Yep.. it's a cold

My nose got worse again yesterday, but it's only in my right nostril... which is strange.
It's been pumping out the snot though.
Thankfully my throat feels better. WOO for that at least.
Did feel like I was a little feverish last night at bed. I could have been, but it wasn't too bad and didn't last long.
Nostril is super snotty today and I'm starting to feel that hazy cold feeling. Overall, I don't feel completely terrible so that's good. Hopefully it stays that way and this passes quick.
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Have a church egg hunt tomorrow. Bleh. The kids will enjoy it and they run it well (making sure all the kids get equal amount of eggs found and then they turn them in for stuff). My lazy ass just doesn't want to go rofl

I wanted to go around to the local martial arts places tomorrow and also the gymnastics place too. That one's office is only open from 10-noon I think and the egg hunt starts at 11 :\
We'll see what happens I guess.
But... the info that I've gotten so far from the different martial arts places... it looks like the kids will be in gymnastics. Gymnastics is expensive, but surprisingly cheaper. These martial arts places are SUPER frickin expensive. Last place I got info from.. just a small place in a strip mall. $69 for just 2 weeks!! WTH??
There's one close to DH's church that is over $200 a month! Absolutely insane.
I get that these people need to pay their bills, but... damn lol.

She discovered the camera

Zoe discovered the camera on her tablet yesterday. All day long, she's been running around taking photos. Even when she went to go poop.. rofl.
I'll have to try to get some of the photos off of it to show off :)
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Went to bed with a sore throat last night. Was hoping it was just b/c I didn't have a lot to drink, but nope... it bothered me throughout the night. Felt like swallowing razors when I drank water during the night.
Really hope it's not strep again. That SUCKED.
It's not so bad right now though so hoping the soreness I'm feeling is b/c I couldn't stop that swallowing reaction last night.
Our bodies are so stupid.
Sore throat? Swallowing constantly will make it worse.............. so your natural reaction to the feeling will be to swallow all the damn time and make it worse.
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I'm feeling ok other than that though. Did have a slightly snotty nose this morning but it's fine now.
FX that it's not anything I'll have to go to the doctor for! lol
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It's been a poop filled day though. Nasty poops all around. Story of my life! rofl
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Ok... with this stupid period winding down (it once again picked back up last night..... sigh)....
next week should definitely be a go to start exercising again. I am ready mentally to do it and get this going already.
I actually don't know if I'm going to weigh myself. I feel like that just kind of drives me crazy.
Maybe I should just go by the fit of my clothes or inches lost?
BUT when I was at my heaviest of 250..... I had lost about 50lbs and felt exactly the same as I had before. I was still wearing the same clothes and everything... it was the next 10lbs that I lost when my body finally started to noticeably show that I had lost weight. It just kind of suddenly happened.
So yeah... not sure what to do.
Definitely don't want to obsess over the number on the scale, but also don't want to obsess over the fit of my clothes.
Hmmm....
OOO maybe I should pick out a couple of pants. I have some 16's, 14's. And then keep track of my progress by how those are fitting me. That sound good?
/nodnod
Think I'll do that. Take pics of how I can't even button them up now and then maybe in a couple of weeks, try them on again to see if they fit any better.
Mmmhmm Mmhmm.. I like that idea :D

And he's sick again...

WTH child? Why is Oren always getting frickin sick??
Hoping this is maybe just allergies? But with his track record.. his runny nose will turn in to yet another cold.
He better never be sick as an adult. With how often he gets sick now... his immune system better be gold when he's an adult. Geeze....

Anyway... he was up whining all night long. I was sleeping like crap too for some reason and I'd just get to sleep when he'd start whining. Really shitty night.
Poor guy has giant bags under his eyes. He's def getting a nap today in a few minutes.

I'm sure the other 2 kids will be sick soon too. Sigh... it never ends!
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This period is getting on my damn nerves. Just when I think it's ending, it starts back up.
Yestereday, absolutely no blood on tp or in the toilet. Then 3pm rolls around and oh look.... more blood.
Tired of this crap..... said every woman ever :P lol
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I'm about to look up some frickin cake recipes and treat myself to a homemade cake b/c fuck this shit right now.
Yes.. I'm fat... yes.. I need to eat right (which I have been the majority of the time), but my body and lack of sleep is really making it difficult.
I AM exercising next week though. I just need to find a good chart so I can keep track of everything I'm doing. Hoping that that will help to keep me on track like it did with pumping.
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So excited to finally get my gardens going!
Definitely going to need to just replant some seeds outside. A lot of the ones I did inside aren't doing well at all. The weird weather we had and needing to keep them in the trays for so long really messed things up.
Oh well.. Good thing about the south is that it stays warm for a while so getting things started a little late isn't a huge deal.
But, bad thing... having to deal with the heat.

Anyway.... went out there today and planted a few cucumber seeds. 8 total, 2 different kinds. A pickling and a regular burpless type.

Hoping to get the rest of the plants in the ground this weekend.
The pepper plants all look pretty good so far and I think the tomatoes will be ok even though they're pretty leggy too. But tomato plants will root out of their stems so you can bury them deep.

Will definitely have to plant more watermelon and pumpkin seeds though in the ground. Those plants are not doing well at all in the trays.

I should've taken more.

Oops... posted before I was done rofl...

Anyway... lots of photos incoming!! I should've taken a lot more to show the nice mess the kids make on a daily basis. Seriously.. I vacuumed yesterday and it didn't even look like I had in a week today.
Doesn't help that it rained so the kids have been tracking in mud and everything else... sigh...

The mini titans after they got home from church... or maybe it was before. I dunno. They were looking cute either way. That's Zoe's new outfit we bought her at Walmart :D She needed new dress shoes and then I saw the cute Moana outfit :)

 Little dirt goblin. It's rare to get a good photo of him now. He's still in his "no photos!" phase.

 Baby Ez in his batmobile. He's getting around a lot better in it. Now this lazy momma just needs to stop being lazy and get on the floor with him to do more floor stuff. He scooted backwards yesterday when he was on his tummy yesterday, but he hates tummy time so much.
Anywho... I think these 2 photos show his eyes really well. DH thinks they've changed to their final color, but no. They're currently brown in the middle w/ that newborn blue/grey on the outside. No way his eyes are staying that color. They're definitely going to be lighter brown that the other 2.

 Ciddy bear and Pippin. Cid is getting up there in age. He's such a good pup.
Some tolerance from Pippin with the puppy. He licked him yesterday and today. He's just not used to that much energy coming at him and the puppy has already gotten bigger than him. Easy to do when you only wear 3 or 4lbs.

Gave Oren some rice for brunch..... I think the table liked it too.... sigh.....

Door wide open. Sun is out.... yep.... time to pee in the house! Grrrrrr...

What's that? You want to be productive?

My brain: We're gonna start exercising today! WOO!! Lets do this!!!
My body: Hahahahaha.. You're funny. /hits the break down button

Seriously... BLEH!!!
I was very prepared to start exercising today. Woke up to a mild headache. Not a big deal. Thought my period was on its way out the door. WOO!
NOPE on both accounts. Headache has gotten worse, I'm actually getting medium to heavy flow now w/ my period AND I'm getting cramps too.
WTF body? WTF???

Just took some tylenol. Hoping it helps. Didn't take any earlier b/c the headache had gone away for a little while.
Sigh....

I guess I can take it easy while on my period. Since I don't use tampons.. exercising wearing a pad and getting all sweaty down there is just disgusting and messy.
Still though... I was getting excited b/c I thought this period was coming to an end, but noooooo
2nd wave of suckiness incoming!! And with cramps too just to dig it in.
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And to add to the suck.... Oren stepped in his first pile of poop just a little while ago. He tried to remove it from his feet with his hand and got it all over his hand too.
That was a nasty mess. Came in here whining, waving his hand at me. Just thought he was digging in mud until the smell hit me. /barf
I guess it's a good thing he wasn't happy about it too.

I always say to the kids multiple times... watch out for poop! When they're playing out back lol. Maybe now, they'll listen.

And all that weeding I was planning on doing didn't happen. DH wasn't happy that the pulled up weeds were leaving holes all over the place.
That's what happens when you let the weeds take over.
He wants to put weed killer back there, but that shit never works.
Whatever.... we'll see what happens. He wants nice grass back there too, but I think he's wanting to wait until he gets his shed up to start w/ the grass.
Just waiting for our stupid HOA people to approve the application we sent in.

If you're looking to move.. try to move somewhere without an HOA! It is a GD PITA and it's a bunch of bullshit having to follow all of these rules and not being able to decorate your home the way you want.
Obviously you don't want anyone doing anything ridiculous to their home and property that will devalue the homes around them, but something like putting a shed up shouldn't need to be frickin approved so long as we're not trying to put up a barn sized one.
Hell, our backyard doesn't even back on to this neighborhood.

Oh AND... the HOA members here are lazy AF and don't do their jobs. DH put in the application over a month ago and we still haven't heard back anything.
Also, they pick and choose what to enforce. Like.. you're not supposed to leave your car parks in the road for longer than a night or 2. Yet people do it all the damn time here. They let that shit slide all the time. You're also supposed to keep your lawn at least somewhat nice looking. They're not asking for perfection, just decent.
SO many lawns in this neighborhood are nothing but weeds. It's gross to look at.

Those people are fine to do that crap, but we got a warning b/c our front yard mulch was looking too old and needed to be replaced. Instead of being that rich brown fresh color, it started looking a little grey. IMO not a big deal.
Yeah... we got a warning for that shit.
And nevermind the annual fees due too. I understand why those are needed if you have a neighborhood pool/recreational area, but the dues can get pretty damn ridiculous in some areas.

So yeah... if you're looking to move and want freedom to do whatever the hell you want on your property.... just say no to HOA!
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Well that went on to be a big rant lol...

Ugh.. my brother keeps trying to contact me.
Bitch.. no.
I'm done with him.
First... he doesn't text me unless he wants something. His first text is always a "Hey" That's it.
So I text back "What do you want."
And he tries some bullshit 'joking' "Nothing. Unless you got a lot of money you can give me. LOLOL"
 😒
He is lucky I didn't cuss his ass out b/c UUUUUUUUUUUUUUGH that pissed me off.
After the shit he's done to our mom and he wants to joke about that? FUCK OFF.
So... keeping calm as best I can.. I tell him "Don't ever talk to me about money ever again."
That's when he wants to get all butthurt and act like he wasn't just about to ask us for money (b/c I know he was).
And then a day or 2 later, he texts me again with some bullshit trying to guilt trip me with "Tell Zoe, Oren and Ezra hi for me. But I know you probably won't."
Seriously? You giant piece of monkey shit?? My brother could not care less about my kids. Hell.. he barely cares about his own kids. And he wants to try to fucking guilt trip me with that load of horse crap?
I haven't texted him back since.
He texted me yesterday asking if we could come over to jump start his car or call our mom to do it. I didn't see the text until a few hours later. But no.... Fuck off and deal with your own shit.
Stop fucking lying to our mom and telling her that you or your wife don't have phones just b/c you don't want her calling you to ask you to pay for the money you stole.
Just UGH.... so sick and tired of him and I'm even more pissed off b/c of this period so.. FUCK HIM.

Slow and steady

Food this week isn't going to be the best, but I am going to get physical! May not be exercise exercise, but it will be working my body out.
Like today.. once fam is home from church, I'm gonna go out and attack some weeds in the backyard w/ the rake. Some of those suckers are really in there and take a good bit of muscling to get out too.
I'm sure I'll have some sore arms tomorrow.
I cleared out my gardens yesterday too. Well... I did half and DH kind of took over.
Easier than I thought it would be.
AND there was a garden snake in one of them. About 2ft long. Just a small thing and a little weird lizard thing that I thought was a baby snake in the other one.
Super cool :D
DH is going to head to Home Depot later to pick up some more soil for the gardens and I'm hoping that later on this week, I'll be able to start transferring. I think most of the plants that I started inside aren't going to make it though.
They didn't get enough light inside so they're "leggy" and the tray they're in is too small.
I'm gonna try my best to get them started right.
They need to harden off more though.
It's finally spring weather so I can leave them out there... just not for too long or the sun will burn them.
Anywho... I'll also be planting seeds directly in to the ground too.
Just going to have to figure out a way to keep Oren from digging in the garden areas. I anticipate losing a few plants to him lol.
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The spotting turned in to AF. Thank goodness it wasn't some long drawn out thing like the last one. Surprised I got it again so soon, but hey... maybe I'll actually have a normal cycle now? Wouldn't that be some shit.
When I was trying for babies.. it was irregular and few and far between. Now that I'm done... yep... lets get regular! lol
Damn body....
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Puppers is doing well. Still pooping and peeing in the house, but about 50% of the time it's on a puppy pad. Trying to train him, but it's difficult and tiring having to rush him out every time he gets up. lol
It's hard to tell if he's going to go or if he's just sniffing around for food scraps from the kids.
He's still a good pup. He's already grown a bit. Still don't think he'll get over 40lbs. Only time will tell :D
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I think next week, we're going to try to drive around to the different dojos. Need to look them up to see when they're actually open. Save some gas if they're not even open lol.
Thankfully there are a few that aren't too far from us.
DH really wants them in a martial arts. I'd be happier with that since I want them to have some self defense skills, but gymnastics would be fine with me too.
I think DH just wants to see what's going to be cheapest.
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Alrighty.. that's all for now! Will try to get some random photos b/c... who doesn't like some random ass mundane photos? ;)

Holy crap... Really? I've gotten this fat??

At my heaviest.. I was 250lbs. That was.... 8? years ago. Maybe a little less.
Well... 3 kids later and about 30? 20? lol.. lbs less than that and I am too fat to wear my fat sizes!
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
Decided I wanted to wear something other than  comfortable stretchy shorts out so I went digging for some capris. I know I'm not getting in to anything below an 18. Thankfully I still have a few 18's. Welp... apparently I'm too fat now to wear most of those now. Pregnancy and just the way my body has held on to the fat has given my a bigger pooch and now my once, too big pants are too tight.
I can't even button some of them.
Finally found a pair that's still tight, but not too much.

Well this frickin sucks. A nice wake up call though that I NEED to change some things or else I'll be taking my cheap ass to a store to buy bigger sizes which I do NOT want to do.
Sigh....

While the stretch stuff that I bought while pregnant is comfortable and I have no shame in wearing them.... I don't want to wear those for forever.
Time to get more serious about this. I've already let 3 months slip by.

Also.. spotting more today. It's all old looking stuff though so /shrugs. No idea what's going on.
Good ole weird broken body....