Monday, September 3, 2012

Bewb pains

I can't lay on either side for too long... haven't even dared lay on my stomach yet.
If I lay on either side for too long, that bewbie starts to ache like crazy and I'm paying for it for a few days after.

My right one is just now starting to feel normal again. Who knew breastfeeding/pumping would be so damn annoying!! Screw those bitches that want to take formula away from everyone! They can go lick balls.

I'm this close to giving up pumping. My supply just seems to be going down down down no matter WTH I'm doing :(
It was somewhat satisfying before... seeing how much I was getting and knowing it would feed Zoe, but now.....  pffft.... I just feel like I'm wasting my time trying to continue with it when I'm getting less and less with each pumping.
I massage, take fenugreek religiously, pump every 2-3 hours for at least 15mins, drinking a ton of water and still... my body wants to show me just how much it still sucks by decreasing my supply. Awesome :\

Even though I hate doing it with a passion, I'll stick with it until the bitter end and then jump for joy when I don't have to worry about doing it any longer :P lol
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Zoe is getting SO frickin big!! I can't believe how much she's grown in this short amount of time. She's gonna outgrow her almost 1yo cousin soon.
She's wearing 0-3m stuff, but I put her in a 3m old onesie yesterday and it fit w/ only just a little bit of slack O_O
I dunno why she's so big since I'm only 5'1" and DH is only 5'9". No one on DH's side is super tall.
My brother and dad are 6'1 & 6'2 but that's hardly giant or anything.
*shrugs* Maybe she won't actually be tall. She's just having some major growth spurts right now and it will slow down later.

2 comments:

SLESE1014 said...

just a suggestion...when I was pumping...and I was completely pump dependent ...I pumped until the last drop fell...sometimes that was 10 minutes and sometimes it was 30...until my daughter was around 3 months old, right before I went back to work, then it was consisitently 20 minutes and watching a sitcom on net.flix streaming was the perfect amount of time from beginning to end for my pumping sessions..

It is a pain, but it's so worth it...I'm still using my stash and my daughter will be 9 months old tomorrow. Make sure you're drinking enough...i think I've mentioned this before, but I would drink a 20 oz water after each pumping session, and that was above and beyond my 8- 8 oz glasses of water and other fluids...

Keep up the good work Mama...you're doing awesome!

Shari's Crafty Corner said...

My supply sucked and I had DD on the boob all the time. I didn't start pumping until she was 3 weeks and even then I couldn't "build up a stash". I blamed it on PCOS and just new I couldn't bf and go back to work because she would starve. I am keeping everything crossed that things improve for you!! It is so hard being tied to a pump all the time. I was always jealous of those women who had an over supply issue.