Torturers.. that's what they are!

UGH... today's teeth cleaning was a WHOLE LOT WORSE than before.
It was a different woman doing it and boy.. she was not gentle or careful with the cleaning. She actually did scrape off some gums in spots (that got stuck in between my teeth... gross), and just was not gentle.
My frickin gums hurt :(

Also had the oral surgeon consult today. THought they would take the tooth out but no... just a consult.. duh.
Talked to the doctor for literally 5 minutes... and then got charged $95 for it. And people wonder why folks have fucked up teeth. It's b/c no one can frickin afford this shit!!!
Anyway... scheduled the tooth extraction for next Thrusday morning and that's going to be another $250 which isn't too bad I guess. At least something is actually going to be done then.
Also was told that I'd of course have to wait until after having the baby to get my 2 wisdom teeth taken out and to start the procedure to get the fake tooth stuff started. He said they have to drill in to the jaw, then put in some kind of titanium thing and let that heal for 3 months, blahblahblah.
I'd also have to wait until after BFing/Pumping to do all of this b/c of the meds. I'm not too worried about it though. My wisdom teeth rarely bother me.. it's usually when food gets stuck under the flap of gums that is covering the left one and it causes the gums to get irritated.
AND I'm gonna be getting fillings for all of my glorious cavities in 2 weeks I think. Sigh.....
I'm going to be the reason my children take darn good care of their teeth. Don't be like mommy and put it off! Don't be like mommy and be lazy with taking care of your teeth!
I mean it could be worse... which I'm thankful that it's not.
Thankfully Zoe actually likes brushing her teeth though so yay for that :)
Just need to start brushing Oren's teeth.

Speaking of his teeth... not just my imagination, but I think his upper teeth are already looking better since we took away the pacifier.
They were really in that thumb sucker shape before.. and still is now, but not quite as bad.
If you're wondering what that looks like.. just google thumb sucker teeth lol.
His weren't quite as drastic as a lot of the photos, but if we had allowed him to keep the pacifier, I'm sure they would've been.
Really hoping his teeth keep straightening up some more.

This is going to make me sound awful, but my kids teeth will NOT end up like their cousins.
Both girls one is 12 the other is 10 this year... already ruined their permanent teeth b/c their parents don't ever make them brush. AND b/c my brother is a moron and can't hold down a decent job when he gets one... never holds on to good dental insurance.
They had to get shiny SILVER crowns on a few of their front teeth. Plus the 10yo has a front tooth that has grown in sideways. Poor child already has body image issues.. now tack that on :(
Just... UGH. I'm angry for them b/c they're still so damn young and already have permanent problems with their teeth that will probably only get worse.
Both my brother and his wife don't take care of their teeth either. Well, my SiL took advantage of the dental insurance they used to have and did go, but since he lost that job, she hasn't been back since and her teeth are fucked. Multiple ones have broken and just look awful. And my brother... don't even get me started on his teeth. He used to have naturally beautiful straight teeth. The kind of teeth everyone wishes they had.... and then his lazy ass never brushed them either. Add in smoking and all that mess and his teeth have rotted out of his head. They have meth mouth minus the meth.

So yeah.... this was my wakeup call.... I didn't take care of my teeth like I should have, but at least I had enough sense to brush my teeth and get Zoe in to the habit of doing it too. I will not let bad teeth be a reason for self esteem issues in my kids.
I know that probably sounds terrible, but people get picked on for everything.. I don't want my kids to be easy targets for something that can be prevented/helped.
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Oren is going through some tantruming hell right now.
Holy crap...... when he's not happy... you'll know it! The boy has a good set of lungs on him and he is not afraid to use them!
He would not calm down starting at around 6, so I finally just had enough of it and put him to bed. He cried for all of a minute and went right to sleep. He refuses to take a 2nd nap now, but my goodness, does he still need it most days.

Thankfully though, he has been STTN!!! WOOOOOOO!
Every once in a while he'll wake up crying for some reason, or I'll hear him fussing just a little over the monitor, but I'll take it over his twice a night wakes. Now that he doesn't have the pacifier, I just let him whine or whatever b/c I know going in to his room will just escalate things.
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I dunno what got in to Zoe's head yesterday, but the girl bit my leg! HARD!
It was only just a pinch of skin, but we all know how painful a frickin pinch can be, now add in teeth to the mix.

Oren also bit me the other day too. He was wanting to be picked up and I didn't do it fast enough I guess and he bit the crap out of my arm. I popped his hand and told him no. Of course my loud sudden OUCH and the pop and NO startled him and made him cry. Yeah.. not sorry that time. He is not going to end up a biter damnit!! If he ends up biting when he's older... boy is going to get his cute little butt bitten back. Momma don't play that mess.
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And there was something else, but I let my venting/ranting take over lol...

OH! I've been feeling baby move a lot more :D Can't remember if I mentioned this. It's like a switch was turned on since my appointment and baby just suddenly decided to make themselves known more lol. It's still not a lot of movement, but it's definitely baby :)

Well that was a nice dream

So last night, I had the most pleasant dream about Chris Pratt. Him and Paul Rudd are totally my celebrity crushes lol. They just both seem like such great people IRL and funny too.
Anywho... no... it wasn't a sexual dream.. although that would've been nice too :P lol
I dreamt that he was filming a movie locally so I convinced DH to go to the area in hopes of spotting him. And we did! So I shyly go up all star struck and ask if I can take a picture with him.
We get a group photo with him and then I get some pics with him alone. The camera on the phone was going so slow, but that was ok b/c he was totally cool in the dream and even joked around and put my hand on his butt.

Sigh... it was a nice dream lol. Totally fangirling over it :D
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Oren is still not happy about no paci for sleep. He's not crying for as long, but MAN is it some angry crying. Poor boy, but he's gotta learn to live without it.

OH! And his first official word is..... Yogurt. ROFL
Seriously.... I was feeding it to him last week and kept telling him it was yogurt and all of a sudden he repeated it back to me.
Of course it comes out more like "Yo-geh!" It's so stinking cute :D I'll try to get video of it one day.
I'm pretty sure he does say words.. or at least.. his own version of words :P lol
He'll sometimes say Dada. Only seems like he says that when looking for daddy and he'll say it in a questioning way wondering where he is. Dada? DADA?? heh

He's good though... other than his constantly runny nose. Pretty sure it's just the pollen, but sucks that he is being affected by it. It could be worse though.
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So come to find out that the Tresemme Naturals conditioner was discontinued. It figures :\
BUT they have 2 other conditioners that are silicone free that I'm trying. One smells like coconuts which I hate, but can live with and the other seems to be more for wavy/curly hair. Not sure how that will be with my hair and hope there's no funky buildup.
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Gotta go back to the dentist tomorrow. Joy :\ Actually have to go back to the regular dentist, then to a surgeon to hopefully get the broken tooth removed and talk about getting a replacement. UGH the replacement is going to be so darn expensive. DOn't even want to think about how much it's going to cost.
Dental work just costs too damn much!!!

I've abandoned flossing a few areas of my mouth... like between my 2 front upper teeth. They must have cut something while scraping under the gums b/c it hurts... HURTS like hell when I floss in that area. I mean hurts to the point of instant cussing and doubling over. It doesn't bother me any other time though thankfully.

And the gums in the back are still pretty achy after flossing and ache for a little while afterward. Frickin flossing.... flossing sucks.

Photos as promised a bazillion times lol

Man... it's like I think that I took a lot of photos but really didn't. Oh well.. here are some anyway :D

This one was actually just a few minutes ago. He got in to some uneaten grits that Zoe didn't finish and thought smearing them all over the table and himself while eating it was a good idea lol.

And the peach tree out back. It has the prettiest blossoms on it! The picture really doesn't do it justice. It's so pretty and pink. If you're looking for a pretty, fast growing flowering tree with a bonus of possibly producing some fruit.. get a peach tree!

Yay little baby! :D

SO my 20w appointment was yesterday and it went really well :D
Didn't have a peek at the bits. She didn't even go near that area when she was looking at everything lol. OH well.
Before I go further... pic!

Actually got a really good profile shot for once! YAY!
Just so amazing what you can see on the u/s. Baby seemed to be sleeping. He/she would move a little, but not much.
BPM was 148, but she couldn't get a good visual on the heart so I'll be getting another u/s before I take the glucose test at my next appointment. Hey... another chance to see baby? Yes please!
But other than that, she said everything looked great and baby was measuring a little ahead and already weighed about 1lb :D
It was so cool when she was trying to look at the nose/mouth. Just so cool how clear that image was and baby was moving its mouth so awwwwwww.

Oh... my weight did jump up 6lbs!!! YIKES lol. Not that surprising considering my increased appetite, but still.... YIKES lol. Need to put down the carbs and pick up some damn veggies instead rofl.
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Zoe fell off our bed this morning. Lol.. I mean... awwww :P
She woke up, but I wasn't ready to get up so brought her to bed with me. She usually doesn't move too much if she falls asleep, but I guess she did this time b/c all of a sudden, I hear a THUMP and then her crying rofl. Our bed is pretty high, but she was fine, just startled.

Oren has also figured out how to go up the pet steps that go up to the bed. Went in to our room yesterday and saw him happy as can be up on our bed going after the cat lol. He was so happy and proud of himself lol. Stopped my heart for a moment though :P
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Apparently DH promised Zoe that we'd go to the zoo next Monday lol. He took her to the DMV and Home Depot and for some reason she thought they were going to the zoo and started talking about all the animals she was going to see. Awwww. Guess he felt guilty so told her we would go :P
That's cool with me though. Hopefully it will be a nice day and not too busy.

We did want to take her to Frozen on Ice. Yeah... don't frickin think so after seeing the prices of good seats!! It would cost us over $200 for the 3 of us to sit in a decent row. What the F ever. We are not paying that much on that mess. Not unless it comes with a giant bag of goodies for everyone... yeah right. That is just ridiculous.
Zoe would love it, but we'll wait until she actually asks to go to MAYBE go.
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And finally... DH bought some wood and the door to the room yesterday. He said we're probably going to be spending about 200-500 more on the room. I don't think that's too bad. It's converting an unused space in to another room which will add a lot of value to the house IMO. Not that we'll be moving anytime soon :P lol
But come on... who the heck uses a formal living room for that purpose anymore??
Heck, before we put in exercise equipment in to the room, it was getting used for storage.
It's the 'adult' space in all of those HGTV shows that always look so pretty and everyone says they want, but probably never end up using... or well.. it's used after they plop a nice big TV in to the room lol.

Also cleaned out my closet and took down the racks. Have a lot of stuff to go through, but still don't think there was that much in there. Just a lot of craft items which takes up a ton of room. Need more of those plastic storage drawers to help organize it all once he sections the closet off. I liked my closet... nice big walk in that most folks would love to have, but I really didn't need ALL of that room.
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Oh and I promise to post photos hopefully later today. Just being lazy and not entirely sure where the camera is atm lol.

Just sittin here

Yesterday was nice. Hanging out with family and eating good food. Well... we had steak and my steak had bone shards in parts of it. :\
Always so nice to bite in to a bit of bone.

But other than that.. and being trapped in a room by my 12yo niece that is a total Japanophile..... it was good lol.

It rained yesterday all day long so we hid eggs in the living room area for Zoe to find. They came home from church, ate some, put Oren to bed for a nap and locked Zoe in her room while we hid. DH hid most of them.

Zoe had a blast though. After every single egg (seriously... every single one), she'd say "I found one!" lol It was so cute and she had so much fun :)
I thought we spoiled her with what we bought, but we actually didn't get a lot once it was all said and done.
Not that there's anything wrong with spoiling your kids though if that's what you wanna do. Hate it when people make a huge deal about what other people buy their kids. Ok, sure, some of it is over the top but, not your money.. not your kids. If they want to buy their 9mo an ipad for some reason.. go for it. If they want to buy them a kiddie pool full of stuff for Easter, have at it!

Anywho....

MiL is determined to know what this baby is lol. She wants us to get the tech to write the gender down in an envelope and give it to her :P lol Not gonna happen, but still funny heh.
These first 20w went by pretty fast.... the next 19w will go by just as quick I'm sure :) It's a relatively short amount of time so everyone can wait /nodnod

Gotta wait until 3 this afternoon until my appointment. BLEH! Gonna be a long wait.
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And finally..... crap... I can't remember what it was..... there definitely was something else I was going to mention but it just totally left my brain. Well poop...........

Happy Sunday/Easter!!

Hope everyone is having a great Sunday. Sitting at home like the heathen I am and damn happy to have some peace for a couple of hours lol.

Sorry religions... you're just not for me, but all the candy and stuff is fun :P

We did take Zoe to the Easter egg hunt at their church. It was a bit chaotic, but they did a good job making sure everyone got equal amounts of everything. They did this little religious scavenger hunt thing and had a basket of eggs at each spot that the kids would take 1 egg out of. So all the kids got 8 eggs each and then traded them in for candy and goodies.
Much much much much better than just hiding them and the older kids hogging everything.
It was a lot of work getting the kids to quiet down though... and a lot of walking around everywhere to find all the baskets lol.

I did get to meet one of Zoe's little friends that she plays with at her Wednesday night thing at the church. An adorable little 2yo girl that is being raised by her grandmother. Grandmother decided to share that her daughter is a drug addict and the father is in jail. Yikes. At least that girl has a wonderful granny to take care of her though.
She told DH that the girl used to be super shy but since bringing her to the Wed night thing and since Zoe befriended her, she's opened up quite a bit. Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

Just really happy that Zoe has a friend and is possibly helping the little girl come out of her shell. Really hope they grow up and stay friends :)
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It's a bit wet outside so don't think we'll be hiding the eggs outside. We dyed some boiled eggs last night. I definitely over boiled them b/c holy hell does the fridge smell like a giant fart!! Every time you open the fridge, it smells like someone stuff their asshole right on your nose and farted. It's SO dang gross.
Didn't think I had overcooked them, but guess I did /barf

Oh well... there are a bunch of plastic eggs for Zoe to find :)
I just need to clean up a little bit before they get home.
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So on Friday.. we decided to take Oren's pacifiers away. Don't think I've mentioned that yet. DH and I started talking about the way his teeth are coming in and just decided that we should take them away cold turkey now before more damage is done.
Oren definitely has that thumb sucker look to his teeth and we're hoping that taking the paci's away now will help his teeth come in a bit straighter. If not.. it's not a huge deal or anything, just means he'll need braces which will suck for him and our wallet lol.
That first night sucked and naps have been sucking too.

 Day 2 of no paci was rough. He cried for about 20 minutes before finally falling asleep.
Put him down for the night and miraculously he only whined for a few seconds and went to sleep. WOO! Victory!!!! Or so we thought.
He started fussing at around 11. I got up and checked on him to make sure he was covered. Yeah... that was the wrong thing to do b/c he woke up and was NOT happy that he had no paci.
He cried for 24mins straight. That was torture.
I literally got a headache and felt nauseous b/c of his crying. It was making me sick.... almost to the point of needing to throw up. UGH it was awful and I felt so bad :( Knew that if I went and checked on him though, it would only make matters worse and drag it out more.

He is SO stubborn and we (I) didn't really prepare him for less/no paci so this is going to be a tough time with a not so happy baby boy.
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Speaking of baby boy.... he had himself a nice big poosplosion on Friday!!
I picked him up and we all were having such a nice giggly family moment. He was on one side of my lap, Zoe was on the other. I was tickling them and giving them kisses. Just a really sweet moment.
Then I smelled poop. Ok.. so he pooped his diaper. No big deal.
I shift my hand a little about to get up to change him... and oh no... it was a big deal. I shifted my hand right in to the poop that was going up his back. Knew exactly what it was the instant my hand touched it.
Cue the freakout!!!
I was trying so hard not to smear it more on him and on myself. Finally just had to say screw it and had to put my hand directly on to it to keep him from slipping.
Oh.. and there was definitely a nice biggish spot of poop on the chair where he had been leaning. Thank goodness for leather chairs b/c it was easy to wash off.
Got Zoe to grab a towel that was thankfully right on the floor and off we went to his room so I could clean him up for a bath.
Taking a poo covered shirt off a big headed baby..... not something I particularly want to do again. I tried my best not to get more poop on him, but it was impossible. It smeared the rest of the way up his back and on to his arms /vomit
THEN!! As I was cleaning him up with his diaper under him... baby boy decided that then would be a good time to start grabbing for his diaper and promptly stuck his hand right in to poo and rub it on himself.
He was covered from thigh to head in poo....... SO MUCH POO.
My first instinct was to swat his hand away which I did (Not soon enough) and of course he didn't like that so started crying.
Zoe lectured me and told me not to spank her brother lol, awww. I did feel bad for doing it, but it was just a quick light tap on his hand to get him to let go of the diaper.
I cleaned up as much as possible, plopped his naked butt on the floor and cleaned up all the other poo messes while the tub filled.
Just..... ew.... ew ew ew ew ew.
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And yesterday, we started payments on the crib and dresser. We went with the modern looking one we were eyeballing before (I'll find some photos of it later). But this time, they had gotten more colors in so yay for more options :D lol
You can get the crib all in one color, but there's an option to make it 2 different ones and that's what we did.
We got the main parts of the crib in a darkish wood tone. Since it's a convertible crib, we wanted the wood tone for when the baby grows up and it's switched to a regular bed. The headboard and footboard will be 'normal' colors. It will be more neutral and not so funky.
And the side parts in this pretty olive green color :D
But for the dresser, we did the main part in the green and the drawers in the wood tone.
And part of the sale they were having, we got a free changing table tray and got that in wood tone too.
OH and also got a toddler rail for free and got it in wood tone too. :)
It was..... so expensive. SO SO expensive and we had to put 30% down on it which was a huge chunk of change. But at least we'll have 3 months to pay on it and it takes about 12 weeks to actually get the pieces in. I guess they make them to order?
That's not a big deal though since baby will be rooming with us to begin with anyway. So even if there is a delay and it comes after... meh.

Now just to figure out the colors for the room. Originally wanted maybe a light green color since DH still wants to do a bamboo/panda theme, but with the crib being partially green... I'm not sure that would look good.
We'll see. Plenty of time to think of all that since nothing is going to be painted until the room is actually complete anyway.
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With that big purchase, the room, all the backyard stuff..... we're going to go through all of our savings. I mean, that's what it's there for but still... ouch!
DH said to wave byebye to Disney lol.
Disney isn't going to happen for at least another 4 years so I'm not worried about saving up for it.  Plus I know he wants to wait for all the other kids to be old enough to enjoy it too, so realistically, I think Disney may not happen until 5years from now. New niece and this baby will be 4 and 5, all the other kids will definitely be old enough to enjoy it and hopefully will give everyone a chance to save up enough money to make it one giant family fun vacation :D
We just need to tell everyone so they can start saving or planning for it or something.
I'm still determined and want to stay in a hotel in one of the parks. DH wants to stay in one at the Animal Kingdom. Think the balconies face in to their wilderness areas where you can see the animals? Or at least that's what some of the photos looked like. If so.. that would be really cool :D
But yeah.. that's just a ton of money we'll have to save for that experience.

We're definitely going to have to pinch pennies now though. Reduce our spending a good bit.
Family of 5 (holy crap that's happening) and a new car payment... we're not gonna be able to spend money like we have been. Not that we spend money all care free, but we do sometimes get things we don't need. Just have to step back and think "Do we really need this or need it right now?"
It shouldn't be too hard though. Like I said.. we've reduced our spending a lot from what we used to spend before so taking it down another notch or 2 shouldn't be a big deal.
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Anywho.... enough of all that. Really need to gets to cleaning while I'm thinking about it :) Will take and post pictures hopefully some time this week. lol
Probably not tomorrow.... DH is off and I have my appointment. So yeah... photos of baby and my other 2 babies will all get posted at once :D Really hope we get some good shots tomorrow!!!
SQUEEEEEE I can't wait to see my new LO!!!

Hope today is better

Man.... everything the kids did yesterday that was even slightly annoying got on my last dang nerve. I was not the best mom yesterday and just hoping that my attitude today is better. Or at least, I'm going to try to be better.
Do not like being so snippy with my kiddos when they're really not doing anything that bad. Makes me feel so guilty.
Oh mom guilt..... you dirty bitch.
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Need to boil some eggs. After the church egg hunt tomorrow and then nursery furniture shopping, we plan on dying some eggs for Sunday :) OH yeah.. we also have to grocery shop tomorrow too. Bleh.
It's gonna be a full day but hopefully relaxing and fun once we get home to dye some eggs :)
Not really sure how many to dye... maybe 2 dozen. Not sure if family wants to do anything special on Sunday. Should be seeing them tonight so will ask then.

I really want to make Prime Rib for everyone. The meat is just so darn expensive though. BUT with 2 failed attempts by aunt and DH's uncle... I want to try it myself.
I knew both were doing it wrong without actually knowing how to make it myself lol. But logic and even a tiny amount of cooking knowledge would tell you that cooking a big hunk of meat low and slow is going to equal pot roast and that's exactly what we got both times.
You would think in this day and age that they would've bothered to look up the directions online somewhere. Especially since the cut of meat is so damn expensive.
It took me all of 30 seconds to find instructions and every one that I've come across is the same exact as the last one.
Bring meat to room temp. Add seasoning to the outside.
Cook it in a 500 degree oven for 5min per pound (for medium rare doneness). Once that time is done... turn the oven off and leave in the oven for 2 hours. TADA! Nice and easy.

Doubt I'll be making it though... like I keep saying.. the cut of meat is SO dang expensive and not sure we'll want to spend that after having to put 30% down on the furniture. lol OH well... maybe one day :)
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Still not feeling consistent or very strong movement. I feel it more now when I'm sitting in the living room but usually only if the baby hits my bladder or in that general area. Haven't felt much of anything when laying down to sleep. Will rarely feel it if I wake in the night and I'm trying to get back to sleep.
Kind of sucks but also meh.. not that much. Just figured that with a 3rd.. I'd be feeling movement super early and would be able to recognize it etc, but nope... not the case at all lol. Oh well... I'll be feeling those strong kicks and movements soon enough on a regular basis and wishing baby would stop using my bladder as a punching bag lol.

So excited for Monday! Can not wait to see baby again. Feels like it has been forever. Just want to make sure everything is ok. Again... 3rd time around.. figured I wouldn't be so paranoid, but feels like I'm more paranoid now than I was before.
Plus... I am feeling a little disconnected this time around too and think seeing our baby again will really help the bonding.
I'm not afraid that I'll have trouble bonding once baby is here or anything, just right now... it's just hard to get that connection when you have 2 other kids to look after. Hope that doesn't make me sound like a horrible person.
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We told everyone our name choices. Not sure why but aunt keeps calling the baby by one of the girl middle names (Felicity). Ok.... baby could be a girl, but that would be the middle name.. not the first name. She did that shit with Oren too. She didn't like his name so was going to call him something else /majoreyeroll....
She can suck it up like everyone else. We're going to name this baby what we want and they can go suck an egg if they don't like it.
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Washed and dried the shorts and capri that I bought from Walmart. Looks more like something you wear around the house, but I don't care. I'm gonna wear them out and be comfortable! My big pregnant ass does not care what anyone thinks lol. Oh and they are oh so comfortable /love.
I do wish I could have found some more flowy light skirts too, but oh well...get what you can get :)

I'll have to do a bump shot soon. I'm 20w today and showing like I'm about 6 or 7m along lol. I feel HUGE this time. Most of the time it's from bloat b/c all I want to do is eat eat eat.
Even when I'm full and have bad heartburn (ooo maybe that means baby will have a lot of hair).... I still want to eat! So all of that eating is causing some major bloat. But hey... at least it actually looks like I'm pregnant now instead of just fat so yay :D