Tuesday, June 20, 2017

Living life

Sorry I haven't been posting much. Just haven't felt up to it.
I think that's b/c I was unknowingly taking benadryl and woo boy it was knocking me out.
I'm not used to having allergies, so I was just taking the allergy pills that I saw on our fridge. Didn't think much of it really until DH asked which bottle I was taking it from. (they're generic fyi)....
Well when I told him, he said oh.. that's benadryl.. it makes you drowsy.

Well shit.. that explains SO much then! I had been getting SO tired after taking some. I thought it was just because, but nope... the meds were kicking in and sapping me of my energy.
So yeah.... now I know lol.
I was seriously getting concerned that my thyroid was getting all wonky or something b/c I couldn't keep my eyes open no matter what I did. So phew!
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In other news... the garden is coming along :D Getting lots of cucumbers off of it and the first tomatoes are starting to finally ripen. Slowly but surely!
Pic of the kids after they helped me pick some :)

Oh and as you can see... Oren got himself a haircut!
Boy did he need it! His hair was getting so long. I loved it. He has such pretty hair, but it needed to be cut. He looks so cute with his new 'do :)

Ezra is going to need a haircut soon too.
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Erm what else.... weight loss is going ok. Not the greatest atm, but I'm still in it and determined :)
I did exercise yesterday finally, but holy god my lower back couldn't take it and I'm resting today. Disappointed, but I'd rather rest than hurt myself even more.
I'm gonna get back to it tomorrow though. Hopefully it won't get any worse.
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Frickin dog.. Rocco (Rocko.. however you want to spell it lol) keeps wanting to chew up my shoes and it's ticking me off!!
He's already destroyed a pair of my flip flops that were expensive and I loved them!
And he keeps taking my other shoes off of the shelves they're on. Grrrrr
Stupid hard headed puppy! lol
He is still a puppy though. He's just started to lose his puppy teeth.
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I cleaned the carpets in the living room and the sunroom.
GROSS GROSS GROSS
I had did half of the sunroom before, but ran out of the carpet shampoo. I finally got around to cleaning it all again and yuck. That sunroom was just straight up gross.
Our backyard is just mostly weeds and dirt and of course everyone that goes back there tracks it in. The carpet was SO discolored and stained and just bleh.
Thankfully I have my big green machine and a fresh bottle of carpet shampoo.

Here's the spot in front of the backdoor. It has an all-weather mat in front of it to try to help to keep it somewhat clean, but as you can see from the before shot.. all it does it remind us how gross the rest of the floor looks lol.

And then after. You can still see the outline of where the mat goes, but BOY does my carpet cleaner do a fantastic job!!
Love it love it love it!
I love cleaning the carpets. I love seeing the stains getting sucked up. I just hate pouring out the nasty dirty water. Plus it's SUPER loud and it scares the baby, but I think he's finally getting used to the noise it makes lol.
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And what else... I still haven't finished DH's father's day gift. Oops. I was going to finish it up on Friday, but he took the day off so I couldn't work on it. It's the Tuesday after Father's day and I still haven't worked on it at all. Lol... oh well. I plan on doing it tomorrow though. He has a resident party to do after work so he won't be home until probably close to 10 or so.
Hopefully the kids wont be too needy so I can spend the day finishing it up lol


Monday, June 12, 2017

I'm so tired!

Ya know what.... being a sahm is frickin tiring. Sure.. I'm not on my feet all day and I'm not having to deal with customers or any of that other crappola that others have to do... but having to deal with a 4yo and a 2yo that are super whiny is... tiring. My soul is tired and I just want to sleep for the next week straight.
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So.. what's been up?
A whole lot of nothing. That's what lol.
Oh, I did make 2 grocery bags :D Busted out the sewing machine. Figured out what was wrong with it before and cut up some of the left over fabric that DH had from work. Think we have enough for 1, maybe 2 more bags.
 Here's Zoe posing with the first one I made... and Oren getting upset b/c I didn't have another for him to model lol.
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Ezra is finally crawling. It's still just army crawling right now, but he's doing it. YAY! :) I have to vacuum all the time to pick up all the little things he'll put in to his mouth, but that's the work of mom.
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Kids are doing well. Whiny but well lol.
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And yeah... really nothing much else has been going on lately. Just been feeling tired and worn out.

Tuesday, June 6, 2017

Are you kidding me...

So this woman in one of my mommy groups gave birth a few days ago. A home VBAC. MORON.
She just posted her birth story and I really can't with this bullshit.
She starts talking about feeling vindicated and in a different post, how this birth was a healing experience from her first one.
UUUUGH....
But she starts saying how she was getting annoyed with her midwives (nurse midwives thankfully who seemed like they knew what they were doing).... b/c they kept wanting to check the baby's vitals and were getting concerned etc.
Sounds like she was planning a water birth too which is all sorts of stupid as well, but when they broke her water (which she was also annoyed about), there was meconium in the fluids so they made her get out and called an ambulance (bc they're responsible midwives unlike the "professional" ones we have in the states).
She did push the baby out at home and thankfully baby was fine... but she couldn't deliver her placenta.
They gave her some kind of shot that I think is supposed to help deliver the placenta and of course... more annoyance at her midwives who know what the hell they're doing.
Then turns out... she had had A LOT to drink while in labor, but she hadn't peed at all so her bladder was super full which may have been causing problems. But she had refused the catheter at home and then was hesitant to get it in the hospital until she finally agreed.
Then she has the nerve to put the blame on the midwives for not realizing that she hadn't peed.
Bitch... they didn't get to you until the final hours of your labor AND you were in the pool of water. How were they supposed to know?
How about you should've taken your dumb ass to the hospital and given birth like a SANE fucking person that doesn't make birth all about some stupid "healing" experience.

I know I sound harsh and I really don't have a problem with women wanting vbacs... but a home vbac and then getting pissed off at the professionals for doing their job and not spotting a problem when.. how the hell were they supposed to know about it? FUCK OFF with that horseshit.
Just so tired of women wanting these fantasy fucking births and putting their baby and themselves at risk for a "healing" experience.

Thursday, June 1, 2017

Hmm... that was suspicious

Oh I forgot to mention.
A new Petco opened up near where my mom lives that I wanted to check out.
So we went there Saturday morning. Think we got there at around 9:30am.
It was only us, the employees and then 2 other guys came in.

We were looking around the store. DH started going crazy over some star wars themed leashes and collars for Rocko and I wandered off to look at other stuff.
I was looking at their betta fish (which were GORGEOUS and I want one! lol) and turned around to go back to DH who was now in the dog toy lane.
That's when the 2 other customers in the store decided they too needed to go over and look at the bettas. I heard one of them say something like "Oh hey, look at these fish here."
I didn't think much of it at first. That is until a minute later... there they were right behind me.. looking at the dog toys as well.
I scooted over in case I was in the way and they lingered for a moment longer.
It creeped me out but I figured it was just coincidence and chalked my reaction up to just me not being social.

That is until we left. When we got to the car... DH asked if it was just him or if those 2 guys had been following us.
Apparently, they had been following DH around as well in the store. DH didn't think anything of it at first too since they seemed to be getting a leash and collar too, but then he noticed that they kept trailing him and he could smell alcohol on one of them.

Just... yeah. It could've been coincidence of course, but they could have been following us too.
Just be aware of your surroundings folks b/c you never know.
That still bothers me though. Those 2 men could've easily have done something... especially when we weren't together in the store and Zoe and Ezra were with me (I was pushing him around in the stroller).
This is why I don't like going out by myself with the kids. Taking them out of the van and especially putting them back in. It leaves us all wide open for anyone that could want to do us harm.
Just ugh....
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In lighter news....
Gymnastics today! And........ the kids are sick again.
Awesome.
They're acting normal, but they both have diarrhea. Oren's is especially bad. He got up at 6 and said he threw up. It was just a little bit of wetness on his pillow and blanket.
But by 10am.. I had already changed his diaper 5x b/c of diarrhea AND he threw up a few times. Just liquid and it didn't phase him at all, but it still happened.

I dunno what the hell keeps making them sick. Wish I could just douse the house in bleach to kill all the germs.

I dunno if it's something the dogs are bringing in. Or if it's something the kids keep reinfecting themselves with or what.

They're going to gymnastics though. They're not acting sick... so they're going! Will just have to make sure to wash their hands really well and keep them from putting them in their mouths. Try to keep them from getting the other children sick.

Sigh..... so.. there were about 4 days there of no sickness...... 4 days....................

Wednesday, May 31, 2017

Sorry I've been MIA!!

Woah... for some reason some of my vids have gotten a lot more views. Wonder what that is about. Maybe from spam accounts or something. /shrugs

Anyway.. sorry I've been MIA. Just living life and doing stuff :P lol
Seriously though.. it's kind of same old same old.
Kids are finally NOT sick for once. I'm sure that will change soon enough.
Dogs are sick now though.....
Rocko was the first to get the hershey squirts... now it's my Ciddy Bears turn. Poor puppers.
Rocko really didn't act sick. Just kept crapping liquefied grossness everywhere (3 times in the house).
But my Cid.... poor little pup is old and sick so he's not acting too great. Hopefully he'll feel better soon.
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I've been working on my aquariums lately. Can't remember if I mentioned that already.
Almost have my 125g tank clean. It was gross and neglected before. I managed to remove all the wood from it and clean off and put back in the pieces that I wanted back in there.
Cleaned the glass of the tank and a lot of the substrate. Still need to clean the substrate some more to really make sure that most of the nastiness has been removed but overall.. it looks a thousand times better than it did before.

I didn't get a before pic of when it was still all gross. Probably wouldn't have been able to see much anyway b/c the glass was so covered in algae and gunk.
This is what it looked like after 2 cleanings and big water changes.
Still a couple of spots that needed to be cleaned but Sooooooo much better.

Yesterday, I started on the 55 gal. It's a tank that used to be my mom's but she got rid of it and gave it to me. It's over 20 years old. It's eventually going to be taken down too. But it's staying up for now to be used as a quarantine tank for when we start getting more fish for the big tank.
Anyway.. yesterday... I started taking out a couple of the plants. I had just intended on taking a few out and maybe trying to catch a couple of the plecos in it to move to the big tank. But it turned in to me pulling up all but 2 of the plants and catching all of the plecos. lol
That tank was gross though. It was SO overgrown with an underwater moss that trapped all of the gross gunk in it.
I need to do a few more water changes in it before we start buying more fish. It currently only has one little platy in there. Don't want to move it to the big tank b/c I'm afraid the current fish in the big tank would pester it to death.
Anyway... here's the big tank now. Looks a bit scraggly with all the plants from the 55 in it.
I need to rearrange just a little and I'm getting a few more plants in the mail this week.
DH surprised me and let me buy some new LED lights for it. Should be getting that next week :D
I'm so excited to get back in to the hobby.
It's not a cheap hobby, but it will be nice to have a big beautiful tank again.
I just can't get lazy with it like I did before.
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I let the kids play outside the other day. Think it was Saturday.
Our water bill is going to be SO high! lol
Worth it though :)
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And finally for now.
Kids start gymnastics tomorrow!! So excited for it. Need to wash Zoe's leotards. She could just wear shorts and a shirt though. They don't have a dresscode or anything other than no shoes in the gymnastics area.
Really hope they both enjoy it and really hope Ezra behaves while they're in their classes. Also hoping they both behave while they wait too. Oren's is first, then Zoe's.
I know she's gonna be super anxious so go start her class when we get there lol.
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Oh yeah.. diet was a bit blah this weekend, but it's back on track now :)
I'm not letting some minor setbacks get me back in to poor food choices.
Cheats are gonna happen, but that's part of this whole process and I'm done disappointing myself.
This time next year... I'm gonna be thinner and I'm not going to look back and wish I had stuck with it.


Wednesday, May 24, 2017

It's my turn now

I threw up in the middle of the night.
Woke up and felt nauseous. Tried ignoring it and going back to sleep, but no. I had to puke
Thing is though... there wasn't much of anything in my stomach so I didn't throw up a lot.
Just glad that this isn't a bad stomach bug. Annoying as shit, but not anywhere near as bad as that last one that completely sapped your energy.

Zoe still has gross poo and so does Oren now. Well.. he actually threw up last night in his sleep too and he's had gross diarrhea all day today. Super stank, watery, but also grainy?

Ezra and DH seem to be the only ones that have been spared from this so far. Hopefully they won't get sick.
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DH came home at 9 last night. I was pissed off b/c he didn't see the kids all day. I know he sensed it b/c he kept asking me if I was.. and I kept saying no lol. I mean.. there really wasn't a reason for me to be mad. Sigh.. I hate it when I feel like that. Just unreasonably mad or mad at something stupid.
I'm over it now and obviously I'm feeling a bit guilty about it. Damn emotions! lol
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Oh at the Sunday thing at church.. this woman had the cutest little baby girl ever. I dunno how old she was... maybe 4 or 5 months? Still really young and tiny and so GD cute and chunky!
Holy crap it gave me some serious baby fever. How ridiculous is that though? I still have a baby!! rofl
It just made me long for another girl though. Sigh...
Seriously.. getting my tubes tied was totally the right decision, but I think I'm still going to mourn not being able to have anymore for a little while longer.
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And that's all for now. It's raining pretty good and I want to post this in case we lose power.

Tuesday, May 23, 2017

Seriously... again?

Zoe is sick.. again. Well, both her and Oren are with a stomach bug.. AGAIN.
WTH??????
So tired of this crap......

Oh.. AND... Rocko has the squirts and proceeded to go in to the hallway that leads to the kids' rooms and blast a dook all over the floor and wall. Without warning I might add. He's still a puppy, but GD is it annoying as hell that he's not house trained yet.
Like he'll go out for an hour.... 15mins back inside and he's already pissed and/or shit. Yesterday.. it was exactly that. I look in the sunroom and there he is.. just hunched over taking a crap.
SO damn ANNOYING!

Thankfully poo is easy to clean, but it's still disgusting and there's always residue or at least you think there could be so that just makes it grosser when the kids or yourself have to walk in the area.


Ezra is good though. Still not crawling, but not worried....
Ok I am worried a little bit, but also not.
He gets on his stomach and just rotates on his stomach and scoots backwards lol. I think he thinks that's enough. He's only ever gotten on to his knees a couple of times, but not hands and knees. /shrugs
Hopefully there isn't a problem.
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DH has gone off to a work BBQ thing. Yeah... I didn't want to go and have no regrets about it!
But then he's making me go to some church BBQ thing tomorrow and a birthday party on Sunday /grumble
What the hell???
We don't get invited to shit and then all of a sudden, all of this crap all at once!

So yeah... a whole mess load of cheats this week and I am not happy with it.
I'm sure my weigh in won't be great.

I'm not really happy with DH right now either.
So he volunteered at the church Awana program. That's fine.. I didn't mind at all.
But then to hear how he's some of the kids' male kind of father figure and how they look up to him etc.... ok.. that's all well and good and I'm glad he can do that.
But then when he's home... he's just annoyed and frustrated and has a super short fuse with our kids.
He's a great dad most of the time, it's just recently I've noticed his annoyance and then to hear someone talk about him like that towards other children just annoyed me is all.
/shrugs
I dunno... just feels like lately our kids have only been getting the annoyed mean daddy that only gets to see them a couple of hours before they go to bed.

Ugh.. I don't want to paint him as a horrible father b/c he's not. He's SO far from being a bad dad. Hell.. I have my weeks of being in a shit mood too and yelling a bit more than I should. I'm just venting. Need to clear that up before anyone thinks he's some horrible person. lol



There was something else but I've forgotten b/c Zoe just drew on the carpet with chalk.
Chalk.. think it's easy to get out of carpet right? Yeah... no. Sigh........ -_-