Sunday, February 19, 2017

Sunday funday post!

So.. we moved Ezra in to his room last night and it went pretty well :D
Did put him to bed a little later only b/c DH and I stayed up later, but it went great.
He cried a little at first but went right to sleep and seemed to sleep well.
He did cry a couple of times during the night, but got himself back to sleep after a cry or 2. I did check on him the first time, but don't think I needed to.
The frickin monitor went off twice. First time, it only gave the first warning beep once.
2nd time.. it did the warning beep twice and then went off. He was just slightly off to the side... that was it. Thing had no reason to go off /grumble
But other than that... everything was great :D
Hopefully it keeps going that way!

DH also took Zoe's bed apart and put her big girl bed together. We need to buy a box spring for it and got some support bracket things just to be on the safe side (since we know they're going to jump on it so we wanted extra support).
We already had a mattress though that I completely forgot about.
Hey.. that is money saved :D We were looking at getting her a 250dollar one so pfft.. this saves us some money.
The mattress isn't like the best quality, but it will be perfectly fine for a few years :D We already have a mattress protector sheet for it and everything!

Zoe & Oren spent the night with aunt. She asked if they both could so... sure, why not. After dinner with the inlaws, we went to Walmart to get Zoe some new sheets. We got her DC superhero girl sheets and a throw. She was acting like a butt at home when we were asking her what she wanted, so we picked for her lol.
DH is getting the box spring after church.
I keep bugging him to also pick up a playhouse for them. Hey... now that we don't have to spend 250 on a mattress.. we can spend 50 more and get them that awesome playhouse! :D

Also went and got some more veggie and flower seeds along with some seed starting containers! Plan on doing that later today and probably tomorrow too. Can't wait to get it all started!
Let the kids play outside while I get that going and just get some sun and fresh air :D
DH keeps saying he wants to redo the garden area. DUnno why and really don't care if they're redone or not.

We also went to Target and bought a few discounted valentine's day things lol.

I Dunno what happened though but my body felt like it did when I was pregnant with Ezra at the end. Ached all over, my feet were killing me, my hips felt like they were going to pop out of joint, my lower abdomen felt so bloated and ached like crazy.
We didn't even do a ton of physical activity. Didn't walk around or stand for any longer than usual, but my body sure as hell felt like it.
I didn't sleep on it wrong, didn't feel anything weird..... my body just... sucked.
My feet are still sore as heck today and I'm incredibly tired.
Even though Ezra slept well.. I sure as heck didn't. Guess my brain isn't used to not being woken up so it kept waking itself up all night long. I slept ok, but just kept waking up every hour give or take.

SO tired right now.
I woke up at 7:30 b/c I couldn't get back to sleep, then took a quick nap at about 9:30. It's 1pm now and I want to sleep some more.

I did have a headache this morning that took forever to go away, so maybe it's all something hormonal.
Did spot some last night, but that's all it was and nothing so far today.
Whatever it is.. it sucks!

I'll post some photos up tomorrow or Tuesday. DH is off tomorrow so I may not have a chance to blog.

Friday, February 17, 2017

Expected, sucks, but gotta keep chugging

So I knew my weight wasn't going to be great this morning.
Just feeling a bit blah and bloated.
It wasn't as bad as I thought, but still 219.2. So up a little from last week... for now.
It sucked seeing it, but it is what it is.
It's gonna go down damnit.. just going to take FOREVER lol.
And I did actually exercise this week.... once :P lol
I tried a dance video and holy crap that was embarrassing. Only here with the kids and I was still embarrassed lol.

Anyway, I forgot to take a shot of myself, so here it is. No change and I still look pregnant. Thanks food! /grumble

Next week... definitely going to try to get in more exercise. May just start pulling a Homer Simpson and just get a dumbbell and just do that the entire day. Why not if I'm just sitting around doing nothing. Just get a little weight... 3lbs at first and just lift it.
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Ezra is going to be going in to his room finally. Tonight or tomorrow... not sure.
Part of me can't wait b/c I'm tired of hearing the creaky bassinet squeek whenever he moves in it, but then another part of me wants to put it off for longer b/c it means I'll have further to travel to check on him lol.
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I swear... all 3 kids got hurt yesterday. Nothing serious thankfully...

Ezra got that thermometer shoved in to his ear. Yes, he's fine... 

Zoe was jumping off the couch on to a pile of blankets. Not sure what happened but she was on the couch and fell off the side of it where the side table is. Bonked her arm, leg and head. Think mostly her arm though. With the way she was screaming, you would have thought she had broken it. Nope.. she's fine and dramatic.

Zoe and Oren were playing on the love seat and Oren fell off the side of it. Totally fine and he was already kind of laying on the side so it wasn't a big fall or anything.

Sigh.... these kids are going to give me a heart attack.
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Think we're going to convert Zoe's toddler bed to a full bed soon. Her big girl bed.... /cry
We're hoping it keeps her sleeping in her room, but I'm sure she'll still climb in to bed with us lol.
It needs to be done though. Her crib mattress is ruined and.. yeah... she needs her big girl bed.
Gonna be pricey though. Gotta get a mattress and get bed set for it.
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Ezra is up from his 10min nap /grumble.... and fussing so... tata for now :D

Thursday, February 16, 2017

A day full of headaches and adjusting

Stupid glasses... why couldn't I have 20/20 vision. Sigh.. I miss those days when I was young and had good eyesight. Then in HS, I kept having to squint to see the board. Didn't even think anything of it until it was pointed out to me. Then I finally got glasses and it became clear (get it? get it?) how badly I did need them.
My eyesight isn't THAT bad, but sitting in the chair.. if I took them off, I wouldn't be able to read what I was typing on the tv. Things are blurry.
I'm not like DH who is pretty much blind without his. Without his glasses, everything just becomes blurry shapes.
Hoping our kids get my eyesight.. or better yet... don't have bad eyes, but pfft, doubt that. Both his parents wear glasses, both of mine do too.

Anyway... today has been fun. Getting used to the new glasses and adjusting them constantly b/c...

****interrupted by Oren putting a thermometer in Ezra's ear****

UUUUUUUGH.... this is what I spend all day trying to prevent and the one moment I take to blog and this happens when I'm not paying attention. Awesome.
Ezra is ok. He cried for a minute, but he seems ok. He's having himself a bottle right now and is mumbling to it.
Poor baby boy.
Don't even know where the thermometer came from but in the trash it goes.
Not looking forward to stuff up the nose either which I know will happen.

....

but... my glasses aren't sitting right on my face. They need to sit up higher. I adjusted them some with some needle nose pliars, but not enough apparently. May try to adjust them some again, but not really sure I have enough nose up there for the nose thingies to sit on lol.
We do need to go get an eye exam though. I hate the drops. I can't help but freak out whenever the doctor tries to put them in. It's just my automatic uncontrollable reaction. I squirm and start blinking like crazy.
Do not fuck with my eyes damnit! Just ask me if 1 or 2 looks better!
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I spotted some yesterday. Thought for sure that my period was going to start, but a whole lot of nothing today. Had some slightly tinged toilet water after using the bathroom, but other than that.. nothing.
I'm bloated, getting acne, emotions are a bit high right now.... just wish something would happen. Get it out of the way already.

I do not expect my weigh in tomorrow to be good.. like.. at all.

Wednesday, February 15, 2017

Noooooo. RIP glasses

DAMNIT!!! My glasses just broke :( :( :(
They didn't feel right on my face so I kept adjusting them.. all of a sudden, the side part... whatever the fuck it's called started to bend more than it should have and POP off it came. /sob
I loved these damn glasses. Rimless which I love b/c your vision isn't blocked...
nice THIN arms? on them so again.. your peripheral vision isn't blocked.
Only negative is that you NEEDED 2 hands to put them on. The arms are springy so they spring closed when they're not on your face so you need 2 hands to open them up and put them on.. if that makes sense.
Ugh.. loved them... sigh... RIP :(
And the purple parts are supposed to be white but thanks to my hair dye... they're purple now :P heh


Thankfully I have another pair with the same script. BUT these are what the others aren't. They have rims and the arms are really thick and block my side vision. Plus, the lense part is too small for my eyes so my entire vision isn't looking through them. Didn't even consider that when I got them. Just thought
"OOO these are pretty... and look! A butterfly! GIMME!"
Sigh.....
I've only worn these twice b/c I hated them and now I'm stuck with them for who knows how long.... /cry
They are still pretty... just not what I want and I hate that I have to get used to wearing them now. All I see is the rim around the lenses.... SIGH!!!

House plants!! So exciting

So so exciting I know ;) lol
I like my mundane life though... just wish there were aliens... ;) rofl
So... I just cut up the 2 pineapples we bought and prepped the good top to hopefully get a pineapple plant growing. WOO! (it's the red cup in the middle).
It's just in water right now but will be planted in some soil once it gets some good roots on it :D
That's the orchid I've had for a few years now. It's not the biggest prettiest one, but it's endured being forgotten about so yeah :P lol
And the other pot has my dead avocado tree in it. I should've repotted it a long long time ago, but laziness and a couple kids later.. it was also forgotten about and died just this last year. :(
Feel so bad, but I have another seed going in some water so hopefully I'll have another plant soon that I will definitely take better care of.
And 2nd pic is the bamboo we got for Ezra's room. It also needs to be repotted. Need to look it up before it dies. It's pretty good so far though and has actually grown a decent amount now that it's in a lit area (Ezra's room is pretty dim now that it has curtains).


My crazy plant that my mom gave me that really needs to be repotted. It's SO crowded in the one it's in. One of these coming weekends, I'm gonna spend the day outside just repotting everything, getting some seeds started outside after cleaning the garden up while the kids run around and.. yeah.. it will be a nice day :)

It's a very horrible looking tomato plant. Surprised it's still trying to stay alive, but it's getting pulled up soon so I can put the pineapple in to it. Or the avocado.
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One of my new favorite foods!
I can eat the entire bad by myself and have a few times now. Not ashamed!
You can get it from Sam's Club. It comes w/ 2 bags taped together and costs about $4 something. Very cheap.
It's SO good. I saute it w/ some butter, salt, pepper and garlic powder. I like them soft, but not too soft. /nodnod
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That's all the milk in the fridge now..... sigh. All of that used to be full

Along with all of these shelves. So full of milk w/ every single bottle filled to the brim, PLUS at one point, I had to fill a tupperware container too.
/cry/sings Those were the days......

This is what I pumped last night before bed. That's all I got after pumping for about 40mins. Right first, then left, then right again.
Sigh... soon... very soon it will be down to drops
Really need to see who I need to call about getting my wisdom teeth removed along w/ the implant thing put in. Not sure if I need to go through my regular dentist or call the place that extracted my broken tooth. 
Just need to get it done and over with. May wait until after Oren's birthday... just so I won't have to worry about missing birthday cake ;) rofl

Tuesday, February 14, 2017

The bad part no one wants to admit to

... So that last post was pretty bitchy. Damn... I was trying to get to sleep last night and all I could think about was how mean I was.
I could delete it, but, no. I 'said' it... I own up to how mean I can be sometimes.
Try not to be, but sometimes.. something finally just rubs you the wrong way and all hell breaks loose.
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Speaking of mean....
That part of parenthood that no one wants to admit to... getting pissed off at your kids.
Not talking about frustration.. I'm talking about ANGER.
I'm sure there will be some that deny ever getting angry, but they're GD liars.
Oh.. I feel guilty AF immediately after getting angry and I would never ever abuse my kids (and before anyone says it, no.. I do not think the occasional spank is abuse, so fuck off with that shit).

I got angry at Ezra this morning. He started fussing at around 3am. Would... not... stop. I started off fine, but after getting up non stop with him until 6am (and trying to let him CIO but he wouldn't calm down).. I was done and yes.. my anger was aimed towards him.
My anger came out as a few "Shut up" and "For fuck's sake!" under my breath and a few throwing the blankets off myself like a child, but that was it.
I felt bad and feel bad that I got angry, but... it happened. You'll never see my big ass on the news though b/c I'm not a psycho that would hurt my kids.

I think us parents need to give ourselves a break sometimes. Acknowledge that we're all human and we still have feelings. We love our kids more than anything, but they can royally piss us off. That it's a normal part of raising a little human or 3.
But no... we can't admit it b/c you'll have all the lying ass sanctimommies that come out to proclaim how horrible you are and that you never should've had kids if you're not gazing at them 24/7 with nothing but googly eyed wonderment or some shit. Bitches that have to make you feel like shit b/c it makes them feel better.
Bullies.... just bullies.
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Anyway...
So here is my little Ez's head full of cradle cap. If you're not familiar with cradle cap.. just imagine having the worst case of dandruff ever.
Just a super dry scalp that is difficult to get rid of and leaves giant chunk of flaked off skin in your hair.

This was after I put some more baby lotion on his head. After I took the pic, I went and combed his hair out and massaged some of the flakes off. It's so gross. He has it worse than the other 2 did.
I know Zoe had it pretty bad in patches.... I can't really remember Oren having it bad or for very long though.
Hopefully w/ the lotioning and combing, it will help to clear it up quickly.
He's still my little cutey pie though.


And my little miss 4yo going on to 16. Attitude attitude attitude lol
Even with all of that attitude... she's such a wonderful child. Sure... she has her shitty moments lol, but I think we're pretty lucky to have such a great kid :D
Just wish she would stay in her bed at night.... and wipe her own butt :P lol
Need to go to Once Upon a Child. We went to Kohls on Friday after dinner (it's in the same lot as the restaurant) to use some Kohl's cash. Bought the boys matching outfits and just need to get Zoe a dress that kinda matches them too.
They did have GORGEOUS super expensive Beauty & The Beast "inspired" dresses there. Just super adorable little girl dresses that I would've loved to have gotten her.. if they just weren't so GD expensive lol.
I'm sure we'll be able to find her something just as great 2nd hand and at a fraction of the cost at OUaC though :D

And a terrible pic of Oren b/c my camera's flash is broken... awesome. Probably a good thing it's bad though b/c he's still sick and almost always has a river of snot coming out of his nose. Ew
 
Speaking of sick... DH caught their cold. So far, my nose has been a little stuffed up, but that's been it for me. I have gotten a couple of headaches, but I think that's hormonal.
DH though has a mild cold. 
Thank goodness for his cpap machine b/c since he's gotten it... NO SNORING! WOOOOO!
He's still not used to sleeping with it just yet, but it will get better with time.
I remember what his breathing and snoring was like when he's sick..... now that he has his cpap... that's all history. Sweet sweet history that I hope never happens again lol.
F you snoring!!!!! No one is gonna miss you!! MUAHAHAHAHA

Monday, February 13, 2017

Quick bitchy rant....

You have someone in your life or at least on facebook that thinks they're just so artsy and awesome?

Yeah.... that title has to go to one of my cousins. I can't remember how much younger she is than me, but I know she's at least 30. I wanna say 32? but I can't remember.

She considers herself an artist I'm sure. She mainly photographs. And lemme tell ya... other than it being obvious that she has a nice camera... her photoshoots SUCK BALLS.
I know that's being mean, but I just can't with what she just posted.
First up, requirement for her models? Bring cigarettes! 😑
And 2nd... she keeps mentioning her awesome makeup skills... yet all I see is just fake blood that was squirted on to her models.
Oh and the shoot was some stupid hipster zombie attack.... thing. Just lame in every sense of the word.
Oh look.. so edgy...... look how they're smoking... look at their tattoos. Look at their nonconforming clothes or some shit....
Just the lamest hipster most set up looking bullshit I've ever seen.
You know how basically everyone but hipsters see hipsters as lame ass douchebags? That is the overwhelming feeling I get from her photos. Just people I want to punch right in the throat.

Another photoshoot she had were just 2 grungy looking women.. or I should say girls b/c that's what they looked like... try hards... smoking on a couch... trying to look edgy.
Uuuugh, I just can't with that shit.

She can photograph whatever she wants.. and I know what I'm saying is super F-ing mean.. which is why I'm not saying it to her face lol.
Try-Hards.... that's what she and her friends are.
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And can we all please stop acting like Beyonce's shit doesn't stink??
No, I didn't watch whatever award show that aired, but of course it's posted ALL over facebook and of course sites like Buzzshit is just all up in Beyonce's ass b/c Beyonce can do no wrong.

First... Beyonce is a beautiful woman and a great singer. She doesn't sing that type of music that I like, but I can still recognize talent.
With that said though.... everything she does is not gold.
Like her cheap tacky ass twin pregnancy announcement photos that got plastered everywhere. Girl... no.
You're a frickin millionaire. Aint no damn reason for you to be surrounded by some discount flowers on a broken down rusty car with mismatched underwear on. You have money... don't let a friend try to get all artsy fartsy on you b/c they have a stupid ass vision.

And I don't even want to know what was going on with her performance in whatever the hell she was wearing. Maybe all those years of people telling her she's a goddess and all that bullshit got to her head.
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And... look up Fukushima reactor folks. There was a recent story about it that I'm sure most people haven't even heard about.
It's SCARY.
That plant is pumping who the hell knows how much radiation in to the Pacific Ocean.

If you like seafood... pay attention to where it's coming from. I seriously would not eat seafood coming out of the pacific.
Just think about how much radioactive water has been constantly dumped back in to the pacific. It's scary as hell.

Read the recent articles about it b/c it's seriously scary and everyone needs to be concerned about it. Especially the west coast... hell but really the whole world.
Fuck Trump and whatever stupid ass nonsense he's doing. Stop bashing him and his family.. focus on the shit that really matters.
Focus on this HUGE event that could potentially kill our oceans and in turn everything else.
I know that seems far fetched, but if you haven't. Read up on it!

There are bigger issues than stupid photoshoots, Beyonce, or what some celebrity said about Trump.

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Oh and I THINK maybe I've felt my right ovary ovulating. At least that's what I'm gonna guess it was lol. Can't remember the first time it happened. Just rmember I was on my bed, I laid down and felt a twinge, very obvious pain coming from the right O area. Then the day before yesterday, I felt it again. Dunno if I ovulated or if I'm going to, but I'm gonna say.... sure?
So maybe that's why I'm feeling so bitchy lately. Just in that wait to get my period now that I'm not really pumping anymore.
Well.. I am pumping, but it's still only twice a day and now I'm not even getting 2oz each time.

Sooooo not looking forward to getting period again.. or irregular cycles... or any of that mess. BOOOOOOO
I'm done having kids... why wasn't taking out my uterus an option??