Wednesday, July 1, 2015


I'm sorry I haven't been posting a lot. Been so scatterbrained lately and so tired that I haven't remembered to do it and then forget that I haven't.

So anyway.... I think I could have ovulated. On thursday when we were still at the beach, I had more spotting. It was more than it was before so I thought AF was going to start and since we weren't going straight home, decided to use a tampon.
When we finally got home, I took the tampon out and while there was only a tiny bit of blood, there was a decent amount of EWCM on it.
Then I think on Saturday I started feeling aches coming from the right O area. Same on Sunday too and just a little bit today.
We did have sex on Sunday but I don't think there's any chance of an accident happening lol. We used regular lube and I got up right after and used the bathroom. That's if I did ovulate though.
We'll see. I'm not really looking forward to getting my period back, but it would be nice to know that my body is working as it should lol.
If... IF I were to end up pregnant again... DH better not even feign ignorance b/c I told him about the EWCM and even joked that if he wanted another baby we could have sex :P
But again, this all depends on if I did actually ovulate.

Oren is doing well. Still has his usual wake up schedule which is just making me exhausted. I don't mind him waking up once during the night b/c he goes right back to sleep after eating... it's the waking up early morning that is doing me in. The boy needs to sleep in damnit! He starts waking up around 5:30. I can usually get him back to sleep but it's usually a restless sleep where he squirms a lot so I can't get back to sleep.

He's fussy so I have to cut this short :D

Tuesday, June 30, 2015

Short rant

So unless you've been living under a rock, you know about the whole gay marriage thing.
Well a couple of days ago, aunt decided she needed to post something against gay marriage and how it's against the bible and all other bullshit that's usually posted.

Uhm... excuse me bitch but you're the LAST person to say anything about who should and shouldn't marry. She's on marriage number FOUR. Please tell me how that is better than 2 people of the same sex marrying?

I have no problem that she was married/divorced so many times. To each their own... but I do have a problem with her spouting off bullshit about the sanctity of marriage when her ass has divorced so many times.

Just.... UGH. I don't understand why people are SO against it. Like somehow 2 guys or 2 girls getting married is somehow going to make hetero marriages mean less? B/c what 2 consenting adults do in their private lives is going to totally ruin straight people's lives?
Busy body assholes with nothing better to do than dictate how others should live.

Sunday, June 28, 2015

Back to it

So finally back to good eating again after a week long of horrible junk food binge eating lol.
Yeah... I gained it all back and then some. Took almost a month to get rid of 6lbs and I wiped that progress away in just a week. Thanks body! :\

Did I post when we got home from the beach? I don't even remember.
If not....
The beach was great :D Zoe had a blast... Oren not to much lol. Zoe LOVED playing in the sand. A little too much b/c she ended up rubbing it all over her legs/thighs and gave herself bad chafing. Ouch.
Oh and that nice new swim top I ordered online? It was nice, but out of ALL the beach we were at... of course at exact area was the ONE other girl with the exact same top on. Seriously???

Oh and also... hotel was ok. Nothing fancy that's for sure but it was comfy... that is until our hotel neighbor moved in and decided it was a GREAT idea to smoke weed in their nonsmoking room all the damn time. The funk of it seeped in to our room and in to the hallway.
Come on now. These couldn't have been amateurs... they had to know that weed is some funky shit and that the smell would travel.

But yeah, overall it was a really nice family vacation :)

We really didn't get a lot of photos though. Boo :( With all the crap we had to drag along everywhere, we ended up forgetting to bring the camera. Oh well.... sucks but oh well.

OH! I almost forgot... I started spotting the day we got to the beach. Frickin awesome timing body! :\
Thought it might be the start of AF b/c it was a good bit, but then it dwindled down to nothing. It then started back up on Thursday on the way back home and now it's back to nothing.
Just some random awfully timed post partum shit going on.

But anyway, we've been back home for a few days and DH had to go back to work on Tuesday. He's off Monday b/c he has to work next weekend :\
He gets paid extra for working a holiday but I swear he gets screwed at work. They know he won't really complain so they stick him on all of the holidays that are on the weekend.
Thankfully he's going to be starting a new position soon where he won't be required to work any holidays or weekends anymore unless he wants to.

We took Zoe to see Inside Out on Saturday. We wanted to see how she would be since we want to take her to see Star Wars. She was ok. She didn't want to stay seated the whole time, but overall she did pretty well.
That was a super cute movie though and I absolutely loved the short animated thing before it too. If you don't know what it is, it's called Lava and it's about a volcano longing for a companion. It's a song and just.. UGH so sweet. Loved it.

I think Zoe's gonna do just fine seeing Star Wars :D Now to find her something super nerdy and Star Wars to wear to it lol.

Wednesday, June 17, 2015


Rant incoming...
So on Sunday, Zoe went to MiL's house after church b/c there was a thing at the church later in the day so we were just going to get her then. I KNEW I should've told DH to tell his mom to put Zoe in something else while she was over there, but I didn't b/c I didn't want to sound mean or anything.
And btw... Zoe was wearing a brand new dress I had gotten for her from Kohl's online. It was the first time she had worn it and I didn't want it to get dirty before the church thing.
Welp, church thing happens, there's a food thing after and we notice of course.. Zoe's gotten something on her dress from something she was playing with at MiL's house. MiL said it was some kind of putty stuff *shrugs*
Anyway... that pissed me right off but whatever. So when we get home, I put the dress in to the sink to soak it a bit to get this putty crap off her dress. Welp.. this shit has stained her dress.

THEN today... DH wanted to go to church and wanted to take Zoe. I'm pulling out a shirt for her... one she's never worn before, but I had sent it with her when she spent the night with aunt.
DH says nope b/c there's something on it. WHAT????
Sure enough.... there's some kind of crap splotched on to it... and honestly it looks just like the putty shit that was on her dress. No idea if that is what it was or not.
I soak it and Gawd damnit... it looks like whatever it was may have had a bleach effect on the shirt (it's a darkish purple color).
Seriously???? I'm just so frickin pissed off right now.
Yes... Zoe is a toddler and is going to get crap on her clothes... I'm not an idiot and it's why I always send more clothes than she needs when she does spend the night somewhere. But on a shirt she's never worn and on her brand new frickin dress???
Royally flippin pissed off. At least now I know never to send her over there with something new b/c shit is going to get ruined.

Saturday, June 13, 2015

Let me sleep!!

*cry* I just want to sleep. Is that too much to ask?
I don't mind getting up to feed Oren. He usually doesn't wake until a bit later now which is fine. Gives me a longer stretch to sleep.
BUT waking up later also means that I don't get as much sleep in before he wakes again.
Take this morning for instance.
He woke up around 4:30. I fed him and laid him back down. I was still pretty tired, but for some damn reason, my body just said a big fat NOPE to getting back to sleep. I did eventually get back to sleep just before 6. And 20min later.... there's Oren... waking up. UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGH
I'm SO stinkin tired.
I don't want to have to rely on caffeine to wake me up.

I just want sleeeeeeeeeeeeeep.

But anyway... Zoe spent the night with MiL or aunt.
There's some church bible thing this weekend for kids that we dropped her off at and that MiL is taking her to today.
There are a lot of kids there so it's good to get her socializing.

After we ate dinner, we went to Dollar Tree and Hobby Lobby to look for the DIY stuff. Bought a bunch of felt and magnets to make the alphabet. Also saw how much the faux stained glass stuff was. Not too expensive, but will save that for later when I have a good idea.
Didn't see much of the dollhouse stuff I was looking for. Hobby Lobby had actual dollhouse items that were SUPER expensive though. Man that crap is expensive. They did have a few cheaper things that I want to get. Will have to paint them myself, but that's not a big deal.
Oh and Dollar Tree didn't have any kind of dollhouse furniture. Not sure if they ever did. Maybe Dollar General has some.

Oh gotta get the little booger ready. We're going blueberry pickin! :D

Friday, June 12, 2015

Life and stuff

Sorry I haven't been posting a lot lately. Just been so tired recently that I haven't felt like doing much.

Oren was not taking to the Baby's Only formula very well. He ate it fine, it's just the pooping part that he was having trouble with. It started yesterday and my gosh, I feel so bad for his little butt :(
He would cry and strain and cry and strain to get the little pellets out.
We had a very long night last night b/c he woke up trying to poop. DH actually went to Walmart at 3:30am to get Enfamil again along w/ some juice to help.
I had told DH that I didn't think we should give him the Baby's Only stuff just yet b/c I remember Zoe having the same problem. Not as bad as this, but her poops did become more solid and she had trouble with it too, but he convinced me that it would be fine.
Oh well.. live and learn.
Oren is fine though. I haven't given him anymore of the BO yet. Want him to pass the pasty stuff first and then I'll switch between the BO and Enfamil.
He's starting to really take an interest in toys now. It's so cute seeing the awkward grabs and trying to bring everything to his mouth lol.
Will have to get Zoe to be more diligent with picking up the tinier pieces of her toys though. Do not need the small pieces all over the place once he's mobile. Disaster waiting to happen there.

While Zoe does love her baby brother, yeah, she's definitely showing some signs of jealousy. Thankfully nothing violent. It's mostly just her trying to participate and 'help' out. I have seen her poking and pinching his cheeks just a tad bit too hard, but she doesn't seem to be doing it to hurt him. She's just seen me poking his chunkiness so she copies not realizing that I'm doing it gently.

She has been AWFUL at bedtime though. Getting ready is perfect most of the time. She'll brush her teeth, gather her toys up, etc... but as soon as her door closes... here come the cries and screams and pleads for the door to be open.
Really hoping she gets over that soon.
We were going back in and checking on her and at first it helped to calm her down, but she started to continue to cry as soon as we left again.
Now.. we just let her cry. It's frustrating and I hate hearing it, but she's gotta learn that we're not going to play the '101 Ways to delay bedtime' game with her.

She's good though. Her skin still feels all rough from the strep, but it hasn't gotten worse so I guess that's good? We're not really sure. Should probably call her doctor and ask.

Been looking up more DIY projects for her and I found a really cute felt magnetic alphabet one I want to do and think she'll like. She shouldn't be able to screw these up like she has her regular soft magnet ones or the shower ones. Girl can not keep things out of her mouth and she has chewed up a good many of those.

Speaking of DIY stuff... I finally started on something on the thing we made Zoe. It looks like shit right now but oh well. Probably should've gone it differently so it wouldn't look so bad, but I'm over it now lol.
Just need to put something else up, get DH to drill a hole, and a few other small details and should be done for the most part. I want to make a few more items for it for details, but that can wait. I promise.. photos will be taken and posted once it's done :)

Would like to go to Dollar Store and the hobby shops to price things for the possible bookshelf dollhouse thing I want to do for Zoe. Hoping we can keep the price to around 20-30.. including paint, but I need to see how much it's going to cost to make furniture or see if the Dollar store or someplace has stuff. If it's not that much, then I can really start planning it all out and getting it started :) May not be for her birthday but I think we could get it done by Christmas :)

Oh! AND, I would really like to try my hand and faux stained glass making. Sounds and looks simple enough and Walmart and other places sell super cheap frames so it shouldn't cost that much for me to try out. Would really like to make Zoe one for her room... something girly, but haven't come up with anything yet. Just don't want it to be another Frozen something. She still likes it, but not nearly as much as she did before. Think she's more in to My Little Pony right now.

Diet is still going strong. Helps when I don't have to cook every meal lol.
Weighed in today and I'm down 6lbs. Not too shabby. Wish it was more, but hey... I'll take whatever loss I can get :)
If I can lose 2lbs a week... I could reach my dream goal of 50lbs lost by Christmas. That would be AMAZING! I know it won't happen though. Not being pessimistic, just realistic. We have our beach trip coming up in a couple of weeks. I'll probably gain 5lbs.
Then we have Zoe's birthday, my birthday, DH's birthday, and whoever elses we go to.
For my own, I'll try to keep any cheats to just that day or just a couple of days at the most so I don't completely ruin the progress I've done. Same for Zoe's and Im sure DH will want the same for his.
Then, there's Halloween & Thanksgiving. Thanksgiving shouldn't be THAT bad and I don't think we're passing out candy this year since last year was terrible. Still have to deal with Zoe's stash though and us around candy= a shark around blood. Uncontrollable feeding frenzy! lol
We'll figure something out when we get to that point. Hopefully by then, we'll have our willpower nice and strong and be down a good bit of weight so it will be easier to resist eating everything.

I've set some 10lb goals for myself.
I have around 80or so pounds I want to lose. Every 10lbs lost.. I'm going to give myself a reward. Nothing too big at first, but the rewards will grow as I continue to lose.
I really want the full sleeve tattoo once I am at my ultimate goal. Just need to figure out what the heck I want tattooed. Don't want another huge regret like I have with my back tat right now. UGH... stupid teenagers shouldn't be able to get tattoos! lol

My first 10lb goal is to go see a movie in theaters. :D Not a huge reward, but it's a start.
2nd one is to go to the zoo with the fam.
And so on and so forth. NO food rewards unless it's to buy some kitchen gadget... we really do need new pots and pans.

My boobs are feeling a lot better. Those first couple of days SUUUUUUUUUUCKED so bad.
My breasts do still feel a little sore to the touch, but I'm not in agony anymore.

Tuesday, June 9, 2015

DIY projects!!

Wanted to quickly post before bed...

I have been really REALLY itching to do some kind of DIY project lately. Finally started looking in to it tonight and have so many things I want to try out!!

For Zoe's birthday... I want to make her a dollhouse out of this old cheap bookshelf we have. It's just one of those crappy 3 shelf ones. We've had it for ages and it's not doing anything but holding some picture frames that DH just needs to frickin hang up already.
I've been looking at DIY dollhouse furniture on the cheap and everything for it. She loves her Little People princess castle thing, but she always goes crazy for the dollhouse at MiL's place and I would love for her to have one here.
It seems easy enough to convert the bookshelf. Would just need DH to cut a few things and whatnot :D So excited to try that out!

Also, I want to put some kind of canopy over her bed. She hasn't slept in her bed in weeks now and I think making it like a little fort (but prettier) would get her to actually sleep in it at night. Plus it would just look really pretty :D That doesn't seem like it would be that hard to do or that expensive if we could find some cheap sheer/lacey curtains.

Also.... did I ever post photos of the big birthday present DH made her last year?? I don't think I did, did I??
Well, it's not even finished yet, but I'm planning on starting the finishing touches for that tomorrow. I WILL post photos of it when it's done. Promise! :D

So excited to finally have some ideas in mind that shouldn't break the bank! Just hope Oren & Zoe cooperate a bit so I can get them done :)