the roads so it made it a bit scary at times. Nothing like the threat of a deer running out in front of you to keep you awake lol.

I can't remember exactly what time we got to the Disney resort we were staying in. It was the Disney All Stars Movie resort. The outside was nice enough. Had giant decorations. Our section had the army men from Toy story on the building and in the middle of them giant Woody and Buzz Lightyear.
That was pretty cool.

We got to the resort early though. Before everyone else even though they had all left earlier than us. And our room wasn't going to be done until 3pm at least AND other than Zoe's ticket... the rest of our tickets were bought by SiL (for her military discount) so we had to wait for her to get in to any of the parks... so yeah.. we were stuck in the lobby waiting on everyone.
SiL eventually shows up at around 10 or so..... aaaaand we're stuck waiting again.
We wasted half the day just sitting around the frickin hotel lobby b/c apparently FiL and MiL can't follow directions to save their lives and ended up getting lost.
It was SO GD frustrating b/c DH and I had wanted to get to the parks early to ride all of the busy rides... but nope.
We ended up buying Zoe and Oren some hats in the store while we waited.

We eventually got to Magic Kingdom and holy shit were they busy.
We had to once again stand in line for some reason b/c of the tickets. That was another hour of wasted time.
When we FINALLY got in to the park.... we took the kids to ride on the carousel and walked around. I think we had fast passes for something else, but I can't remember what. Maybe some toy story ride? We had wasted so much of the day on bullshit that we were all just defeated and wanted to go back to the hotel.
Oh and if you want to go to Disney.. make sure to add name tags ALL over your stroller. Twice... TWICE our stroller was almost stolen.
One was from a woman that said that it looked just like her stroller. DH caught her plopping her drink cups right in to it and trying to walk off.
The next time.. we were coming off of some ride (can't remember which one) and once again... caught some guy pulling our stroller along with another one. When DH went and grabbed it out of his hands, the guy made a BIG show about how it looked just like his stroller (oh look.. the same excuse!).... nevermind that our kids sippy cups were in the cup holders and there was no other stroller in that area that looked like ours. But the guy made a BIG show to everyone around the area about how he thought it was his stroller and oh Ha ha... bullshit.
SO yeah..... put your name on EVERYTHING if you have to have a stroller in the park. You have to park your stroller in designated areas if you want to go on rides with your kids.
Also, if you have kids that are too small to ride, you can get a fast pass for the adult that has to wait their turn. That way when the other parent or whoever finishes their ride, the other adult can just use the fast pass to get on quicker and I think most of those are good for 3 people too.

Anyway... we left Magic Kingdom too early that first day b/c we were beat. Hotel room was finally done and... boy was it small. We got one with 2 beds and it was supposed to have a pack n play for Ezra, but that was forgotten.
The AC sucked too and only went to 68 and barely cooled the room when it got hot out. Also.. the rooms desperately needed updating. No outlets in convenient places to plug up chargers. The least they could've done was put in a newer alarm clock that has plugins on it or something.
B/c of that, we had to pull the nightstand out a little to plug up my charger... which either got stolen by the cleaner or was thrown away on purpose. The front desk tried to claim that it was probably an accident, but I had my charger plugged up in that spot for multiple days and it wasn't touched, but on the last day we were there... it was suddenly accidentally thrown away? Uh huh.. bullshit. Also whoever cleaned our room did a shitty job that day too b/c there were still crumbs (kids had chicken strips and got the breading on the floor) all over the damn floor.
Oh and also... since we were staying at a Disney resort.. we got to use their buses to go to the parks. THat was nice. Saved us from needing to drive the entire time we were there.

And yeah.. we went to Hollywood studios the next day. Not as busy, but also, not as much to do there. SiL (the younger one) was being a complete bitch. For some reason, she and her stupid husband didn't realize they had to get their tickets from whoever had them. They didn't realize this until they were on the bus to the park. SiL starts bitching out her husband on a bus full of other people. I didn't hear all of it, but heard this gem "I don't like you... no.. I HATE you right now." Yeah.. that bitch said that shit to her husband on a bus full of people b/c she's a giant fucking drama queen.
Then when we got off the bus, she bitches him out some more and stomps off.
We then hear a screech and oh yep... that was SiL and her dumbass.
DH and I weren't having any of it and left all that shit and took our kids in to the park b/c ya know what...fuck her and their dumbasses. Trip wasn't about them and we weren't going to wait around for them to get their shit together.
Oh no no... we road the toy story thing at this park. It was the ride everyone was going for.
Much better day other than the stupid SiL drama.

And blahblah... we did all the parks and had a good time for the most part. It was HOT though. Too hot and Ezra had quite a few SCREAMING fits b/c he was hot and tired and ugh, those sucked.

One thing though. A lot of the rides were too damn short. You stand in line for over an hour sometimes and the ride is like literally not even 2min long. There was some little rollar coaster that I rode with Zoe and it was seriously like only a minute long. And the dumbo/magic carpet/spaceships are all SUPER short too. Just not worth the wait other than to say you've gone on them.
Also, a lot of the rides I thought were too dim. Haunted Mansion, erm... some other ones I can't remember. Really really dim. You couldn't even make out what the hell you were supposed to be looking at most of the time.
And in Magic Kingdom... don't waste your time waiting in line for that test track ride. The one with the little go karts basically. If you have a 7+ yo... they might think it's worth it, but if you have to end up steering... it's just driving... that's it. There's nothing special about it and it's just not worth waiting to ride IMO.

Anyway... here are some more photos while I think of other shit to say...



 Just yeah.... I mean.. I'm glad we went, but it was SO damn busy at every place we went that it made it borderline unfun. Magic Kingdom and Animal Kingdom were the worst when it came to crowds and obviously times to ride everything. The main ride in Animal Kingdom is some Avatar Banshee simulator thing. We got there when it opened and the wait to ride it was still about an hour and a half. It was a cool "ride", but I wouldn't do it again if I had to stand in that line again. I'd definitely try to get a fast pass for it whenever we go again.
the wait time for everything interesting was ridiculous. The prices were even worse. We knew things were going to be expensive... but holy shit. See the Minnie Mouse ears Zoe is wearing? $25. Frickin $25!!!
And I really wish Zoe had gotten to meet Darth Vader. They had a little show with him and Kylo and there were kids participating. We didn't learn that you had to sign the kids up at the front of the park until later. Wish we had known that sooner.

Yadda yadda.... We would like to eventually go back.... YEARS down the road when all of the kids are big enough to ride everything and when they open up that luxury Star Wars hotel experience thing.

Oh but good thing if you want to try to save some money... you can bring your own drinks and food in to the parks. We brought in water and the kids sippy cups and bags of chips and whatnot for snacks. All of that usually got eaten up by noon though so we'd still end up having to buy drinks and food lol.