Wednesday, May 24, 2017

It's my turn now

I threw up in the middle of the night.
Woke up and felt nauseous. Tried ignoring it and going back to sleep, but no. I had to puke
Thing is though... there wasn't much of anything in my stomach so I didn't throw up a lot.
Just glad that this isn't a bad stomach bug. Annoying as shit, but not anywhere near as bad as that last one that completely sapped your energy.

Zoe still has gross poo and so does Oren now. Well.. he actually threw up last night in his sleep too and he's had gross diarrhea all day today. Super stank, watery, but also grainy?

Ezra and DH seem to be the only ones that have been spared from this so far. Hopefully they won't get sick.
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DH came home at 9 last night. I was pissed off b/c he didn't see the kids all day. I know he sensed it b/c he kept asking me if I was.. and I kept saying no lol. I mean.. there really wasn't a reason for me to be mad. Sigh.. I hate it when I feel like that. Just unreasonably mad or mad at something stupid.
I'm over it now and obviously I'm feeling a bit guilty about it. Damn emotions! lol
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Oh at the Sunday thing at church.. this woman had the cutest little baby girl ever. I dunno how old she was... maybe 4 or 5 months? Still really young and tiny and so GD cute and chunky!
Holy crap it gave me some serious baby fever. How ridiculous is that though? I still have a baby!! rofl
It just made me long for another girl though. Sigh...
Seriously.. getting my tubes tied was totally the right decision, but I think I'm still going to mourn not being able to have anymore for a little while longer.
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And that's all for now. It's raining pretty good and I want to post this in case we lose power.

Tuesday, May 23, 2017

Seriously... again?

Zoe is sick.. again. Well, both her and Oren are with a stomach bug.. AGAIN.
WTH??????
So tired of this crap......

Oh.. AND... Rocko has the squirts and proceeded to go in to the hallway that leads to the kids' rooms and blast a dook all over the floor and wall. Without warning I might add. He's still a puppy, but GD is it annoying as hell that he's not house trained yet.
Like he'll go out for an hour.... 15mins back inside and he's already pissed and/or shit. Yesterday.. it was exactly that. I look in the sunroom and there he is.. just hunched over taking a crap.
SO damn ANNOYING!

Thankfully poo is easy to clean, but it's still disgusting and there's always residue or at least you think there could be so that just makes it grosser when the kids or yourself have to walk in the area.


Ezra is good though. Still not crawling, but not worried....
Ok I am worried a little bit, but also not.
He gets on his stomach and just rotates on his stomach and scoots backwards lol. I think he thinks that's enough. He's only ever gotten on to his knees a couple of times, but not hands and knees. /shrugs
Hopefully there isn't a problem.
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DH has gone off to a work BBQ thing. Yeah... I didn't want to go and have no regrets about it!
But then he's making me go to some church BBQ thing tomorrow and a birthday party on Sunday /grumble
What the hell???
We don't get invited to shit and then all of a sudden, all of this crap all at once!

So yeah... a whole mess load of cheats this week and I am not happy with it.
I'm sure my weigh in won't be great.

I'm not really happy with DH right now either.
So he volunteered at the church Awana program. That's fine.. I didn't mind at all.
But then to hear how he's some of the kids' male kind of father figure and how they look up to him etc.... ok.. that's all well and good and I'm glad he can do that.
But then when he's home... he's just annoyed and frustrated and has a super short fuse with our kids.
He's a great dad most of the time, it's just recently I've noticed his annoyance and then to hear someone talk about him like that towards other children just annoyed me is all.
/shrugs
I dunno... just feels like lately our kids have only been getting the annoyed mean daddy that only gets to see them a couple of hours before they go to bed.

Ugh.. I don't want to paint him as a horrible father b/c he's not. He's SO far from being a bad dad. Hell.. I have my weeks of being in a shit mood too and yelling a bit more than I should. I'm just venting. Need to clear that up before anyone thinks he's some horrible person. lol



There was something else but I've forgotten b/c Zoe just drew on the carpet with chalk.
Chalk.. think it's easy to get out of carpet right? Yeah... no. Sigh........ -_-

Thursday, May 18, 2017

Sick gross nasty!

That's been the theme in this house the last couple of days lol.

Thankfully this stomach bug has been pretty mild for the kids. Poor Oren has gotten it again? Or it didn't completely go away for him just yet. He's acting totally normal.. just has disgusting poop and threw up on his bed again. Gross poop that leaked out. BLEH!

I hope I don't get sick too. Thankfully I've avoided it for now. I'm sure all of the extra hand washing I've been needing to do has helped.
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Diet is going well, but I dunno if my weigh in tomorrow will reflect it since I still have the appetite of a starving elephant.

I'm finally going to try to exercise today. Just something light.
Saw someone post a video for beginners yoga that I'm going to try out.
I am still spotting right now.
Stupid period can't make up it's mind if it wants to continue or stop.
Really really hoping that when I do start losing more weight... this fixes.
Would love nice predictable periods.
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Grr, my stupid weak nails keep breaking! And breaking too low. WTH??
Trying to keep my right pinky nail from coming completely off right now b/c it broke down super low. Just one day.. felt a bruise like pain coming from the finger and noticed the break. It just needs to grow out a little more then I'll clip it.
Sigh.. so much for having nice pretty long strong nails.
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Ezra still isn't crying but he's rolling on to his stomach all the time... and then spinning in place lol.
It's funny but also annoying b/c he hasn't figured out that he can roll back to his back so he gets upset during the night and starts fussing until we go in to his room and roll him back over lol. Lazy child!
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And yep... nothing much has really happened this week. Just dealing with sick kids and trying not to get sick myself.
I did manage to clean the carpets on Monday... but you sure as heck wouldn't be able to tell I did any cleaning with how messy it already is. I don't know how they do it. lol

Monday, May 15, 2017

It's 4am

And I'm in the living room and Zoe is on the couch sleeping.
Why? B/c she crawled in to bed with us... and threw up all over my back. Lol.. poor girl.
She was sick this morning too.
Thought she had gotten over it but I guess whatever caused earlier is still in her system.
I need to clean the carpets. I know these nasty dirty ass carpets aren't helping matters. Kids playing all over the spots that the dog has messed on. We spray the spots and clean up as best we can, but I still need to get the carpet cleaner out later.

So yeah..... fun times....

Mother's day was like any other here. I didn't have to cook which was a plus lol.
We went to inlaws for dinner. They did a shrimp boil which was really good.
Ate too many carbs today, but meh.. I'm not going to worry about it.
An extra cheat isn't going to derail me from losing weight :D

Didn't get anything though. I'm not one to expect flowers or anything expensive or some shit, but it would've been nice if DH actually tried to get the kids to make me something... or get a card for them to scribble in for me. Oh well... not a big deal and have lots more mother's days to get some homemade goodies from the kids :)

Uuuugh.... I'm already feeling like a zombie. Today is going to be a struggle.
The life of mom....

Friday, May 12, 2017

My garden!

Just a quick post.....
My garden is doing... pretty well.
I wish these rogue tomato plants hadn't completely taken over my peppers, but they're doing well and I can't argue with getting more tomatoes :D

It's holding up pretty good though so far.
The weather has gotten back to being hot so I'll have to water a lot more often, especially when they get bigger.
Already picked off 2 tiny caterpillars. Not hornworm thankfully, but still little bastards that could do damage.
I can't wait to have a successful garden again!
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Zoe and Oren start their gymnastics class June 1st! WOO! DH called them last night and put them on the list. YAY :D
I'm so excited for them. I really hope they enjoy it. Would love for them to stick with it too. Not to be professional or anything, but mostly for the fitness and socialization.
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My weight this morning is officially 219.4
So yeah.... a slight loss, but I'll take it. I thought it was going to be a few pounds gained with how bloated I am.
I'm probably less than this b/c I can still feel all of that food and waste in there taking its sweet time coming out. Oh well.... 219.4... I will gladly take it :D

I still don't know what the hell I ate to cause this. Maybe it's just hormonal that is causing it. /shrugs

Thursday, May 11, 2017

I made a mistake!

So.. b/c I'm PMSing.. I've become a bottomless pit. Or well... it feels like it at least.
So yesterday.. I ate... and ate... and ate some more. Welp, there is a bottom and I hit it. I hit it HARD and painfully!
I felt totally fine before dinner.
Dinner was just a fruit smoothie as we decided to do on Wednesday nights since DH and Zoe have Awana to go to.
I felt fine eating the smoothie.
5 mins after the smoothie and I am doubled over in painful stomach cramps.
It's like everything I had eaten was still in my stomach and the smoothie came in and just congealed it on in to a giant ball of suck.
Holy crap the pain.
I'm still in pain today too. Not cramping thankfully, but my stomach hurts to press down on and I'm pretty sure I can feel where this giant turd is currently at in my intestines b/c I will sometimes get a wave of pain from specific spots.
I dunno WTF happened with all of this.. but it was a huge mistake to give in to my pms hormonal need for feed.

I didn't learn anything though b/c here I sit... eating eating eating some more today.
I just can't help it. Even though my stomach still hurts.. I'm HUNGRY.
I did down a glass of water w/ miralax in it so I'm hoping it helps to get all of this out of me. I would take an actual laxative if we had some.
Wish we had prunes b/c I'd eat some of those too.

Do not expect my weigh in tomorrow to be good, but we'll see I guess. Sigh. I just want to poop.
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Just got word from DH that we finally got an email back from gymnastics and they're going to have an opening in the time slot we wanted in June. Geeze. Well.. better late than never I guess.
Just have to make sure the time for Oren is still open and then confirm that we want the spot :D
I already ordered her 2 leotards and 2 shorts to go with them. Will be getting those soon.
So excited for her to start.
Yesterday she got on the floor and.. I didn't know WTH she was doing, but she just had this sheepish smile on her face as she kind of tried to do a split and she said she was "doing gymnastics" lol. Awwwwww
She's so excited to start and I can't wait until she does :D

Wednesday, May 10, 2017

Well that explains a lot.

I guess my period is starting.
Started spotting brown yesterday and it's gotten a little heavier today. Still just spotty and still brown which is kind of gross. I mean it doesn't smell or anything.. that would be a whole other problem and issue I'd need to call a doctor about lol. It's just kind of gross when you see that old brown blood coming out.

Boy... I share a lot huh ;) lol
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Ezra is great. He got one shot yesterday and from the sounds of it... his doctor isn't that concerned about not crawling yet, but will be if he's still not crawling by 12m which I'd be concerned with too. Said that they would do some kind of tests then if he still wasn't crawling and/or walking by then.
I don't think we have anything to worry about. I think with doing more tummy time now, he'll be crawling soon. He still doesn't like tummy time a lot but we're doing it a lot more.

He's 20lbs, 28 1/2 inches, and his head is 46.5. Him and Oren both have HUGE craniums lol.

zoe <--- zoe types that out lol
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Crap.. I forgot what else I wanted to talk about. Dangit!

Tuesday, May 9, 2017

Rebellious toddlers

Oren is driving me crazy with his Nuh Uhs and Nos and ..... just UGH I don't think so child.
He tries to do the passive aggressive slug flop on to the ground now too and that crap isn't gonna work little dude.
His temper also makes him toss/throw stuff when he gets upset. Yeah.. not gonna fly. If I catch him doing it, I make him pick it up and put it up. He tried pulling that crap with me and then he ran off to scream/cry. Nope.. off to bed with you to take a nap... or cry in your crib until I feel like getting you out of it.

10mins later:

Thankfully he went to sleep.

He can be so warm and snuggly and adorable, but when he gets in to one of his toddler moods... cover your ears and muster up as much patience as you can lol.
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Ezra has his 9m appointment this afternoon. I'm sure he's getting more shots. He always seems to do well with them so I'm not too worried. Just worried that DH wants me to take him. Ha.. nope. I spend all day with the kids.. he can take them to their appointments.

He cut one of his front teeth :D I'm sure the one next to it will be through soon. Overall, he's been pretty ok with teething.
A few nights of being restless, but overall he's handling it great. Thank goodness!

He's also getting up on to his knees finally. He hasn't figured out getting on to all 4's so he steadies himself by using his head pressed up against the floor lol.
I'm sure he'll get it soon though :)
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Frickin puppy and the chihuahua do not get a long.
The puppy is a typical high energy puppy and he's hard headed too. We get him to stop pestering the chihuahua when we see it happen, but we don't always catch it.
The chihuahua is your typical chihuahua with a complex and has started to guard his food b/c he doesn't eat it all in one go and gets distracted so the other dogs and even the cat will come along and eat the rest of his food. Well he doesn't like it when the puppy does it so will snap at him. Puppy had enough of that one day and pinned the chihuahua on the floor. Didn't hurt him and didn't look like he was trying to bite him, but it was definitely a show of dominance.
We of course separated them ASAP.
Sigh.. just frustrating. They're both good dogs in their own way and hopefully the chihuahua will come around.
Our other doggo plays with him now. He'll get annoyed too and will put the pup in his place, but thankfully he's come around and has accepted him.

The cat also can't stand the puppy and will start growling and hissing at him. For some reason that just annoys the crap out of me. I could see if the pup deserved it... which he does sometimes, but not just walking by.

I think once Rocko calms his butt down some, the other 2 will accept him more :)
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Just so tired right now. Just went to the bathroom and wiped away a couple of small globs of dark brown grossness. So yeah... think maybe my period may be starting soon which would explain why I'm so damn tired.

Thankfully my cold is finally letting up and I'm not coughing so much, but the kids are starting to get sick so I'm sure I'll be sick again in a couple of weeks. SIGH!
Need to just lysol everything and hope we kill this cycle of sickness.

Monday, May 8, 2017

Is it the weekend yet?

Can't leave the backdoor open any longer.Not sure if Ezra got out on his own or if he had a little help from Oren, but I suddenly hear a couple of thumps immediately followed by Ezra crying.
I don't think I've ever gotten up as quick as I did. I rushed to the back door and he's at the bottom of the porch, upside down in his walker. My heart stopped.
He scraped under his chin and his leg a little bit, but he's fine other than that.
He's never been able to get over the lip that leads outside so just never thought twice about him going to the back door.
Sigh.... I feel so horrible about it and this could've ended so much worse.
Seriously lucky that he didn't hurt himself more. And thank goodness that it is only 2 steps down.

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Zoe has slept in her bed for 3 nights. Last night she came in to our bed at around 330. I did kinda miss her. I loved not being on the edge of the bed constantly but I did miss the snuggles. She's not normally snuggly and doesn't really like hugs, so I take what I can get from her lol. She's only going to be this little for so long. Gotta enjoy it before it's too late.. ya know?
I can sacrifice some bed space if it means I get to snuggle with my baby girl :)
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Oren is going to give me a heartattack too. Well.. that's if my head doesn't explode from the whining first.
He was out back.. on top of the picnic table with Rocko... the puppy. WTH?
Him and Zoe always get on top of that table and start playing around and UUUUUUGH... I hate it. I always tell them to get down but back up they go when I'm not looking.

He's just starting to get colors. He mostly says blue, but he'll repeat the color word if we say it to him. So darn cute!
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Still no word from the gymnastics place. DH said they said the end of May. BLEH! Was hoping it would be sooner, but oh well... end of May is at least something. Just keeping FX that she will get in to that time slot so we can finally get them in all of it.
Zoe needs more interactions with authority figures and children and Oren just needs more social interactions that isn't just us.
I'm just happy that Zoe isn't really shy. She can get shy, but she's not like how I was. I was painfully shy and still am actually lol.
Just don't want that for my kids. Want them to be able to be social and make lots of good friends.
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Guess that's all for now. I'm so tired that I can't remember if there was something else I wanted to mention. It's only Monday and I'm already looking forward to this weekend.... sigh.

Friday, May 5, 2017

Playdoh... UGH!!!

So, it was nice out yesterday so I let the kids play out back for a little bit. Zoe spotted the playdoh that we bought for Oren's birthday and wanted it. Ok.. they're going outside so.. it's all good right?
Yeah.... I knew... I knew it was going to be brought in and it sure was.
There are now chunks of playdoh everywhere. Small pieces ground in to the carpet that will never be gotten up again.
I HAD to clean up yesterday b/c I had to vacuum up as much as possible before too much got stuck in the carpet. Sigh....
But hey... it's clean-ish now so that's good. :D
There are already toys and mess on the floor... so it was nice while it lasted I guess..... sigh.
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My official weigh ins are going to be Friday mornings I think. I don't want to wait until tomorrow or Sunday to do it since of the cheat dinner. I know that's going to cause me to gain some bloat back temporarily so I want to weigh before cheating.

This morning... I was down to 219.6
Woot :)
Still hoping to start exercising on Monday, but this cough is being stubborn as shit and not wanting to leave.
It's not as juicy as before thankfully so FX I keep getting better.

It's pretty crazy though. I can already see an actual difference in my stomach. I mean.. I still look like I'm pregnant, but not AS pregnant ;) hehe
Just have a great feeling that adding in exercise will definitely help get even better results. So pumped and ready!

DH and I were pining for some carby food though. Like creamy macaroni salad. Yum that sounds so good lol. Lol.. that's kinda funny. We're not craving sweets... we just want the carbs. All the carbs!! :P
I think we could probably share some popcorn every once in a while and still be on track. We'll see :)

Thursday, May 4, 2017

How... HOW??

I cleaned up and now?? Doesn't even look like I bother cleaning... EVER.
How on earth do 2 little children... so small.... so innocent? Create so much damn chaos???
And then we're gonna have a 3rd joining in on the fun soon. UUUUUGH!
Rofl
I'm not even cleaning shit right now. I don't feel like it b/c I had to wake up early again today so F it. F the mess. It's not going anywhere.
Oh it's driving me bonkers looking at it, but it can wait. I just don't have the motivation to do anything about it right now.

I'm still horking up a lung. Not as much but still as violently as before. I pee myself so much. It's only a little bit, but little bit.... a lot... it's still too much.
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It's supposed to get to 65 degrees tomorrow. WTF nature?? Now... I'm not complaining that it's getting cool. I love that part... but still... WTF?? Make up your GD mind. It was 90 when we went to the fair this past weekend!
Hopefully my garden will be ok. It should be, but they may slow down their growth some since the temp will be cool for the next few days.
Hey.. good for us though. Can open up the windows and enjoy some nice weather before it gets Satan's ballsack hot.
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You know how FB has that share past memories thing? I shared one when Oren was a little baby. Feels like a thousand years ago.
He was such a cute ass little baby!
Don't get me wrong, he's a cute ass little toddler now lol, but OMG his cheeks when he was a bebeh were so squishy cute!
/cry I'm already missing the baby stage and Ezra is still in it :(
I'm going to miss the super chunky baby-ness. The baby babble. The pure innocence and cuteness. Sigh....
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Diet is going well.
I did get SUPER hungry yesterday at dinner. It was b/c we had smoothies. Smoothies rarely fills me up.
Oh it's delicious, but not filling.
So I snacked on what I could... which wasn't much. Boo :(
Fixed some yummy fatty BBQ pork ribs for lunch. Could only eat a few of them b/c they're so fatty and heavy on the stomach.
About to go eat a pickle b/c I'm still feeling a bit blah from the fattiness just sitting in my stomach.
It was good though. :D

Tonight is going to be some left over sriracha chicken breast with salad. Yum yum :D

Hoping pineapple is on sale somewhere this week. Been craving some for a few days now.
We bought 2 a few weeks ago, but they go bad so quick. Or well.. the ones we bought did. Boo :(
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I think that's it for now.
DH emailed back the HOA saying he was going to put siding on his shed so they approved our application. Morons. He was already planning on putting wooden siding on it (one of the HOA requirements for the shed) and painting it to be the same color as the house. Dunno why that's not enough.
He said he's going to just go ahead and do that, but knowing him, he's probably going to just do the siding.
I'm sure he's just happy to finally be able to get it started already. We have 2 months to get it up from the time it's approved and he wants to do it all himself.
He's got his work cut out since he's never built anything like that before lol.

Wednesday, May 3, 2017

Woot! A Small Victory!!

So... early start this morning b/c Oren leaked all over his bed at 4am.
He didn't understand that it was still sleepy time and screamed and screamed when I put him back to bed. Thankfully, I can just turn his monitor off so I didn't have to hear it, but I did stay awake until he finally went back to sleep an hour later.
Then DH got up and I got another hour of sleep before he woke up again.

Anywho... while I was thinking of it... decided to pull out my first pair of bottoms that I want to get back in to.
They're size 16. Nothing special... just shorts. There's no give or anything in the waist and they're pretty true to size. Like they're not labelled size 16 but run big or smaller.
Went to put them on to see how much I needed to lose before being able to button them up. Got a bit disheartened when the shorts got tight around my hips. That's usually never been a problem. Anyway.....
I could button them!! They were a little snug and I had some serious muffin top spilling over, but I could button and zip them without feeling like I was cutting off circulation! WOOOO!!!

So once Zoe is awake, I'm gonna go find a different pair of bottoms to be my next goal :)
I could still use these shorts and have a goal of.... no snuggness or no muffin top. I may still do that :)

I still have a LOOOOONG journey ahead, but it's nice to have this small victory to keep me going :D

It would just be nice to one day not look like I'm about ready to give birth to another child. I know carrying so much fat in the stomach area is not healthy for anyone and that is where I carry a ton of it. I'm not quite an apple top b/c I do have some booty and thighs too, but most of it is up top.

But yeah... this really helps to keep me motivated and I want to continue on. Again.. having all of our meals planned out has helped SO SO SO SO much!
I am craving sweet a little bit, but I fixed some sugar free jello so hopefully that helps. I fixed some pudding too, but it is very carby so I only had a spoonful and gave the kids the rest.

Really hoping that next week I'll be able to exercise. I know as soon as I do start exercising, I'll be seeing even more results and it will be so much healthier. Just have to get rid of this damn cough already.
I feel ok overall, but I still have a pretty juicy cough and my ears have been deciding which one is going to get all stuffed up and muffled. Yesterday it was my right one :\
Zoe's cough last night when she got in to bed with us sounded pretty juicy too. Ugh. FX that it doesn't get worse.
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And garden stuff! WOO! lol

Did a little bit of gardening yesterday. Planted my onion scraps outside. If you keep the root part of an onion, you can plant it and it will grow. It won't become a giant big onion, but you can cut off the green part and use it like green onion :D
Oh and my avocado seed finally split and is growing roots :D WOO! Have a large pot just waiting for it :)

We had some leftover russet potatoes that weren't good any longer but were starting to grow. Decided to cut them up and plant some of them. Never tried growing potato so we'll see how this goes lol.
I dunno what it is, but it always grosses me out when potatoes do this. 

My cucumbers. The one on the bottom is the one I grew from seed and then the bunch above that is what I bought from Walmart. I should've separated the bunch, but meh.. not worried about it. Just glad they're finally growing. This particular bed also has my tomato plants in it :)

My pepper plants bed. Or well.. it's supposed to be. We used all of the compost we had made and apparently it had some viable tomato seeds in it b/c they popped up and are taking over. Was going to move the tomatoes, but since they're doing so well.. I think I'm going to move the peppers instead.

Annoying cute Rocko lol. He's gotten SO big! Still a puppy.. still has some annoying behaviors that need to be taken care of. Tired of picking up poop or having to worry about him peeing everywhere still. It's getting better, but just wish it happened faster lol.
I love puppies, but dang are they a lot of work :P
He's such a smart little guy though. Really responds to treats. He'll sit without a treat, but down and anything else requires a treat still hehe

This small area has 3 pumpkin plants. They're not doing that well. Think it was just shock and now... I dunno. Just not doing well for some reason. I'm not worried about it. Just wanted to grow them for Zoe. Thought she'd get a kick out of watching a little pumpkin grow.
We are getting some raspberry plants coming up though. DH wants to pull them up, but I won't let him. lol

I let the kids help plant the potatoes and help me pull weeds :)

 Ezra was asleep during all of that, so here's a photo of him from the previous day.
Trying to do a lot more tummy time with him. He can go in circles, but that's about it :P

Tuesday, May 2, 2017

Still sick....

Very very slowly getting better, but still sick.
The kids are sick too but thankfully it seems as though they're not getting as sick as I did. Hopefully it stays that way.
I am still really congested. My ears were so stuffed up yesterday and still are a little today. Thankfully I can actually hear mostly normal today. Yesterday, everything was muffled.
Good times....

Thankfully I'm not coughing as much, but I did have a coughing attack yesterday morning that made me throw up. I hadn't eaten anything yet so I just threw up a little bit of liquid and some mucus. Awesome.
Just can't wait to feel better already. Need to make sure to dispose of all the water bottles I reuse at night so I don't make myself sick again.
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Kids are driving me crazy as usual :P lol
The house is still a disaster area, but thankfully since I'm feeling a little better, I actually feel like cleaning. NEED to do it b/c the mess is driving me crazy. I hate looking at all the tiny bits of trash or toys laying around. Going to pack up more toys to donate too. Really can't wait to do that!

Need to clean up out in the backyard too. The kids left 2 of their easter baskets out there and the puppy got ahold of them and ripped them to shreds.
Junk all over the place and it needs to be cleaned so DH can eventually mow the lawn.
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DH had a rough night last night. No idea why, but he woke up around 1 and couldn't get back to sleep. That was about when Zoe came and laid down with us, but he usually goes right back to sleep.
Hopefully he'll sleep better tonight. He could take one of my melatonin pills.
I take 1 or 2 every night and it seems to help me get to sleep better than before. I still wake up a lot, but I don't think that's ever going to change.

He's told me that he's had some pain on the top of on of his feet for about a month now. He JUST told me this last week :\
Dude... seriously?? It's been a month and hasn't gotten any better or gets better but then worse again? Take your ass to the doctor!! Geezus....
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Diet is coming along just fine. It REALLY helps to have all of our dinners planned out. Like.. seriously helps SO much to keep on track. No guessing, no trying to come up with something on the spot etc.
Sure... I'm stuck prepping everything, but we've picked out some pretty easy recipes so it hasn't been too bad.
It's mostly just my lunch that has been a little bit of a problem b/c I'm lazy and don't feel like cooking something from scratch. lol

It's been good though. We're not being super duper strict. Like yesterday, I fixed some BBQ chicken legs, coleslaw, & corn on the cob. The BBQ saw definitely had sugar, little bit in the coleslaw as well and corn is carby too so... yeah.. there ya go. But overall, it's still low carb compared to a normal diet.

We're doing well though. :) This is only the 2nd week, so we'll see how it's going in the next week or so lol
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I do still need to dig out some pants to keep track of my weight loss. Also hoping that by next week I'll feel good enough that I'll want to attempt to exercise. I know as soon as I start, it's going to make the weight/inches just melt off. Or well.. at least that's what I'm hoping for lol.

Monday, May 1, 2017

F- HOAs!!!!

Gawd damnit.
As I've said before and always will say.. NEVER buy a home that is part of an HOA.
I understand why they were started. You don't want people messing up their property which would cause your own to go down in value, but the amount of restrictions and jumping through hoops to get shit done is fucking ridiculous.
DH sent in his request for the shed over 2 months ago. We JUST NOW heard back from them and.... our request was rejected b/c he didn't put down that he was going to add in siding that is the same as the house. WTF???
And he followed all of the rules when submitting his request, but they supposedly didn't receive it until 4/20 even though we sent it in at least 2 months prior? BULLSHIT
Bunch of lazy ass lying pieces of monkey shit.
They are lucky we even sent anything in to get approved b/c we damn well know that we're probably one of the only ones in the neighborhood that does it.
And there are other sheds in the neighborhood that do NOT have matching fucking siding on their sheds like supposedly we're supposed to do.

So yeah.. now they're saying we have to resubmit our request.
Whatever. I told DH that we just need to build it and fuck them if they want to make a fuss about it.
We'll build it how it's supposed to look according to the rules and dare them to try to give us shit.

UGH, so pissed off.

Screw HOAs man.... seriously. And screw the lazy asshole ones that don't wanna do their jobs.
Make this shit easier and put this crap online!
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And while I'm ranting....
We have to go in to Zoe's school to finish registering her for kindergarten. They have an online registration, but require you to go in to give them... whatever. WTF?? Why even bother with the online shit then?
Told DH that he's going to have to take a day off so we can do it b/c the hell if I'm gonna roll up in there with 3 kids in tow and no idea what I'm doing lol.
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And then.. my stupid ass brother. I don't care to talk to him. I haven't blocked him on FB... yet.... but it's close.
He did his usual Hi or well... it was 'sup' PM on FB the other day and when I didn't reply back he came back with a "guess I'm not worthy enough of a reply now." bullshit reply.
So I ripped him a new one and told him that, I dunno who the hell he thinks he's talking to but his passive aggressive guilt tripping bullshit isn't going to work on me.
He has NEVER PMd me just bc or just for small talk. It has ALWAYS been b/c he wanted something.
He tried to say he was just PMing me to ask if we saw Logan and how it was or worth watching and blahblahblah. Uh huh sure... right before asking if I'll watch your kids for you I'm sure.
Bitch, whatever.
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Just so tired of the bullshit....
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Anyway... still waiting for gymnastics place to contact us. Hoping it's soon. Need to look at leotards some more on amazon and let Zoe pick out some that she likes. Well.. let her choose from a select few that have decent reviews lol.