Sunday, March 29, 2015

Another quickie

Wanted to go to bed early but wanted to post real quick while I remembered to.

Things are ok here. Oren will be 3 weeks old tomorrow. Gosh... can't believe he's been here 3 weeks already.
He smiled at DH like he did for me. He hasn't done it again since though. We'll get those intentional smiles eventually :)

Oren is doing well for the most part. He def has the whole eczema issues Zoe has. He has bumps on his cheeks and forehead. We've been using some baby eczema cream on him to help.
His eye duct is also still blocked so his right eye is all gunky and gross still.

He always wants to lay on the right side of his head. I know if this continues he's going to get a wonky mishapen head. We've been trying to get him to lay on the other side a bit more.

His spitting up is about the same. We had a volcano of spit up the other day. He spit up EVERYTHING he had just eaten. Didn't phase him a bit :P lol

Zoe spent the weekend with aunt. They had some egg hunt thing at her church. Zoe only got 4 eggs. DH went with her to the area where they had the eggs. Zoe didn't quite understand that she had to hurry to find the eggs before the other kids did. Of course she was the youngest one in the group so all of the other kids got to most of them first, plus an older kid that wasn't supposed to be in their area came over and stole some of the little kid eggs.
I hate egg hunts. Seriously.. all it does is encourage greediness. There were a few kids there in tears b/c they didn't find as many as the other kids.
Zoe was happy with her 4 though so it's all good heh.
She was NOT happy today when she got home. Even though she loves spending the night away from home, she just doesn't ever sleep well anywhere else which results in a very tired, very cranky toddler.
My poor baby :(
She's home and asleep now though. Hoping she'll sleep in tomorrow.

Taking the cat and our dog Cid to the vet on Tuesday. Or well... DH will be while I stay home w/ the kids.
The cat's paws are just getting worse and we just don't know what else we can do for him. DH brought up putting him to sleep, but ugh... it makes me sick just thinking about doing that. While I want to get rid of the cat... I want to give him to a good home that is equipped to take care of him.... I don't want to put him to sleep.
But... we're also at our wits end with all of the pissing and pooping all over the floor.
I'm hoping they can maybe cut some of the cat's paw pads off. I know that sounds extreme, but if you saw how bad they are.. everyone would think the same thing.
It looks like a giant fleshy blister bubble is stuck to his paw. It's disgusting and it bothers him so much.
Maybe cutting some of it off to a more 'normal' size and letting it heal that way will help him get around a bit easier.
But again... I'm sure that's going to require a lot of money we don't really have right now IF the vet was even willing to do it. Hell, maybe she could take him in. It's the first time she had ever seen a cat with this issue before and she was really interested in it. Maybe if she had him, she could help him in ways we can't.

AND the dog... his tail is naturally small and curves in to his body. It's like a nub that grew back in to the area right above his butt. B/c of it, it gets nasty and irritated so he'll do a butt grinding dance on the carpet to scratch it. It's disgusting b/c it leaves a mark and it stinks to high heaven. So yeah... we're taking him to hopefully get him meds for that. I want to see if they could surgically fix his take... break it or something out of his ass, but not sure if that would be possible and again... probably would cost a lot. Something needs to be done though.

Uhm... this is getting longer than expected lol....

Pumping is about the same. I'm getting a little more than I was, but not much. It's enough for now w/ some supplementing but once he starts wanting 4oz on a regular basis, it won't be.

PP recovery is still requiring ibuprofin. It's like the incision and my uterus keep feeling tight and achy. It's not bad if I'm not doing anything, but not going anything causes it to hurt more when I do actually move lol. Again though, it's not that bad. 1 or 2 ibuprofin a day is plenty.

Oh, weird side effect from not being pregnant anymore.... my nails have been growing crazy fast. Forgot to mention this before, but ever since giving birth... my nails have been growing super fast. I clipped them all right before giving birth since I didn't want long nails that I might accidentally stab Oren with, and about a week later... they were already really long again. They didn't grow really well during pregnancy.

Still bleeding off and on. It's mostly old blood now, but there are moments of fresh stuff. Going to need to buy more pads.....

I've been getting night sweats. I'm usually a very hot natured person. A sheet or nothing is usually what I use when going to bed, but I've been very cold lately. But when I get woken up by Oren.. I'm sweating like it's 100 degrees in the room, but as soon as the blanket comes off.. I get cold again. WTH?

Swelling has completely disappeared from my legs. YAY ANKLES! lol
My pooch is still swollen some and achy but I think that's about it. Wish I could say my whole stomach is swollen but no... it's just fat :\

Alrighty.. baby is crying and I need to pump before bed. :D
I'll try to remember to post some new photos soon.

Thursday, March 26, 2015

Quick post

Oren smiled at me today! :D
He was on the bed wide awake, so I leaned over him and was doing that sort of soothing higher pitched voice to him. Just saying his name, telling him Hi, etc. He was looking right at me and gave me a gummy smile. *heart melt*

We went to the local state park today for a little while. Mainly for Zoe. Get her out of the house a bit. She LOVED it. Had so much fun playing with her daddy :)

I have a stitch poking out of my incision area :\ The outside of my incision was closed w/ those steristrips or whatever they're called.
I had looked at my incision a while ago and saw this white circular spot. Thought maybe it was just lint or something. Spotted it again yesterday and poked at it and it was hard so I scratched and grabbed it with my nails and yep... it's a stitch poking through. Gross. Want DH to cut it for me.
It doesn't hurt or anything, just kinda weirds me out that it's there lol.

I'm down to about 2 ibuprofin a day now for the pain. I could probably take more b/c my pooch does still ache a bit, but it's not bad enough that I NEED to take something for it all the time.
Sigh.. I really want to lipo and tummy tuck it away. I don't think it's going to go away at all even if I do lose a lot of weight. Going to be one of those things that I always have and always loath.

Dern, there was something else I wanted to mention but I can't remember. Oh well..... it might come to me later :)

Tuesday, March 24, 2015

Newborn photos :D

DH finally sent me the newborn pics that were taken in the hospital :D
SO expensive to get them, but they turned out so great.. we couldn't resist :)

Monday, March 23, 2015

Little bit of this and that

Been meaning to post for a couple of days now but always get side tracked.
Sorry if I repeat something I've already said. Too tired to remember whats what :P lol

PP recovery is still kind of rough right now. Not too terrible, but still sore and tender in areas. Like the tops of my feet are tender, so are my shins and my pooch.
Wish I could be one of those women that bounce back a week after but nope. Thank goodness for a great DH that is doing more than his fair share.

I've also been getting bad headaches for the last few days. Tylenol or ibuprofin w/ a percocet helps, but as soon as the meds wears off, the headaches pops right back up. Was hoping it was maybe just dehydration or something but no. It's gotta be hormonal.

I'm still swollen but not nearly as bad as it was. It's slowly going away.... very slowly.

Bleeding has been off and on. Not bad though. I'll get a small gush every once in a while, but nothing heavy.

I'm tired ALL the time. Not sure what's going on b/c I'm getting somewhat decent sleep. Thinking it's probably just b/c my body is still in heal mode right now and needs the extra rest.

Pumping has been going ok. Still struggling to get my supply up. Think I need to drink more water. Oren is getting fed though so that's all that matters to me. It's about 50/50 w/ my milk and formula.

Oren is doing well. He has a gunky right eye. Same thing happened with Zoe. Can't remember why it happened with her though. Just one of those things. It's nothing serious, just kinda gross when it gets all caked around his eye. Nothing that a warm damp wash cloth can't fix :)

He is a little oinker. He takes 3oz of BM or formula at each feeding usually. Zoe only got up to 4oz, maybe 5 at the most. He needs more meat on his bones anyway. He's so tiny still with his little chicken legs. OMG they're so cute and scrawny. Love his little old man baby face too.
He gets the funniest cutest little expressions on his face.
AND b/c of his sleepy time smiles... I'm pretty sure he has a dimple on his right cheek. Not sure if he has one on the other side.

He sleeps pretty well. He wakes up about every 2-3hrs to eat at night. Not too bad.

He is suffering from some reflux issues though. Poor boy gags quite a bit and has spit up a few times. Some of those times we think was just b/c he got a bit too greedy w/ food and ate too much, but other times, it's from an upset tummy.

Zoe has been SO amazing with him. It's so adorable when she calls him baby brother. Awwwww
We put him in the bouncer chair for the first time today to see if he liked it. He didn't mind, but got a bit fussy. She went over and put his blanket back over him, tried giving him his pacifier that he spit out and then gently rubbed his head. Awwwwwwwwww
Also when he starts to cry, she'll ask "What's wrong?" then will say "It's ok. You're ok." Double awwwwwwwwww

Oh we did give Oren a paci the other day. He's taken to it pretty well. He doesn't suck on it for as long as Zoe did, but it does seem to help soothe him a bit when he gets fussy.

Tried out the new carpet cleaner the other day. Totally paid for it w/ an extra sore pooch and sore incision area, but man... that thing can clean a carpet. Pulled up a ton of dirt and even though I couldn't go over spots as many times as I wanted... it still got up old stains. Carpet doesn't look as dingy anymore, especially in the high traffic areas.

Unfortunately though... it's still not hardcore enough to defeat cat piss. Damn cat pissed in a new spot and after soaking up as much as possible and spraying it with some pet spray preclean stuff.... nope.... living room still smells like nasty ass cat piss. He may have peed in a new spot we just haven't found yet too.
So GD tired of this cat. We're seriously thinking about buying a dog house and tossing him in the backyard. He can't go anywhere bc of his paws and it definitely would save us a lot of headache w/ the pissing and shitting all over the house. Just wish we knew someone responsible that would take him for us. We want to get rid of him, but so long as it's to a good home.

Oh AND we just saw today that he's been using the back of the loveseat as a scratching post. Sigh...............

Anywho.... other than the cat issue... things have been pretty good here.
Can't wait until I'm pain free. I know it's only been 2 weeks, but I'm just ready to feel better already. Get some energy back so I'm not dozing off all day.

Friday, March 20, 2015

Should be asleep

Should be sleeping right now but decided to stay up a little bit longer to mess around on the net a little.
Thankfully I had a good nap earlier today. DH was watching a movie, Oren was soundly sleeping and Zoe was happily watching netflix on the tablet :P lol
Plus Zoe is unexpectedly spending the night with her granny and we don't have anything planned for tomorrow so I can sleep in a little or get in another decent nap :D

Things have been good though. Oren is one little piglet. He does eat a lot but I think some of his rooting is just him wanting to comfort suck. Not sure why Dh is so against him having a pacifier though. Whenever either of us bring it up, he just says something like "Eh he doesn't need it" or the subject gets dropped. I'd much rather him be on a pacifier than suck his thumb which he's been doing... at least when he manages to get the hand up to his mouth lol. You can't take away the thumbs :\

Zoe is doing pretty well. She's wanting to interact with Oren a little more. Not much more, but I think she realizes that he can't do much of anything right now so interactions are limited lol.
I think jealousy has shown a little. Nothing too bad though. Like after Oren is done eating, if we leave the bottle out, she's grabbed it a couple of times and starts sucking on it. He didn't finish one of those small premixed 2oz bottles of formula, she snuck it to her play tent and I'm guessing was trying it out for herself. She did bring it back out and kind of showed off that she was sucking on it (not actually drinking it, just chewing/sucking on the nipple). We're not getting mad at her when she does it or anything though. Just telling her that the bottles are for the baby.
We do feel bad that we haven't done much with Zoe though. Well we did take her to the little playground, but once I'm feeling a bit better, we're planning a trip to the zoo soon too for her.
Plus with Easter coming up, we'll be taking her on church egg hunts. So that will be fun.
She better enjoy all of this while she can though b/c when it's just me taking care of everything... we aren't going anywhere :P lol The hell if I'm going out with an infant and a toddler by myself if I don't have to. YIKES.
Lol, I know that's terrible to say but just... ugh.. I don't even want to think about that right now.

Speaking of doing things by myself... DH only has 2 more weeks left :( Boooo
I'm really happy and so thankful that he had 4 weeks off, but man... I wish it was longer. He's the best husband and daddy.

Recovery is slowly but surely getting better. Not having to take pain meds so often is nice. I've cut the percocet down to one pill whenever I take it now.. which isn't often. Thankfully at that dose, it doesn't knock me out.
My feet and legs are A LOT less swollen now. I can sort of see my ankles now :P lol They're still a little swollen but keeping them up has helped tremendously.
My pooch hurts like hell still though. It's swollen like crazy and hurts. It's not discolored or hot to the touch or anything, just something from the c-sec that still needs time to heal. It's the main reason why I still have to take the pain meds.

Looked at my c-sec incision area today and it's looking pretty good. A lot more noticeable now. Has that puffy scar look, but it's not red or anything. Just looks like a normal scar. Still kind of paranoid and weirded out about touching it though. Wish it were smaller too. Read women describing theirs and they always say how small/short it is. Mine is from one side of my body to the other. It is not a small scar. Don't get me wrong.. I do wear it proudly, but I know the reason why it's so big is b/c of my gigantic pooch that covers the area and they probably had to cut it that wide b/c of the fat.

Speaking of fat.... I weighed myself today. I knew it would be a lot since I am still swollen all over, but damn.. I'm weighing more now that I did at my last appointment.
DH wants to start eating better soon and while the thought of fixing food from scratch makes me want to go hide in the closet... I'm also looking forward to eating better and losing weight.

What else what else... OH!
I got my new toy today!! My new almost $500 toy. The price makes me want to throw up but it was desperately needed.
We bought a new professional grade carpet cleaner. After doing some research on it, we decided that it was pointless buying cheap but still expensive pieces of crap that didn't do anything or broke... so we bit the bullet and bought a nicer higher grade one that got really good reviews.
It's the same thing we did with our vacuum a few years ago. We went through SO many cheap ones, we finally broke down and got a dyson.
Anyway... if I'm feeling up to it, I may use it tomorrow while Zoe is at her granny's.

Speaking of which.. that was not planned. We went out to dinner with them tonight and as always, Zoe pitched a fit when it was time to leave. She loves spending the night anywhere but home and always starts crying when we take her home. She only cries for maybe a minute or 2 and gets over it, but man.... granny and aunt fall for it every damn time. Tonight was no different.
DH and I have been so tired lately though with Oren and her getting up early that we just let her go.
The other day, she woke up at 6am. DH went and got her and laid her down with us. Hey it worked b/c she went back to sleep and we all got another hour and a half sleep out of it. So yay! lol

Oh and finally.... pumping has been going ok. It's taking a while but I think my supply has gone up a little. A couple more days of pumping every 2-3hrs will really help my supply go up even more hopefully.
I also put Oren to boob a couple of times. It was mostly for comfort though. He was a bit confused at first and it took a few tries to get him to latch, but he did and the boy did not want to get off. Like I said, it was mostly for comfort so he'd end up falling asleep while doing it, but would be awake just enough to do the small little suckles.... so cute but my nipple (only put him on my right boob) was starting to feel the pain from it lol.
Not really sure if doing that helped my supply or not.
I will say that I really wish my left boob produced like the right one did. If it did, I wouldn't have supply issues at all. My left one is crap. It doesn't even produce half of what the right one does. Nothing I'm doing is improving matters either. Might try just leaving the pump on that side for a lot longer to see if that helps.

Anyway, I've posted enough and it's bedtime. Hell, actually it's almost time to pump again. Bleh! lol

Wednesday, March 18, 2015


My body doesn't know what the heck it wants to do anymore.
My feet and legs swelled back to elephant size again last night. I think I just need to take it a lot easier for a while. We've been going out a lot. Ive been fine with that since I thought moving around and getting out would do my body some good, but it appears to be doing the opposite.. at least when it comes to the swelling.

And then last night, I woke up shivering. Almost uncontrollably. So I covered up, and then woke up a couple hours later sweating. I didn't have a fever or anything thank goodness but still... WTH? I remember waking up shivering after having Zoe too so... *shrugs*

Pumping every 2 hours today and probably for the next couple of days to try to get my supply up. Just hope it works b/c it's pathetic right now.

Zoe, DH and Oren are doing great for the most part.
I wish Zoe would nap b/c good lord does she become a huge asshole when she doesn't :P lol
Her mouth/chin area have broken out with something. One second it was fine, the next, there are red bumps all over. Doesn't seem to be bothering her, but no idea where the heck it came from or what caused it.

DH is being amazing as usual. Just sucks that his time off is going by so quick.

Oren's tummy can not handle similac apparently. Posted a while ago about getting that similac sampler free package in the mail (that I never signed up for). We were low on enfamil and breastmilk so decided to use the similac stuff until we could buy more enfamil today. He spit up every time we gave it to him. Poor little guy.
Other than that, he's good. Diaper changes are so different with him. Zoe's were easy compared to his. When he poops.. it gets all up under his baby balls. You would think it would be easier to clean, but it's not.
Oh, he did pee on himself when I changed him earlier :P I was a split second from getting his new diaper put on him and there goes the pee fountain up over his head lol.

Anywho, here are some more photos! :D I still need to get the newborn photo shoot ones up to share. Will do that soon hopefully.

Tuesday, March 17, 2015


Things are going pretty good here so far.
Boobs still aren't producing a lot of milk. Lucky if I get 2oz. Need to start pumping on more of a schedule to try to get my supply up.

We went and got Oren's birth certificate today. So fun? :P Why are government buildings, or at least the outside of them always so... so... dingy feeling. I dunno... just always feels like things are dirty to me for some reason. *shrugs*

Oren is doing well. His billiruben(sp?) number was at 11 so we were told we could take him off the light. Just put him in to some indirect sunlight for a little bit and it should all clear up on its own.
Also, he weighed in at 6lbs 15oz again, but they said the weekend office place's scale usually runs heavy so nothing to worry about b/c his weight didn't go up from that appointment to this one.

He's still wanting to eat 3oz each time he feeds. He's gotta fill out those cute chicken legs. OMG I squee every time I see them. They're just so cute and scrawny. I know people love them some baby chubby rolls, but his little chicken legs are just too cute to resist. I just want to nom on them a little. :P lol

I'm doing ok. Incision doesn't really hurt in the same way. It's more of a bad bruised feeling now along with my giant pooch. Legs are also feeling bruised but pretty sure that's just from the swelling which still hasn't gone away yet.
Also the last 2 days I've been getting headaches that do not want to go away. Very frustrating since I am taking pain meds that SHOULD be taking care of that.
Must be something hormonal or the lack of some good long sleep... or heck, maybe both.

Other than that though, I've been ok. Wish I could help out a bit more, but I keep having to remind myself that it's only been a week since the c-sec. I've picked Zoe up a few times b/c I forget and paid for it later with an extra sore incision area. Just feel bad that DH has to do pretty much everything.
While that is nice.. don't get me wrong lol... I'd still like to feel like I'm contributing a little more.

Anyway... nothing else really going on. It's DH's grandfather's birthday today. Think everyone is going to IHoP tonight for it. Looking forward to some delicious pancakes lol. Oren will of course be passed around which is fine.. just hope none of them are sick.

Have to do a little research on this expensive carpet cleaner we may be buying. It has really good reviews and was voted best last year... but I want to look up more on it before we commit so much money to getting it.

Monday, March 16, 2015

Photos and such :D

DH took Oren to his checkup today. Poor baby has had his heels pricked so many times. It was the same thing with Zoe too. Damn you jaundice!

Hoping we won't have to have him on the billibed thing for much longer. He doesn't have that yellow tinge any longer so I think maybe anther day or so at the most.

Oren is a little piglet though. Man that boy can eat! And he is SO hard to burp. That gas does not want to come out of him.
He's good though. Other than when he's hungry and when he's being changed.. he's a pretty mellow baby. Sleeps really well and just loves being held and looking at everything.

Zoe has started to give him a little more attention too. 99% positive but once when he was crying she did tell him to shush LOL.
Love my baby girl so much and I'm so glad she's adjusting so well to it all so far.

As for myself. Still having some pain issues, but I can go longer and longer without taking pain meds which is nice b/c man.. that percocet still knocks me on my ass when I take it.
I don't see how people can become addicted to the stuff. I guess it's like with anything else though. Some people like the feeling it gives them.

The PP hormones/baby blues have definitely hit HARD lol. I'm not depressed thank goodness, but boy am I super sentimental about everything and it makes me want to ugly cry thinking about things.
Such as... we've been hanging out in our bedroom for the last week. It's just easier to hang out in there since everything is right there and comfortable. Thinking about it makes me want to cry b/c it's so nice to have us all in there and bonding as a family. It just feels right and even typing that out I have tears running down my face lol.
And then thinking about how wonderful DH has been... again... makes me want to ugly cry.
Sigh.... life is just good right now.

Pumping has been decent. Kind of figured out a good way to get more out of my boobs. My left one still doesn't produce a whole lot, but my right one is a champ at making milk lol.
I pump for about 5-10min on each side and then switch, then switch back after another 5-10. Seem to get more milk that way for some reason.
I'm still only managing about 2oz but hey.. it's better than nothing I guess.
I started fenugreek and yep... starting to smell like syrup :P
Going to get some gatorade or something like it to help with hydration. Someone in my DD group pumped for 19m with her previous child and posted some tips on what she did and she mentioned that drinking gatorade or powerade really helped.

Swelling is still pretty significant. Really wish it would go away already. I'm in cankle zone right now. Before was WAY beyond cankles... in to the elephant legs territory.

Anyway... I've rambled long enough. I know everyone just wants to see photos ;) heh

Zoe watching some Netflix on DH's tablet.

Zoe being a sweet big sister and giving Oren some smooches

Went to the little neighborhood playground. Zoe deserved some time out of the house for being such a great little girl.

 Oren's adorable little baby chicken legs. Couldn't resist taking a photo before his diaper change heh.
SQUEEE I just want to nom on those legs! DH calls them Kermit legs :P hehe

Just hanging out

Our 2nd little glow bug. FX that he won't be for much longer though

Sunday, March 15, 2015

Almost a week old

Wow, has it been almost a week already? On one hand, it feels like it went by really quick, on the other... feels like it's been forever.

Things are going pretty good here so far.
Just pooped for the first time. WOO! lol. I know that's what everyone wants to read about :P heh But it's part of the whole PP thing.
Thankfully it wasn't painful or anything. Still clogged the toilet though... oops.
I've been taking miralax for the last few days and I guess it helped so WOO! :D

Oren is doing great. His jaundice is clearing up really well and he is an eater. I've been having to pump since my nipples have been so sore and we're also having to supplement some too. He'll eat 3oz each time. Sometimes slightly less, but it's usually 3oz. O_O

At his last appointment on Saturday... he was weighing in at 6lbs15oz. I don't think he was getting hardly anything from me when he was BFing which is probably why he wanted to BF all the time. I'm still going to try once I'm healed up, but I think what we're doing now (same thing we did with Zoe), is what will be the better solution. But like I said, still going to try. Maybe try him on the breast for a little bit and then pump after to see if that helps with my supply. I would love it if I was one to have over supply but... nope :(
I'm pumping maybe 1.5-2oz right now. Just depends on when I pumped last. I haven't been doing it on as strict of a schedule as I probably should. Just been too tired to stick to something strict.
Going to try not to beat myself up too much about it though. I must admit that I do feel guilty, even though I have no control over this. I just wish it worked out a little better.
I do miss BFing him though which surprises me.
Even though he wanted to stay on all the time, I just loved those quiet moments holding him and rubbing his little head.... while trying not to suffocate him with my boobs lol

I'll post more photos of him soon. We got some really great newborn ones done in the hospital that I'll share :D

Zoe has been great. She's still her toddler whiny self.. which has amped up A LOT, but overall she's been a really great big sister so far. She doesn't seem to show signs of jealousy... yet. And the little bit that she has interacted with Oren.. she's been so sweet to him.
And thanks to her... Oren could sleep through a hurricane lol. Seriously... there is no noise we could make that would wake him.
Think we're going to try to go to the little neighborhood park today for her. Get her out of the house a little bit and treat her to some fun :)

My recovery has been good. Not easy, but easier with meds. My legs and feet are SO swollen though. A lot worse than they were with Zoe. They got seriously bad yesterday when we took a quick trip to Walmart. Bought some compression socks while there though and have been trying to keep my feet up and that has helped.
Kinda freaked me out a bit but thankfully doesn't seem to be anything serious.

Alrighty, that's all for now. Have to go pump again. I'll try to post more photos either later today or tomorrow.

Thursday, March 12, 2015


While I have a minute when I don't have a baby attached and I'm not dozing off lol...

Here's baby Oren. Born on 3/9/15 at 12:40pm. Weighing in at 7lbs 3oz and 18.5inches long.

And yeah... guessing everything went how most elective C-secs go. We got to come home yesterday (Wednesday) which we were very happy with lol.

We went in at around 9:30 Monday. I got an IV and started on fluids. Think they put something like 4 bags of fluids in me before my c-sec lol.
C-sec went off without a hitch. I did get nauseous and dry heaved a bit but their anti nausea stuff helped a lot.
Seemed like it took them forever to finally start trying to pull Oren out. When they did though.. WOW.. I definitely felt the pressure. Felt like someone was sitting/pushing on my chest. Not painful, just weird and uncomfortable.
Heard his sweet little cry though and... yeah... it was amazing :)
His breathing was a little rapid and heavy so they took him to be observed for a little bit while they were putting me back together.
Took them a while to do that and he was fine too.

Hospital stay was a bit easier. I was still checked a lot but not nearly as much as the first time. We actually got some rest.. not a lot but some which was more than what we had with Zoe.

I am trying breastfeeding, but Oren doesn't have a good deep latch so he's been chewing my nipples up.
It was ok at first.. just the first initial latch hurt but it was fine after.... but just a little bit ago... the pain didn't go away so I unlatched him and blood everywhere. My poor left nipple looks like he was trying to chew it off and it hurts so damn much :(
Going to try to keep going on the other breast, but that nipple is also pretty tender and sore too. Will be hand expressing some to keep the milk flowing and letting air on to the nips as much as possible.
Will also probably be supplimenting a little just to give my nipples some time to heal.

Oren is doing good though. He is jaundiced. We're waiting for the light therapy person to come by with whatever they're going to give us. He doesn't look as yellow as Zoe got but I think his levels are a little worse? I can't really remember what hers were.

He's a good little dude though. Sleeps really well so far. Gives DH and I a good 2 or so hours in between feedings so we're getting some rest.

DH is being amazing and doing so much. I'm obviously really limited in what I can do right now and my pain levels are still kind of high ish sometimes. He's been a really awesome daddy and husband.

Sorry if this is all a bit choppy. Trying not to stay on too long and hard to concentrate when in pain and tired lol.

So far... I'm good though. Recovery is still painful, but a lot easier than it was with Zoe. I wouldn't call this a breeze by any means, but it's also not too bad.

Oren is doing great and Zoe has been... Zoe lol. She really hasn't been paying him too much attention. I think she's still a bit tired and loopy/fussy feeling from her stay with MiL.

Monday, March 9, 2015

The big day

It's 5:30 right now. Just got up not too long ago and decided to stay up so I could F around on the computer a little bit before things got all hectic trying to get everything together. Well everything is together.. we just need to pack it in the car :D

I'd be at the hospital right now if my original schedule was still a go. Oh well. At least I was able to get some sleep last night. It wasn't quite as bad as the previous night but I still woke up A LOT.
I made sure to drink half a glass of water each time though so I think that helped keep the dryness at bay for a little longer.

Plus I kept getting some nasty acid reflux feelings. Thanks a lot DH and your need for some Taco Bell :\ I don't mind Taco Bell, it's not my fav food and w/ the GD I can't really eat enough there to satisfy me so we haven't gone, but I figured.. hey... last meal before baby..what could go wrong? Guess I should be happy it didn't make me sick? heh

Yesterday didn't exactly go as planned.
DH went to church... I knew we were going to go to his parents place so he could help them move our old mattress in to one of their rooms.
That got delayed just a little b/c my mom called wanting us to come pick up food.
We did that, then went to his parents and he helped them clean their bedrooms before even touching the mattresses. Yeah... if you saw their rooms you'd know how big of a task that was. They're not exactly the cleanliest of people and are serious pack rats. They're not as bad as they used to be w/ the hoarding but... they're still pretty bad.
Anyway, like a good son, he helped them clean, move a queen mattress to a different bedroom, then helped them move the king to their main one.
We got there around 2:30, didn't leave until 7:30. I kept falling asleep on the chair in the living room and Zoe was having fun playing with her cousin until her dad picked her up. Then all of that energy crashed and BOY did she get grumpy! Crying and fussing at absolutely nothing.
She's gotten in to the habit of screaming bloody murder when she's upset now too so yeah... there was a lot of that going on.
It was still nice getting to spend at least a little bit of time with her... even though most of that time was just watching her run around all over the place having a good time heh.

It has not sunken in yet for either of us that we're about to have another baby. I was laying in bed trying to get to sleep and it just all felt like a dream. Like I was going to wake up at any moment.
Heck, I still have those moments with Zoe.
We're not exactly the most mature people and thinking about us having 2 kids... WOW lol. Just so ready for this. Ready to see what my little guy looks like.

He hasn't been moving a whole lot. It has me a little worried and also not. I know they have their days where they don't move a ton, but I'm happy that he's going to be coming out today. One less unknown to worry about... replaced by a ton of others heh. At least when he is born.. I can actually see and touch him for reassurance.


But yeah... I just wanted to post one last time. Update probably won't come until Friday or the weekend. Sorry about that in advance but I promise to post lots of photos :)

Sunday, March 8, 2015

Just one more day O_O

One more day... WOW!
Yesterday dragged and felt like it went by quick. Not sure how that's possible but it did lol.

So yesterday we went and bought a TON of junk food. ROFL. Yeah... we're going to gain so much weight in the 2 weeks we're planning on saying F-it! Hey... not our faults easy food tastes delicious and are bad for you :P lol

We're stocked up though.. at least for a week. DH thinks 2 weeks but yeah.. I know that's not going to be the case once we're actually home.

Also, we got our new mattress yesterday! YAY! It's actually not the one we purchased.  They have a deal going on for $40 delivery if you donate to the local food bank. DH dropped some food off and went to make sure they knew. Welp, we learned that our mattress didn't come in when they said it would (Friday) and wouldn't be able to be delivered to us on Saturday. It was only coming in on Saturday and would be delivered Monday. Well.. yeah.. that wouldn't have worked for us lol.
I'm not sure how it happened but they got in some brand new mattress that was similar to the one we bought, but better quality. They were getting some of those in and asked if we would want that instead. They had one set up that DH laid on and yep... we got that one instead w/ no extra charge.

It's definitely an adjustment to our old one. Our old one had that indentation spot where I laid so my body was familiar with it. This one is firm and no indentation. It's comfy though.

Too bad I still slept like total shit last night b/c of this damn cold. Again, the actual cold is pretty mild. Just a stuffy nose and some sinus drainage that's causing some throat clearing, but that's it really now.
The stuffy nose part is going to do me in though. I am not exaggerating when I say that I woke up every hour last night.
I'd wake up b/c my nose and mouth would be completely dried out and hurting AND I would have to pee. B/c of the dry mouth and nose.. I'd have to drink a lot of water.. which of course led to me getting up in another hour to do it all over again... dried out and all.
Holy crap that was awful and frickin frustrating. All I wanted to do was just sleep but noooooooooo.
I am surprisingly feeling ok today though.. but I'm sure I'll be a walking pregnant zombie later.

Zoe had fun spending the night with her cousin. Thankfully they didn't let her stay up too late.

Zoe will be spending the night with either aunt or MiL tonight. I wanted her to stay home again but I guess it works out better this way, plus she loves spending time with them so it's ok.

So nervous and excited to see how she reacts to her new role as big sister. Not sure what she's going to do now that she's not going to be center of attention all the time. I think she'll be ok *nodnod*

What else what else.....
We keep being given baby clothes. Kinda frustrating b/c we'll finally have it all clean and oh look.... more clothes that need to be washed.
Don't get me wrong, I really really appreciate everything we're getting, it's just with a HE washer, you need a big load to clean things properly and a couple baby clothes isn't going to cut it :P lol
I'll have to throw a couple of towels in with it. Should be ok. Just something else we have to get done.


Man....... just one more day.....
There won't be any updates until we're home (probably Thursday). I have no idea what any of my login info is off the top of my head so won't be able to update through my phone or anything lol.
If we're friends on FB though, I should be updating there :)

FX for a nice smooth recovery and a healthy little baby boy!

Friday, March 6, 2015

Definitely a cold

Yeah, this is definitely a cold. Thankfully it's not that bad so far. Just mostly the vice feeling in my head and stuffy nose. Hoping it stays this way and goes quick like it did for Zoe. I'll still be requesting a face mask when Oren is born. I do not want to get him sick.

Also, DH called his mom last night and she's planning on being at the hospital when Oren is born. Thankfully the grandfather is doing well enough on his own that she doesn't have to quite wait on him ALL the time still. So I'm happy about that just knowing Zoe will be there to meet her brother. Just need to see if she'll leave Zoe's cousin there too.. well not there, with another family member. I Just don't want her there right at the start and distracting Zoe. Get those 2 together and it's chaos. Don't need that when I'm fresh from my c-sec ya know.
We should be going out with them tonight so we'll see what happens.

I'm stopping the blood sugar tests. There's just no point to doing them anymore. It's not like I'm going to go stuff my face full of cake and candy or something. I'm still sticking to eating on the modified diet... but just not waiting every 2 hours to eat now lol. Now that I'm not testing... I'm eating when I want to damnit.

This last week I've been wanting to eat eat and eat some more but with the 2hr restriction after eating... I haven't really been able to.

Looking forward to eating when I want! LOL

Looks like another momma in my DD group is in labor :D
There have been a couple more that have given birth too.
It's so exciting to see all of these women meeting their LOs. Just really makes it all so real and yeah.. this is happening now.
My gosh. it's finally Friday and yes, this week has DRAGGED. I'm kind of glad that it has but also just ready. I want to get the c-sec over with, get the hospital stay over with and get home with our new little guy.

Thankfully Zoe slept until 7 this morning. Wish she had slept in a bit longer but oh well. Better than 5:30 :P
She's been doing really well with her toddler bed. A lot better than I thought.
She still I think forgets that she can climb out of her bed when she wakes up. She eventually got it this morning.... and then started knocking on her door to get out lol. So funny :D

And yep... think this is about it. Just need to get the hospital bag packed now and.... well...just a few more days to go!

Thursday, March 5, 2015

Last appointment!

So I had my last appointment this morning :D YAY!
And boy did it take FOREVER. I was there at least an hour and a half. This particular doctor is always slow or overbooked or something.

The ultrasound went well. Looks like baby boy is going to have short little legs like Zoe does. They totally get that from either my mom, or DH's mother's side. His grandfather and one of his uncles have short legs.... they would've made great swimmers if they had gone that route. Long torsos with tiny legs lol. Ok I'm making them sound like mutants or something :P

His head was measuring almost 42w O_O and overall he looked good.

His estimated weight is 7lbs4oz. Exactly what it was with Zoe's last ultrasound :D I doubt he'll come out 7lbs5oz like she did... wouldn't doubt if he was closer to 8, but still thought that was so cool that they had the same estimate :)

The wait to be seen by the doctor was the worst part. A bored toddler is hard to get control of and the waiting room was packed.
And when I finally got put in to a room and the doctor came in.. I talked to her all of 2mins :\
I could've asked her questions but I think we already know everything we need to know.

Got my 6w PP appointment scheduled and yeah..... just have to make the long wait for Monday to get here :)

UGH Zoe woke up at frickin 5:30 this morning and did NOT go back to sleep.
I sure am missing the caffeine right now. Think I'm going to turn on some cartoons for her, recline and snooze as much as I can while she vegges out in front of the tv lol.

I WAS sleeping good last night until I woke up at midnight with a totally dried out nose and mouth. I tried going back to sleep, but the pain from it kept waking me. I drank almost 3 glasses of water throughout the night b/c I kept waking up totally dry from mouth breathing. AND I barely had to pee.. which should tell you just how dried out I did get.

I'm still getting that head in a vice feeling, but thankfully not dizzy. Seems to be a pretty mild cold. Zoe hasn't gotten any worse and her nose is barely runny now.
So really glad for that at least. Just hope it's gone soon.

Zoe is supposed to be spending the night w/ her aunt tomorrow. She loves her cousin, but I really did not want her to go over there. I know she'll have fun, but the last time she spent the night there, she didn't go to bed until 1am and still woke up super early and was absolutely miserable the next day :(
I don't want to keep her from spending the night places, but I just hate how she can't seem to sleep well anywhere else but home.
Plus I really didn't want her spending the night since its the last weekend alone with her, but it will give us time to clean and get last minute things done.

We still need to hash out a plan for her when I'm in the hospital and get someone to bring her to the hospital to visit since MiL won't be able to.

DH's coworkers threw him a little baby shower at work. Nothing like the first one for Zoe, but they were still too generous.
I guess that's a good thing about working with a lot of women/mothers lol.

We got a TON of diapers. Most of it was diapers which I'm fine with. We'll use them all :)
Also got a few onesies and other clothes. Really grateful for everything and that they did this for us even though it's our 2nd.

Oh and I got my VBS (virtual baby shower) gift the other day too :)
Not photoed was the pack of washclothes that Zoe had run away with and hid. They were just by our shoes but I had forgotten about them when I took the photo lol.
So cute!

Alrighty little man.... I think we're as ready as we're ever going to be.

Wednesday, March 4, 2015

Aches, Pains, Dizzy

That's what I got to wake up to this morning.
Started waking at around 1:30 last night feeling like my head was stuck in a vice. So not fun. It's like as soon as I lay down, my body decides to use all of the water I've had to make snot. My nose was SO stuffy and drippy last night. I must've been trying to breath through my nose while I was sleeping which resulted in the vice feeling.

I don't feel sick right this second. Just feel dizzy and off balance for some reason. Thought maybe blood sugar issue, but it was perfectly fine this morning. Maybe just something pregnancy related.

Also, sitting here, I feel fine.. no aches... but as soon as I get up... I feel all of Oren's weight way down there. I'm not having contractions or anything. It's just his weight causing aches.
I still can not see how that one woman was carrying around a 10lb baby and didn't know. There is just NO WAY. Even if she wasn't showing b/c she was overweight... she still would've felt movement. There is no way she felt nothing at all.

Anywho.... just here counting down the days still. It's only Wednesday... *cry*

Still on the fence about how I feel. On one hand.. I'm so ready to have Oren. But on the other... it's still intimidating and scary that we're going to have another baby.

Really hoping that this isn't a cold. If it is.. going to be requesting some face masks. I know I'll forget NOT to kiss him all over his precious face when he's here. W/ a mask on at least it will block some of the germs from getting to him. Do not want to know what it's like having a newborn w/ a cold :(

Got SOME of the dishes done. So many in there that I couldn't fit all of them in to the dish rack and the dishwasher. Yeah.. there were that many that I had let build up. Given I didn't fully load the dishwasher. It doesn't clean as well when it's full.
Had to chisel off the burnt on crap on one of the dishes... that was actually kind of therapeutic hacking at it with a butter knife heh. I still have to finish scrubbing it though which won't be fun.

Still have so much to clean. I still need to do water changes in the 3 fish tanks which is going to be a PITA. Not that it's difficult, just a little messy and will be a bit difficult in one tank that has a ton of baby fish in it. Have to watch it carefully so I don't suck any of them up and send them to their dirt death outside where the water drains.
I'll get it done today though.

OH and finally... Here's the shirt I made for Zoe :D It's not totally done yet. Need to let it set up for another day or so and wash it.

I put the glitter on Incredible and some glow in the dark paint on sister. The stars are just iron on things.
I should've cut it a bit better than I did, but oh well. It turned out ok.
Just need to find that velcro and sew that on after it's washed.

Tuesday, March 3, 2015

Less than a week now

Didn't want to leave a rant post as the only thing I posted today lol.

Really need to get Zoe's shirt done. I bought some pretty glitter and fabric glue for it. It needs 3 days to set so I really need to get it done b/c DH wants her to wear it to the hospital when she sees her brother heh.

We picked out Oren's go home outfits last night. We actually don't have a lot of NB size stuff which I'm fine with since they usually grow out of those so quick and we'll probably just have him in PJs and whatnot most of the time anyway.

Now just need DH to go get the luggage from the FROG (finished room over garage). I could go get it I guess but with how achy I've been feeling.... nah. I'll just wait for him to get it :P lol

Other than crap I use every day like my phone and the charger.. I think we're good to go with the hospital bag stuff.

I don't think Zoe really understands that she can climb out of her bed at night or in the morning lol. She's so cute, but it was a bit frustrating this morning. She woke up at 5:30 for some reason. I got up to check on her... changed her diaper, put her back in bed and she was ready to get up and go out in to the living room. NOPE!
Wasn't going to happen. She was asking for her My Little Pony dolls so I shut the door and went to get them. She thought I was just leaving her in her room and pitched a monster fit until I came back a minute later. She did go back to bed though. Woke up at 7:30 and again... she didn't bother getting out of her bed.
She just stood up in it, went to the right side (close to the door) and started her whining cry to get up.  Oh well... at least she went back to sleep for a little bit :P Better than nothing.

Although since I'm not having a daily diet dr pepper like I was before.. I am definitely more tired throughout the day now. I could really use better sleep.
I think my nose started dripping last night. Pretty sure I caught whatever Zoe has.
Her "cold" hasn't turned in to anything... just a slightly runny nose every once in a while, so I'm hoping that's all I'll experience too. But the extra stuffy nose with the feeling of your nose leaking is.... bleh. Hard enough trying to get used to ear plugs and having to listen to my heartbeat and just..... yeah....

Thankfully the sleep I am getting is good though. It's just sometimes getting back to sleep that is the problem.

Ok so I do have a bit of a rant....
Zoe makes a HUGE mess during the day with all of her toys. I really don't care b/c the hell if I'm going to try picking it all up just for her to make a mess again.
So at night before bed, we help her pick up her toys (after a lot of frustration trying to get her to listen to us that is :P heh).
The thing I want to rant about is DH looking at me like I'm supposed to bend down and pick up all of her toys. Uhm.... no dude... just no. I have a hard enough time right now just sitting down and getting up from the dang couch.

Dh has been a huge help this pregnancy, but he just does not understand sometimes, or forgets just how uncomfortable and achy this process is. No I'm not totally helpless here, but if I don't have to sumo squat to pick up some tiny ass toy off the floor.. I'm not going to.

Which reminds me that I really need to do the dishes. Do not want to come home from the hospital to a sink full of stinky gross dishes. Have one that's been sitting in there for a while b/c it has burnt on crust that does not want to come off. BLEH!

People are assholes...

So I headed out this morning to Target and Michaels. Picked up the crap from Michaels and walked slowly over to Target b/c I started aching really bad. I was doing full blown pregnancy waddle b/c it was the only stride that felt comfortable lol.
Anyway... I'm right at the doors to go in to Target when this couple w/ their boy in tow come barging in right in front of me. Clearly seeing me, but not giving a shit.
Whatever.. it was misting outside so they just wanted to get out of the weather.
Well then said woman of the couple takes her sweet ass time at the shopping carts completely blocking the area and clearly seeing that I needed to get by to get my own cart. She didn't give a flying fuck though.

Well I go about my business and pick up a couple of things.... and this target didn't have a couple of other things in stock that I wanted to get *grumble*
Anyway... I head to check out and oh look.. it's that same couple who see me and seriously race in front of me to get in line before me.
Whatever... they only had like 1 or 2 things like I did, so not a big deal.

We're both waiting in the same line when a cashier for the returns/checkout line comes through and tells me she can check me out.

Oh hells no for the asshole couple. They pitch a gawd damn tantrum and LOUDLY ask this poor underpaid employee why she ignored them and blahblahblah. Nevermind that the ONE person in front of them was just grabbing their bags in to their cart so they were literally just about to get checked out themselves.

Just UGH.... seriously. OMG I was this close to turning around and bitching them out. I was hurting, I was pissed that the store didn't have some of the things I wanted to get in stock and I felt bad for the poor cashier just doing her job.

People SUCK.

Monday, March 2, 2015

Stubborn child

Someone is paying attention! Time to go to sleep!.... at least that's what I imagine Oren thinking to himself whenever I go in for my appointments :P lol

NST this morning was a big ole unsuccessful mess again. He did move a couple of times, but for some reason the monitor kept losing his heartbeat. It sounded like it was picking mine up over his.
Anyway... I ended up just getting another u/s. He moved a bit more with this one thankfully and everything looked perfect. Just a stubborn little guy in there.

Only one more appointment though! WOO!

Man our printer sucks. With the help of DH, we made a shirt design for Zoe's big sis shirt. It did not print off very well on to the transfer paper. Boo.
Will be going to Michaels tomorrow to look for some fabric paint to make it look better.

Could've went to Joanns today but I didn't feel like it. Went to Walmart to pick up some things and just ugh... Walmart...

I did pick up another nursing tank. The nursing bras they had were just... no.... hideous things. Not comfortable looking like the ones I have. I'd rather have an annoying flap in the back than get what they had.
Also bought some snacks to take to the hospital (if they last that long) and a few other small things we were wanting to get.
I did forget my bottle of baby shampoo/wash though. But Michaels is right beside Target so I can just get that tomorrow.

Zoe did well her 2nd night in her bed. She went right down to sleep. Didn't get up once :)
And this morning, she didn't get out of her bed until I went in to her room to get her.
FX it keeps up like this. We'll see what tomorrow morning brings when I don't have to get up so early lol.
Now if we could just get her to use her potty again :P She'll sit on it but that's about it.

Ugh.. I'm not sure who is going to bring Zoe to the hospital. With MiL having to wait on the grandfather ALL the time and her having to babysit her other grandchild.. she's not going to be able to bring Zoe to us which I'm not happy with. Baby and I aren't going anywhere, but it would be nice if Zoe could see him ASAP. I'm sure someone will bring her... when? I have no frickin idea.

And nevermind our dogs. NO idea who the heck is going to watch them for us. Will have to hash all this out with DH.
If the weather is supposed to be nice next week (it's supposed to be as of right now).... then they'll be outside for most of the time and DH can come home at night after that first night.
*shrugs* We'll see..... I just don't want to come home to giant piles of crap or puddles of pee on the carpet.
We really do need to buy ANOTHER new carpet cleaner :\

Sunday, March 1, 2015

Photos :D

Photos! :D

Zoe wanting me to take a photo of her toys... have a half dozen more of these with her putting a different one in front of the camera heh.

With her master.... or is she the master? *gasp*

And enjoying her bed :D

And finally... my 38w1d photo I just took before hopping in the shower.

Compared to 38w with Zoe

Wow.... you can definitely tell that I'm carrying A LOT lower with him than I did with her.
Here's another photo w/ Zoe at 38w3d
Yeesh... I knew he was low, but just looking at myself in the mirror.. it didn't look this obvious.

I love Sundays

Mostly b/c DH lets me sleep in and then he and Zoe go off to church leaving me home alone for a couple of hours.
Not sure if he's going next Sunday so I need to enjoy this time while I still have it lol.

About to go take a shower and do a bit of trimming down below. It's a jungle down there again and I want it to be as short as possible (without being bald) for recovery. Nothing grosser than having shag carpet down there while bleeding. BLEH
Sorry to get all graphic but...yeah.. just not ideal to keep it untamed.

I did eventually go back to bed last night. Think it was at 5. And surprisingly I got back to sleep and slept great too even though I couldn't get my earplugs in correctly.

Oh I forgot to mention that I kept having dreams that I was bleeding the other night. Just kept dreaming that I'd go to the bathroom and see mucusy bloody discharge on the tp and in the toilet and I'd tell DH that it was go time lol.
I really haven't had a lot of pregnancy dreams this time around.... or sex dreams either. Well no.. I have had a few sex dreams, but not nearly as much as I had with Zoe. Not that that matters at all lol.

Used the new spray cleaner stuff on the cat pee spot and it seems to have worked. I had to spray it like crazy and then spray it again, but I haven't smelled cat pee since. Thank goodness.

Now to just spot clean the ass drag spots and vomit. I'll probably leave that until next weekend. No point in doing it now only for one of the pets to fuck up the carpet the day after :\

DH took the monitor this morning to let me sleep in. He said Zoe got up... tried the doorknob, then just sort of wandered around her room a bit before he got her lol. I'll get to see this tomorrow morning but it sounds pretty good. Going to figure out which toys (other than the ones on her bed) to put in there for her that she may enjoy playing with when she wakes up.
Nothing she can be destructive with though....
We took some photos of her enjoying her bed. I'll post some after I get done showering :D


It's 3:40 am and I'm wide awake. Awesome.....
Got up to pee and that was it.... couldn't get back to sleep. I was tired, but then not being able to breath through my nose caused me to mouth breath, which caused my mouth to dry out, which caused me to drink more.... had to pee more... etc etc.
Apparently my body doesn't understand how to use the water I'm drinking b/c as soon as I do drink something... my nose instantly makes more mucus so I have to mouth breath even more which dries me out etc etc etc etc.....
SO frickin annoying.
THEN... even with the earplugs in.. I can still hear DH snoring the house down. Just frustrating from every angle.

I laid in bed for about an hour and a half before just finally saying F-it and getting up. No point in laying there with a stuffy nose, needing to pee, and needing to drink more.

Sigh.. just want to get back to bed soon. I'm sure that won't happen until 5am or so :\