Tuesday, December 31, 2013

Just go to SLEEP!!

It's a 50/50 chance. Zoe will either go down for a nap with no fuss, or will kick and scream her head off.
Recently it's been more of the screaming it seems. She's obviously tired. She does all of her I'm tired signs (rubbing her head, eyes. Scratching her nose, pulling on her ear, etc etc), and yet, as soon as she gets put down in to her crib, she starts tantruming and screams her head off.
Been having to do some crying it out.
The girl just doesn't know what she wants lol.

Still no walking on her own :\
I know in my gut that she can do it.... and yet she doesn't.

She's going to spend the night w/ her aunt tonight. Yikes.
DH's sis and her husband are coming in today and leaving on Saturday so I guess they figure get Zoe on New Years. *shrugs*
They're going to be in for a very long restless night. Zoe just isn't used to sleeping anywhere but her crib.
Hell, even in the car now... she will rarely fall asleep in her carseat. She's just very stubborn about where she sleeps and... I just don't see this turning out well. Sucks for them though and for poor Zoe. Hopefully she'll end up sleeping wherever though.
Not sure what DH and I are going to do. He's off tomorrow so *shrugs*
We bought some fireworks to shoot off tonight but other than that... no idea.
Sleep in is #1 on whatever happens LOL.

Thursday, December 26, 2013

Xmas and stuff

I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas, or whatever holiday you celebrate :)

It was good here. We opened a couple of Zoe's presents on Christmas eve then the rest the next morning. She was so excited to get new stuff. She didn't know what to play with heh.
Thankfully she was back to her old self. No more teething crankiness.

We then headed over to the inlaws house and had breakfast. Zoe was of course being passed around all over the place lol.
Anyways, blahblahblah, she got a lot more stuff and loves all the toys. Especially this train thing that my brother and his family bought for her. It's a walker/riding train thing that has alphabet blocks that you can put in to a hole and it poops it out. It also makes noise, sings etc etc. She LOVES that thing.

Oh, AND she managed to walk a few steps on her own :D YAY!!! We knew she had it in her but it's all confidence issue. She's just so cautious and doesn't want to let go. DH's aunt was getting her to do it though, at least for a step or 2.

Already said that she can spend the night over there next week. BLEH!
DH's sister (the one that just had the m/c :( ) is coming in on New Years even and they asked if Zoe could spend the night. I guess. If they want to stay up the entire night with her... more power to them.

Friday, December 20, 2013

In lighter news

Well, slightly...

Zoe is SOOOOO fussy and is not eating like she normally does. Poor girl is just miserable right now.
She's never been this bad with her other teeth coming in. She is just not a happy camper though. Feel so bad for her. I can't imagine what that feels like.


And to talk about current events for a moment...

This whole Duck Dynasty shit....
Leave the man alone. I don't agree with his opinion at all, but his views aren't exactly original and new. I'm sure we ALL know plenty of people in our lives that think and believe just what he believes, but we don't go around calling them every damn curse word under the sun now do we. And I'm sure all of those people with the same beliefs aren't nasty hateful people either. They believe what they do and live their lives the way they want.
Hell, I'm sure most of us know people who are FAR FAR worse than him and we still don't call them even half the names that are being slung his way.

Are his views ignorant? IMO yes, but also IMO he wasn't being nasty about it. He wasn't using slurs like fag, dike, etc. From what I've read, he just doesn't "get it" and through his religious beliefs, he views homosexuality as a sin along with all of the crap he listed.

Anyway... with that being said, I do think A & E had a right to fire him as well if they saw fit. I don't think it was the right move on their part at all, but whatever.

Living in the bible belt and being surrounded by people w/ his views, I guess I just don't see what the HUGE deal is.
People who don't agree can shake our heads at those who do.... and vice versa.

As I saw mentioned in a comment about this..... too bad people can't be this outraged and up in arms over something that really matters.

No no no :(

DH talked to his mom yesterday and learned that his sister is having a miscarriage :(
I feel SO bad for her.
She had her first appointment Wed. I guess everything looked fine when they checked her. I'm not sure though.
She started spotting on Thursday. She started to freak as any woman would, went in and they told her that there was no heartbeat and that the baby had stopped growing.
I'm not sure how they could determine that if she had just went in on Wed and things looked ok (about the growing part I mean)? Again though, not sure what she was told then.
I just feel so devastated for her though. I know how excited she was. Heck, they told EVERYONE within that first week... and now this :(
UGH and then we sent her that Christmas ornament too. I thought we may want to wait, but it was so cute and we were so excited too.
I hope she's ok. I know how she must be feeling. To have your hopes up so much. To FINALLY see that first ever BFP on a test.... and then your world crashes around you.

Thursday, December 19, 2013

Sleep dangit!!

Poor Zoe... woke up SO much last night. I'm positive it's her teething. Forgot to give her some tylenol.
So sleepy this morning.

Nothing much going on but felt like posting anyway heh.

Still haven't wrapped the faux presents yet. We gotta get on that soon though so we can print out the photos. Wish we had a better camera though. NOthing technically wrong with the camera we have but... it just doesn't take the best photos.
Oh well... maybe next year we'll buy a better one when we have some money.


Geezus... yet another company that was hacked.
If you've shopped at target recently.... you could be at risk whether if it was debit or credit card used.

Awesome :\

Wednesday, December 18, 2013

Go Amazon

So we're still waiting on a few things to come in from Amazon.
Unfortunately one of the packages says that it was delivered yesterday even though we got nothing. I went out early morning, but was home for the rest of the day and never saw anyone deliver anything.

SO I contacted Amazon to tell them this. Said I'd like replacements for everything...
Got an email today saying that they've sent replacements AND w/ one day shipping.


Now watch the original package show up lol
They did say that if it did, to print out a return mail slip thing and send it back which of course we will since we're not thieves.

I know it's not a huge deal, but it's still nice that we won't have to jump through hoops to get what we paid for.

So for that... WOOT! Go Amazon!

Stuff before she wakes

Poor Zoe has some teeth popping through and it's giving her a minor fever. Nothing too bad thankfully but she's still kinda miserable.
She slept SO much yesterday. Put her down for her first nap at 9:40, she didn't get up until after 12.
THEN she was acting really fussy like she does when she's tired so I put her in her crib at 1:40 and she went right to sleep and I had to wake her at 3:40.
She woke a few times during the night and had a 100 temp. Our poor baby. :(
She woke up at 8 this morning, but could tell she was still tired and yeah, I'm up now just waiting for her to wake.

I think she's def the last to walk on her own in my DD group. :\
We know she can do it, she just doesn't.  Walking with her holding on to our hand, we can offer no actual support, like her leaning and obviously favoring our hand as support, and she'll still walk (hope that made sense)... so yeah... it just seems to be a confidence issue with her not wanting to do it on her own.
We're walking her everywhere though now. We did it in Target the other day while we were Xmas shopping and she was LOVING it. Grabbing all the toys she could and wanting to play with them lol.
She'll get there, but I'd be lying if I said I wasn't at least a little worried.
No, we haven't called her doctor yet to tell them that she's not walking on her own. I just don't think there's a reason to, but I dunno, we'll see I guess.

Cat is about the same. His front paws look a little better, but his back ones are still pretty swollen. Trying to force your cat to take meds SUCKS. We waste almost all of this liquid crap b/c she spits and drools it out unless we want to ram the syringe down his throat, which we don't.
DH looked it up and found that there's another med that we could use that comes in pill form and is MUCH cheaper. We go back to the vet on Thursday I think and he's gonna mention it then.

What else what else....
We WERE trying to be good with our diet, and that has been about 50% successful so far lol.
I've gained back everything I lost. I know it's just bloat though. I can feel it and it's gross.

I'm on cd40 with no end in sight! UGH!
I'm not even dreaming about positive pregnancy tests any longer. Nope. Had myself a dream last night that I got a positive OPK! lol
Whatever... I'm not spotting so I'm good.

And I think that's it for now. We still haven't taken Xmas photos of Zoe. We need to wrap some boxes up to make it look like we have a lot of presents under the tree lol.

Monday, December 16, 2013

Screw Nutella! Give me Cookie Butter!!!

Seriously, if you haven't had it yet, GET SOME!
They sell it at Trader Joe's.
We actually haven't had the kind they sell there. DH's friends that live in the Netherlands sent us a jar. It says Speculoos on it so guessing it's the same thing.
It's AMAZING!!! Holy crap it's awesome. Seriously.... get some and then give some to your friends and family to convert them to it too lol
It tastes like sugar cookies w/ the texture of peanut butter. *drooooools*
We haven't been to the TJ here since it's in a really bad (as in traffic) part of town but I want to go and get some jars for everyone for Xmas.
((just looked it up on Amazon. It does look like it's the same stuff they sent us. Just theirs has the European label (wherever they got it).... and that stuff is expensive!! PFFT screw buying some for everyone. We'll buy a few and let them fight over it lol))

Enough of that...

I finished that blanket a few days ago. YAY! :D Kinda difficult giving it up. It turned out pretty darn nice. May have to make one for us :D
$25 for yarn if I can get it for the same price.. then the time put in to it... yeah, doesn't sound that bad to me :)

Just started on the other blanket I want to give to SiL's girl. She wanted a hexagon shaped one like I made for other SiL's baby shower, but it bunched and didn't turn out right so I'm trying a round one. Hopefully it turns out ok and doesn't take me too long to do since Xmas is a little over a week away. Good lord, the last few months fly by!

Our Christmas shopping is almost done though. Just need to get a few more things in the mail, get some photos and yep, we're good :)
DH is off next week too so WOO! I'm so happy about that. He's had to work the last 2 Christmas's and it will be nice to actually have him home all day for it.
I don't mind that he has to work on Christmas. They do it in rotations, but it still sucked that his group were stuck having to do it twice in a row.

Anyway... we're going to be taking Zoe to see Santa next week. Hopefully get some good photos from that and we need to take some with her posing in front of the tree to give to everyone.
So yeah, still busy busy.

And yep, that's about it :)
Sorry I haven't been posting much. Just most of my free time is being used to make the blankets atm... something I need to get back to doing while Zoe is still napping :)

Wednesday, December 11, 2013

One more chance

According to DH, we need to have ourselves a 12/13/14 baby....
And can I have a nice big eye roll please?


Of course he was just joking but still....
It would be nice to be one of those couples. Oh I want to have a baby in this particular month.. and ya know what, it's going to happen b/c I'm SUPER fertile and have nothing to worry about! MUAHAHAHAHA

We're gonna have another baby when it happens *nodnod*
HOPEFULLY next year or early 2015.

Monday, December 9, 2013

Uhm, ok...

So, last week I was on this really big rice kick. I cooked it every day and ate heaping piles of it twice a day.
At the beginning of that week, I was at 210.something.
Today, I weighed in at 205.8.

Really?? I'm not complaining, but... really??
ALL that time I was eating good primal foods, keeping low carb, etc... and I lose weight during a week where I ate almost nothing BUT carbs??

Anyway.... hopefully the 205 sticks around and will go down even more! Would be awesome to be under 200 by the new year. I doubt it will happen, but it would be nice.
Hell, maybe I should have more rice rice rice weeks.


Zoe is just so darn cute!!
We blow on her food if it's too hot. Common practice by anyone taking care of small kids.
Well yesterday or the day before, Zoe started doing it on her own. It's SO fracking adorable!!
We had a bit of a cheat for lunch today and got some Chick Fil A. Got her some tenders and I pulled one apart for her. It was still a little warm but ok for her to eat. Looked over and saw her holding a piece and blowing on it and waving it around to cool it down more. OMG too cute!!!
I still look at her and just can't believe she's mine.
And I still need her to be in my line of vision whenever we're out w/ family. It's not that I don't trust them, but I dunno... maybe it's instinct? Making sure that she's ok? *shrugs*

Sunday, December 8, 2013

Damnit infertility!

Another DD group member just announced that they're TTC again.
It's really awesome and I'm happy for her.

She asked who else was TTC and... I couldn't even answer that question.

WTF are DH and I doing? Is it technially TTC if I'm not ovulating? Or is it just NTNP? Or hell.... just NP (not protecting).
I hate having to say 'yes we're TTC, BUT.....' there should be no Buts. It should just be... yes.
But no no... b/c of my body being the bitch that it is... there's always going to be that 'but'.

Sorry for the quick vent... just frustrated after seeing yet another BFN OPK.

Gloomy outside, LOUD inside

Man... Zoe is a shrieky little banshee these days.
Screams when she's upset, screams for the hell of it LOL. It is ear piercing too.
Thankfully, for now, she's still well behaved in public, but I know that's probably going to change not too far down the road.

SiL and brother brought over their little boy yesterday. YAY! First time I've seen him in weeks.
He's so tiny and floppy. Still in that baby blob mode lol. Slept most of the time they were here but I didn't care. He's so cute!
They say he has his nights and days mixed up. By the way he was sleeping, that seems about right. Yikes for them. Hopefully he'll sleep when he should soon.
Can't believe it's almost been a month since he was born! Geezus where does the time go?

Things are good here though. We didn't put any lights outside this year. Neither of us felt like doing it so we just sorta went MEH, and that was it lol. Just don't feel like setting it all up only to have to take it all back down. PITA even though it is fun.
Our Xmas tree will have to do :D It kinda sucks though. One of the points of getting a real tree is for the awesome smell, and our tree has NO SMELL! WTH?? There's some crystallized sap that has a smell if you break it off, but other than that.. NOTHING! Grrrrr
Maybe we should go chop off the tips of some of the branches and see if that helps.

The cat is ok. Boy does he hate getting his meds. I can't say I blame him. Having a giant syringe full of nasty meds shoved in to your mouth doesn't sound like fun. He's ok afterwards though and seems to forgive us so that's good at least heh.
He's using his litter box again thankfully. Only to pee in though which I'm fine with. He poops on the rug that's under his litter boxes. Whatever... it's not on the carpet so I'm good with it lol.
His back paw pads are still pretty swollen, his front feet seem to have gotten a little bit better. Hoping to see even more improvement next weekend.
If you're wondering how it feels and looks... imagine a giant fluid filled blister. The skin holding in the fluid feels very thin and squishy. That's how his paw pads feel. Very swollen, very thin, and VERY full of fluid.

Saturday, December 7, 2013

Quick quick

Think Zoe is finally awake. It's almost 10am! She woke up earlier, but ended up going back to sleep. Hey.. whatever, I got to sleep in a little so I'm happy hehe.

Here are some photos and videos finally! :D
Stopped being lazy and finally uploaded them.

First up... the new clothes we bought for her.
I know it's boring, but I can't help it, baby/toddler clothes are adorable!

Boring shirts for next year. They were on sale and we needed $50 for free shipping lol.

An awesome sweater dress. It looks so much better in person than it did on the website. It's also 24m but I'm gonna put her in it anyway :P lol

And finally, her awesomely festive Christmas outfit!
Since we couldn't find a Santa or Elf costume in her size, we went with the next best thing and got something SUPER Christmasy but still cute heh.
Figured that we only have a couple more years before she starts rebelling against our clothing choices for her so have to have fun now while she has no say LOL
If I have time, going to try to make her a hat to go with it. :D

And here is the blanket I was working on for a friend's boy.
I tried doing the letters all nice and neat but it didn't work out. Still cute though :)
Here is a link to the patten if anyone is interested. Not sure if you have to sign up for the website but it's free so not a big deal if you do :)

This was taken when Zoe was sick. She managed to get in to potted plants we thought were blocked.
Dirty face but adorable :D
Can really see how much her hair has grown. We'll have a ponytail sooner or later.

Having fun with daddy. She looks so grown in this photo.

And finally.. some videos!!

Number 1 - Smiling for the camera near the end
Number 2 - Obviously taken at the same time as the other. Smiling at first w/ an MM and pretend eating thrown in :)

Wednesday, December 4, 2013

Holy credit card bill Batman!!

We were doing so well with our credit card bill. Paying it off every month and mostly only having the cable and phone bill on it.
Nothing like end of the year birthdays and Christmas to screw all that up!
DH has been on a HUGE spending spree and has wracked up over 2k on the credit card already! O_O
It's nice that he wants to buy stuff for his friends but... DAMN.
Ok so not all of it was gifts. Some of it is stuff we wanted/need. Like another baby gate. But that's only $89. And I know I haven't gotten anything. He may have bought himself a new knife, and we bought Zoe this cute Pooh plushie blanket for $10... but yeah.. that's still only a tiny fraction of frickin 2k!

He better not even bitch when I have to buy more OPKs! lol

UGH, I forgot to mention this mostly b/c I didn't want another bitchy post but.. well here it is.
So on Thanksgiving, DH's aunt kept bugging us about letting Zoe spend the night with her. Just by looking at us, it was obvious that we weren't comfortable with it. So we skirted around the subject.
Well she mentions that she wants Zoe to spend the night on Saturday so she can "show her off at church" on Sunday.
Neither DH or I agreed to it and it wasn't brought up again.

Come Saturday, DH gets a call while we're out looking for a Christmas tree from said aunt wondering when/where she can pick Zoe up. Uhm... what?
Well apparently in her mind, she thought we said yes to her plan and had been planning on getting Zoe.
No.... no.
DH explained to her very calmly that we had never said yes to that.
THAT's when the guilt trips from them (aunt and his mom) started.
How we never let them see her and how Zoe isn't going to know who they are.
Oh SHUT UP. Guilt trips might work on some people, but not us, especially when it comes to Zoe. It just pisses us off and def doesn't make us want Zoe over there.

They have it in their minds that we think that we're better than them and will intentionally keep Zoe away and raise her to hate them or something. Why? Because DH has a good paying job (nm that we still don't have a lot of money). They think we're swimming in money and drinking out of solid gold cups or something. I dunno.

On a lighter note... back to why we don't have a lot of money lol..
DH found this adorable Christmas ornament. He was looking at Amazon and found this Expectant mom ornament. It's a pregnant snow'mom' lol. She's holding a piece of paper that says Due Date that you can write on and then write up under her your name and stuff. It's so cute and he bought it for his sister. AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW
Just melt my heart.

Tuesday, December 3, 2013

Poor kitty

I know I keep going on about how our cat is an asshole that is pooping and peeing on the carpet. Welp, it's b/c his paws are hurting him, or more like the litter we were using was hurting his paws.
He has Plasma cell pododermatitis aka Pillow foot.
We looked it up when we noticed his paw pads and the vet confirmed it after taking a sample of the fluid (which wasn't much surprisingly).
While walking on the carpet is ok, his litter was hurting his feet so that's most likely the reason why he's been going on the carpet.
Well crap... now I feel bad for being mad at him.
We've switched his litter to a very fine grain corn stuff. It's very soft. Also switched his other litter box to some wood shavings to see if he would like that.
And we have the area he's been using as his toilet gated off and have him locked in a certain area. He's been ok but does not like parts of the house being off limits.

Anyway, they don't know what causes it and we have to give him meds that MIGHT work.
Prednisolone. It's some kind of steroid and he has to get A LOT of it, in liquid form meaning we have to burrito him in a towel and squirt the stuff in to his mouth w/ a syringe. It's a ton of it too. It's almost the entire syringe worth of meds we have to get him to take... EVERY day for two weeks. He's going to hate us by the time this is all over. That's JUST at this dose too. Once we're done at this dose, we have to wean him off of the meds. And boy they are not cheap.
We have a 16? day supply and it cost us over $70. So yeah... lot of money for something that might not even work.
He was foaming, drooling and spitting it all out today. Can't blame him. I'd be spitting out meds too if someone was forcing me to drink it lol.

And of course the vet and tech had to mention his weight. They weighed him and he's almost 21lbs :P lol
They kept telling us not to overfeed and stories about owners feeding their fat cats table scraps.
We don't overfeed him. He gets 1/4 of a cup of Blu brand cat food twice a day. That's it. We very very rarely give him table scraps and when we do, it's maybe a very tiny piece of meat. I'm talking this may happen 2 or 3 times a YEAR.
So yeah... he's not fat b/c of anything we do or give him.

So yeah... poor kitty cat. He's a pain in our asses but we're willing to do this in hopes that he'll get better.

Sunday, December 1, 2013

Stuff and junk

Quick post before I head to bed.

We bought our Christmas tree on Saturday! WOO! :D It doesn't smell though :( The sap on it smells awesome, but just sniffing it, it doesn't have that awesome douglas fur smell to it. Booooo
We haven't put any decor on it yet b/c the cat keeps pooping and pissing in the room that it's in. Damn cat. Dunno WTH his fat ass problem is. Frickin cat!

Finished one Christmas present tonight! WOO! Good lord that thing feels like it took forever, but it's pretty cute. I'll get photos and post them :)
Now.. I have 2 more presents to work on.... UGH lol

Oh and I have such a cute idea to start up my own etsy shop. It's the first time I've ever actually really considered selling anything I make and I THINK my idea would do well. I'll elaborate later down the road as it fleshes out a bit more.

Zoe is doing well. She coughs and sneezes every once in a while, but her cold is mostly gone.
Good lord.. she is a tornado on 2 feet, or well.. all 4's right now. She gets in to EVERYTHING and tears it up if possible!
Destruction and chaos never looked so cute :P lol

Boy is she getting in to that toddler phase though. She does NOT like being told "No". She'll start crying and whining and will flail her arms and hit. Thankfully it's not a forceful hit, I think it happens mostly b/c she's flailing her arms, but when she does it, we tell her "No hitting" and will sit her down or if she's on our lap, then we'll put her on the floor.
She'll get up and then will hit our leg and I'll repeat and sit her on the floor. She's def testing the boundaries, but she's gonna learn that mommy and daddy don't give in.

She's my mini-me though. Like when our dogs start barking, I'll usually yell "DOGS" at them to get them to hush.
Well, she's picked up that habit and will yell "OH" or "NO" at them lol.
Need to get some more photos of her and post them already! Stop saying it and just do it :P

Ok this post was longer than expected. It's after 11 and I'm TIRED!