So my birthday was yesterday.
DH totally fooled me. He made me think he had either forgotten my birthday or was just being an ass (he does that well :P)... so I was pretty much on the verge of tears the entire day. That is until he surprised me with a cake and a kindle fire. Bastard....
Think this is the first birthday I've had in a long time where I didn't go to bed crying. Yeah.. I've had some shitty ones that DH has contributed to so it's not that far fetched that he was being a forgetful ass.
UGH that makes him sound like a total jerk, but I swear he isn't lol.
Zoe is resisting sleep like a mofo.
She still has her schedule at night, but during the day, she does not like napping for more than an hour at a time. An hour seems like a long time but it really isn't. Not when she's constantly waking herself up during that time and then the poor girl gets so fussy b/c she's tired.
And yes... crazy me wants to do this all again soon hehe.
Don't get me wrong... this is ROUGH... I am SO frickin tired and get so frustrated sometimes, but I dunno... it's not detering me from wanting to do it again and be even more tired w/ having to take care of a newborn and Zoe when she's older.
Seeing Zoe's little face... imagining the possibilities... then doing that for her possible siblings... I'll gladly do this all again w/ the added stress :)
Honestly, I'm not sure I'd feel this way if we didn't have our TTC struggle. Maybe I would have, maybe not, but I think our struggle has just made me appreciate all of this a lot more.
And before anyone reads in to that... no I'm not saying I appreciate this more than a fertile woman.