Wednesday, April 15, 2015

Just sleep!!

UGH today has been a little rough.
Oren is doing well, but the boy has a hard time getting to sleep and staying asleep and he gets SOOOO grumpy. I feel so bad for him, but damn is it frustrating too.
I try him in every position, but nothing works until he just sort of passes out :( I would hold him more, but having to take care of Zoe, pumping, having to get up to pee ALL the time bc I have to drink so much water b/c of the pumping... I just can't. Or when I do and he gets comfy, I end up having to move him b/c I'm getting up.

And Zoe... she's so sweet but the girl is getting in to everything. I went on my computer for a minute and she was off doing her own thing. Well that thing was to go in to our bathroom and get her hands on all of the pumping gear so she could go pump. It is really sweet and cute bc she even came and wanted me to take her PJs off so she could get t her 'boobies'.... of course I didn't know that at the time though.
THEN got a package in the mail. She usually doesn't give them a 2nd glance... well that has changed. I put the box on the counter, hear some banging so get up to see what's going on and lo and behold... she had grabbed the box and opened it. SIGH

It hasn't all been bad though. Oren gave me some big smiles. Got a few photos of those that I'll post later and Zoe has been really sweet even though she's getting in to everything and not listening :P lol

Anywho, Oren just woke and is fussy so have to cut this short.

Tuesday, April 14, 2015

OUCH!!!

Poo talk incoming...

I thought I had escaped the scary poop after birth. Things have been moving along smoothly in that department... until yesterday.
Holy crap it's like that first poop with Zoe all over again.
My poor poor butthole :(
No idea why things are getting that big and dense in me but holy moly I hope it stops soon. I had more today which absolutely SUCKED and I know there's probably more in there. Time to bust out that miralax again.

And my nips are still so damn tender. Shouldn't they be feeling better soon now like BFing mom nips?? I've been pumping for a month now so you would think my body would be used to it. I just want them to stop hurting already. It's not the entire time I'm pumping thankfully, but those first 5 seconds on the fast pump, and the first 10 on the slower longer pump are torture. Nevermind the new needle sharp pain I get when more milk drops in to my nips. Not sure why my body started doing that mess.
My left breast is producing a little more than it was, but other than that.. I'm still producing about the same that I was before. It's enough for now, but I'd say in another month, we'll be supplementing with formula a lot more. Oh well.... it's expensive, but whatever it takes to feed him :)
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Today started out pretty rough. For some reason DD woke up just before 6. UGH. I let her lay down with Oren and I in bed (yes he was in bed next to me).... but Oren is a VERY noisy sleeper when he's just getting to sleep and all of his grunts kept waking her up. We both eventually just got up just before 7. I had to feed him and my boobs were killing me so.. yeah.

Oren's been super fussy today too. Think it's b/c we have been feeding him a little less b/c of the spitting up and b/c he hasn't been pooping daily so I'm sure that pressure isn't comfortable for him. I've been doing some leg stomach compression things to help relieve any kind of trapped gas he might have. He seems to enjoy that.
He did eventually poop today... after DH got home and was holding him. MUAHAHAHA that's my boy! :D
We have some spitup formula that I'm going to start using at least a couple of times a day for him. See if that helps his stomach problems. He gets so tired during the day but fights sleep like no ones business. It always looks like he's trying to poop but then he just starts crying :(

Zoe today has been really naughty. It started off well, but then she ripped up a catalog we let her have. Not a biggy just a big mess.
THEN she got it in to her head to pour water from one of her cups in to her little play tea set.
But the big one was when I had dozed off... woke up to her asking where her animals were (finger puppets), and a strong smell of mint in the air. I turn to look at her and the girl has toothpaste all over her mouth and hands.
I jump out of bed and go to the bathroom and she apparently thought grabbing all of the pumping stuff was a good idea too while covered in toothpaste.
I know she ate some of it obviously, but thankfully I use fluoride free stuff so hopefully it's not too bad for her. I don't think she got a lot of it b/c the tube is still pretty full. Still though.... UGH.


Everything has been going well though for the most part. Yeah some minor issues here and there, but nothing huge.

Monday, April 13, 2015

Baby sense

There should be a new super hero... a baby that can always sense when a parent isn't near them and starts crying.
Ok so it would be every baby out there that has this power but still.. damn is it impressive!
I remember going through this with Zoe but with her.. it was a lot easier since it was just her and I.
Poor ole Oren has to be left to fend for himself a whole minute... maybe even 2 minutes *gasp!* while mommy attends to the other child or uses the bathroom.

He's been spitting up a lot lately. We thought it might've been switching between formula and breastmilk, but we've only given him BM the last 2 days and he's spitting up more than he was before. No volcanoes coming out of his mouth but still just about after every feeding.
We thought we were maybe overfeeding him, but nope.. doesn't seem to be the case today. I've made sure not to overdo it and he's still spitting up.
My diet hasn't changed other than the one beer, he started spitting up with some BM that was pumped before I had any of those.

Did I mention the beer? We bought some non-alcoholic stuff. I can't remember the name.. starts with a K made by Guiness(sp?). First bottle I had was frickin disgusting. Beer is nasty as it is, but I can tolerate the taste, this stuff was like the most unsweetened squash you've ever tasted. Like someone just scooped out a pumpkin added fizz and told you to eat it.
The 2nd one I had actually tasted like beer thank goodness (never thought I'd ever say that).

No idea if this is going to do anything to increase my supply but it's worth a shot.
My boobs have been doing this annoying thing while pumping. My nipple gets SUPER painful... like a cutting pain, but it's b/c some milk has let down while pumping and needs to come out. Not sure why that's become painful since it wasn't before. My nips aren't any more sore than they were before so that can't be it.
*shrugs*

Today is the first day of eating better. Yeah, we've been stuffing our faces with total junk since we had Oren, but it's time to get this weight loss show on the road. Christmas will be here in no time and I want to be at my goal or 30+ lbs down.
I REALLY need to lose weight though. I am back to pre-preg weight, but that's still over 200lbs. BUT my pooch is larger than it was before and I'm pretty sure is hanging lower now too :( Gawd I hate my body so much. Every ugly area you can carry extra weight.. I do. I do not carry this extra fat well. I carry it like a hairy old 80yr woman that didn't take care of herself in her youth except my boobs don't hang to my knees... yet.
But anyway..... eating better today and hoping the pounds start coming off soon.
It's going to be difficult though since I probably won't be exercising any time soon. I didn't want to do it before when I actually had time and now.... oh hells no.
Maybe when Oren is a little older, but right now? NOPE

Anywho, gotta get back to the baby before he wakes up and realizes I'm not in the room anymore lol.

Friday, April 10, 2015

1 month old

Didn't get a chance to post yesterday.
Oren turned one month old though and had his wellness checkup yesterday.
He weighed in at 9lbs 8.5oz.
Length was 21.25inches
Head circumference was 30something. Can't think of it off the top of my head.

Weight puts him just below 50th percentile
Length was at something like 35th, but head circ puts him at 75th LOL
Baby big head :P
He really doesn't look like he has a big head though. It's just kind of long from front to back, but not freakishly so :P
He also got his 2nd hep B shot yesterday. Poor boy was not happy with that.
All was good though.... other than the poosplosion that had occurred. DH was stripping Oren down so he could get weighed and the nurse pointed out the lovely poop smearing down his leg. We never had to deal with this with Zoe so poosplosions are new for us lol.

Zoe has been having some gross poops lately though. Not sure what's going on with her digestive system but it needs to start making easy to clean up turds again.
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Need to pump so gotta make this short.

Pumping has been going ok. I think my supply is lacking a bit now b/c Oren has only been waking up once maybe twice at night and the hell if I'm going to wake up on my own to pump :P lol
Going to try to get in a lot of pumps today. I know I won't be getting a lot, but hopefully with the extra pumping it will help get my supply back up a little bit.
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Zoe watches some weird annoying crap on youtube. She gets to it from the Talking Tom game. Thankfully it's all child friendly videos, but man... some of them are just.... strange. She was just watching some Teletubby one and all I hear is this annoying grown man voice constantly saying Uh Oh. And she watches videos of grown adults playing with dolls (like making up little stories and acting them out with the dolls). And don't forget all of the ones where they open up eggs filled with random toys. Bad thing is, a lot of these videos have millions of views.
Really??
Whatever though. It keeps her occupied and it's nothing bad in them so.. meh.
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And finally.. Oren is smiling on purpose more :D It's still not often but he's giving them up every once in a while and it just melts my heart.
And Zoe is such an amazing big sister. She absolutely adores Oren. She kisses him and hugs him and always wants to help out. Was so afraid she'd be super jealous, but she's been awesome.

Love my babies so much :)

Wednesday, April 8, 2015

Quick

Seems like all of my posts are quickies heh. I always remember to post something when I can't or only have a short time to do it :P

Anywho....
Remembered I had a photo of Zoe when she was a newborn sleep smiling.....





Yeah... I'd say there's some resemblance there :)
My sweet babies.
Zoe def has a wider head than Oren does, but I think Oren has larger eyes... or maybe they just look bigger b/c he has the slightly narrower head *shrugs*

He's been doing well. Seems to be getting his days and nights on track. He only woke up once last night. WOO! lol
Only bad part about that was the pumping... not b/c my boobs were engorged though. I dunno WTH is going on with my breasts and milk production but it's getting on my nerves.
Nothing I'm doing is getting my supply up and it seems like any small delay in pumping totally screws up the supply that I have.
Really wish I was someone with a normal supply :(
DH was telling me about a woman at work. She just came back from her maternity leave and pumps at work. One pumping session gave her 10oz!!
And another in my group was saying how 3 pumping sessions for her gives her around 32oz.
Good lord... I can't even imagine what that's like :(

Thank goodness for formula.

Oren has his 1m checkup tomorrow. Man... has it already been a month???
Can't wait to see how big he has gotten.
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Zoe's understanding of things seems to have just jumped up leaps and bounds now. It's seems like just all of a sudden, she's actually answering up coherently and just really understanding things a lot more.
Which seems to also bring with it a real knack for testing her boundaries. Girl has gotten a popped booty and hands quite often for talking back, yelling at us, telling us no... etc. She is one stubborn, head strong child.
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Cat is doing well. They reduced his bad burst paw pads as best they could. He's wearing a mini cone of shame. I'll have to post photos of him lol.
He seems to be in a really good mood though. Better than what he was in.
Only bad thing so far though is that neither DH or I have picked up any poo or seen any pee in his little potty bin spots. UGH. He's going somewhere... where that is... no idea.

Anywho.. that's all for now!

Tuesday, April 7, 2015

4 weeks already

Forgot to post yesterday. It was my first day alone with the kiddos and it was not starting off well.
Oren was having some tummy issues and let loose a really big gross liquid poop.
THEN while pumping, I had him in front of me leaning on the boppy pillow and our spewed forth a wave of spitup all over me and all over him.

THEN later in the day, I had dozed off on the bed w/ Oren and get woken up by DD climbing on the bed, nekked from the waist down and telling me she had pooped..... most of it still being stuck in her butt crack and dropping on to the bed *barf*

Then, Oren did not want to nap longer than a few minutes during the day unless he was on me, so I didn't have much time to do anything.
So yeah...

Thankfully other than some nastiness early on... it didn't go so bad. Just wish Oren would go back to sleeping a bit more but think his tummy is causing problems. Poor little guy.
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DH got me some Mother's Milk tea yesterday. Think I'll drink 2 cups a day and see if that helps. if not... meh. Won't hurt to try.
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Cat is getting surgery today. Crossing our fingers and hoping it works. At least he'll stop leaving blood spots all over the floor.. not that he could really help that part of it though.
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And yeah.... I'm sure there was more I wanted to say but I'll leave that for later when I hopefully remember what it was :P heh

In the meantime.. PHOTOS! :D












Saturday, April 4, 2015

Seriously?

Ok, so we were supposed to take Zoe to Dh's church's easter egg hunt this morning. It started at 11:30 but we had to be there at 11.

Well yesterday was Friday which meant we went out with family to eat and they wanted Zoe to spend the night. No problem since most of them go to the same church as DH and were planning on going.
We're walking to our car and they yell and ask if we're going to be there. We yell back a big and very clear yes and leave.

No problem right?
Welp... we get a call today at 10:30 telling us that they're at some middle of nowhere restaurant, they just got their food and that they weren't going to make it. AND asked if we were serious about wanting to go today.
Are you fucking kidding me with this shit??
DH and I were both really looking forward to taking Zoe to this egg hunt b/c she would've loved it. I was hesitant to let her spend the night last night, but since I THOUGHT they were going to be responsible and go too... I let her go. Well didn't we learn a big frickin lesson today.
Zoe will NEVER spend the night with them again if we have something planned for the next day. NEVER again. DH and I were SO F-ing pissed off and his mom knows it.

Just... WTF were they even thinking?? Just so frickin inconsiderate.
I'm so bummed for Zoe b/c again... she would've loved it.

Thankfully we did our own little egg hunt on Friday for Zoe in the front yard and she had a blast finding all of the eggs and opening them. We also got her an Easter basket which she'll get tomorrow that I'm excited for her to see all the stuff in.
We took photos and I promise I'll be posting some soon. With DH going back to work.. I won't be spending as much time in the bedroom so will be on my computer a little more often.

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Oren is doing ok. He's having some serious gas issues. Poor boy is miserable at night. I think it's just b/c we switch to formula at night so it upsets his stomach. We give him gas drops but I guess that only helps a little.

Can't remember if I mentioned this, but Dh weighed him (stepped on the scale while holding him, and then just DH... you know how that works ;) ).... and according to our scale.. Oren is just over 9lbs! WOW. I'm not sure if that's normal for a month old, but that just seems like a lot of weight gained already lol.
His next appointment is on the 9th so we'll see then.

You can def tell that he's gotten bigger. His chicken legs are still chicken but have a tiny little bit more meat on them heh. Plus he's almost too big for newborn diapers. We've used them up before he's totally too big for them. We have a ton of size 1's to go through now.

Sorry if everything is reading a bit choppy. Trying to go fast so I can get to bed already.

He pees SO much. He has leaked in every single cloth diaper he's been in b/c he pees so darn much in them. I mean just completely soaked.
His poops are still of the mustardy variety :P Lol.... so interesting I know ;) heh

His eyes look dark still.. kind of lighter, but still dark enough that it def looks like they're going to be brown in the end.
I remember seeing my nephews eyes when he was little and you could definitely tell that they were going to be blue b/c they were a lighter newborn shade.
We'll see though. Would love it if Oren had DH's beautiful blue eyes, but big puppy dog brown ones like Zoe will be great too :)
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Zoe is getting in to helper mode now. Oh, she's still throwing her toddler tantrums but at least she's a little more helpful... even when we don't want her to be lol.

She's such a great big sister so far though. She really seems to love her baby brother and always hugs and kisses him and tries to help out with him. It's so darn cute.

Her night time issue seems to have happened again tonight but not as bad as Thursday thank goodness.
She didn't want to go to bed, screamed as we were leaving. She did get up and tried the door, cried a lot more, but a few minutes she got back in to bed. She did end up crying for maybe 10 or so minutes, but stopped, played for a bit and then went to sleep.
Really hoping she'll get out of this soon.
While it is annoying and frustrating, it also breaks my heart too letting her cry and get upset like that.

Erm, I'm sure there was more I wanted to post but it's almost 11 and I'm late for bed!