Driving me crazy!!!

Holy crap... I can not eat in peace if Oren is awake. The child is worse than a dog with his begging b/c he'll start throwing his little baby tantrum and grabbing at my food.
I've been eating a lot of spicy food lately and I can't feed him most of it so I try to have some kind of baby friendly option nearby, but he's starting to figure it out lol.
It's SO flipping annoying though. I want to eat in peace!

And holy crap do I want to eat and eat everything!! I want savory and spicy most of the time. Pretty sure I've gained a few pounds already. I'm the heaviest I've been in a long time and that sucks.
We're going back strict again when DH goes back to work. That's fine with me w/ my cravings right now.

Still can't believe my first appointment is still 2 weeks away. TWO! Geeze. I think they underestimated how far along I am. We'll see though. Just hope everything is ok.

Lets see... I'm still tired, morning sickness hasn't been too bad. Still just gagging and some nausea. My face is breaking out a bit more. My appetite has increased a considerable amount. I think that's about it. Nothing much going on really.
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Ok this may make me sound terrible, but ..... even though I wanted another.... now that I'm unexpectedly pregnant with the 3rd... I'm not very excited about it.
Ok so there is some excitement...and of course I'm gonna love this baby as much as Zoe & Oren, but the thought of having another..... just kinda makes me more tired lol. I guess that fantasy we all have when we're first pregnant has finally worn off for me. I know what having another is gonna be like.... and with all 3 kids so young....... just.... ugh lol. I'm tired just thinking about it.
Don't get me wrong though, I want this baby.
We've been talking about names and I think we've 90% settled on Ezra if it's a boy. Girl name is still up in the air. I do like Penelope still, but it's too long. We both agreed that the name should be shorter since we have a longish last name.
I looked up some short names and saw Paige and mentioned it to DH and he kinda liked it. I like it too. I also liked Joy, but he wasn't too fond of it. Oh well.
Still a long time before we have to make a decision so it's not like there's a rush.
I'm gonna have to wear some seriously baggy clothes though b/c my stomach has already grown. Mostly b/c of everything I'm shoveling in my mouth though, but it's definitely bigger than before. Need to hide this until DH is ready to share the news.

I think we both want a minivan. At least I do. We just don't want another car payment since we got that one from my mom recently. I keep mentioning trade in to DH but we both don't know how all of that works. Will have to look in to it.
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Zoe is also driving me crazy with her little attitude. She's now getting in to lying. Yeah.....
I dunno if it's true lying or just her imagination type of thing, but it's really annoying.
Plus her talking back has gotten so much worse now. There are going to be a lot of pops to her little behind in her future.

And we're pretty sure Oren is going to be a hitter and a biter when he gets bigger too. He already does both things, but of course doesn't understand yet. That's gonna be fun to deal with.... NOT.

Anyway... I've forgotten what else I wanted to mention.
As soon as I mentioned being tired up above.... Ive been quickly getting more and more tired lol.

Merry Day after Christmas!

Hope everyone had a great holiday :)

Zoe of course made out like a bandit. Just so... much..... stuff.
This 3rd child is going to get nothing but 2nd hand stuff. There's just not going to be any need to buy anything ever until they're much older and actually need their own stuff. Hey whatever... that's the life they'll know so they'll be ok with it :D

Oren got a couple of things. Not a lot. Really wasn't expecting much since he's just a baby.
DH went to Target Christmas Eve to spend the money my mom gave us to get the kids something. DH bought Oren some clothes and some trucks and stuff that Zoe likes playing with lol. Oren is just happy to play with all of Zoe's stuff. He follows her around everywhere. She's getting a bit more annoyed by him, but meh.. kinda figured it would happen heh.

It was a good Christmas though :) Spending the day at MiL's and just hanging out and talking with everyone.
I did experience some morning sickness though... like ALL day. At first I'm sure it started b/c I hadn't eaten, but I got nauseated after eating too. Had to hide or make excuses until the feeling passed.

Did get to see the 4D ultrasound photos that SiL got. She got some really cute face ones too. :D That baby is gonna be here in about a month, then they're gonna have to move just a couple weeks later. Yikes.
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Getting distracted... oh small rant...
DH surprised me with a women's star wars shirt he saw on clearance when he went to Target. So sweet.... but the thing is.. the frickin shirt is SO damned thin. Like WTF is up with clothing companies thinking women want to have sheer shirts to show off their bras, OR want deep necklines to show off cleavage. Just... so GD frustrating. I just want a GD nerdy women's sized t-shirt. Is that too much to frickin ask? I don't want tiny sleeves. I don't want super thin fabric that shows everyone what color my bra is. I don't want the neckline deep to show off my boobs. Oh and please make the shirts longer than my waistline.

Before I forget!

Merry Christmas Eve everyone!! I hope everyone has a great Christmas or whatever holiday you celebrate (or don't). Just hope everyone is doing well and being surrounded by love.

Before I forget again, here are some Christmas photos that I've been forgetting to post :)


Zoe posing with the Christmas tree. And then Oren not being so happy that I put him down to get a picture. Lol There are presents under it now and Zoe has been really good at not messing with them :D

The present DH made for Zoe's birthday last year that I've been meaning to post for a while. I want it to look a bit more kitcheny on the inside, but it's still pretty cool. The 'fridge' part was even painted using magnetic paint. Who knew that that was even a thing? It's not strong though so weak magnets don't stick to it very well.

 One half of the outside decorations. Other side has inflatable Santa a little reindeer and erm...... yeah.. some other stuff o_o...... I like the tinsel? decorations but such a pain trying to find room to store them... so think we'll be sticking to inflatables.... unless there is the other kind that I just can't resist lol.

And finally Santa pics. Zoe was so excited to see Santa, but she kind of shut down once she saw all the people looking at her lol. And Oren didn't know what to make of Santa. He did end up grabbing his beard at one point. Guess he wanted to make sure it was the REAL Santa and not an imposter ;)

Mmm... homemade donuts

Yeah, we're not bothering being good with diet for now. Waiting until probably the new year before we start eating healthy again.
But mmmmm fresh made donuts at home. YUM! Really easy recipe too..

https://youtu.be/lLy9ojZZFOw

I did half the batch in the sugar/cin mixture and then the other in powdered sugar. I like the powdered sugar better. Just not a fan of that sugar crystal crunch... bleh.
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Oren is getting sick again. SIGH! It would be nice if we could stop getting eachother sick.
At least I think I got him sick again. It could've been his cousin when MiL watched him while we went to the movie. She did have a cold and I'm sure she got all up in his face like she normally does.

It could've been me though too. I've been trying not to give him kisses on his face, but I did forget a couple of times.
Oh well...hopefully it doesn't end up being a bad cold and he gets over it quick.
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Speaking of cold.. or lack there of...
It's supposed to get up to frickin 80 on Christmas Eve and Christmas! WTF?
I know some people would love that, but no...not this girl. I want the cold weather back dangit! Plus it's been raining and it's going to be cloudy so it's not only going to be warm, but super humid too. BLEH!
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Still coughing up a lung here. So gross and annoying. Just that wall of mucus that doesn't want to budge keeps irritating my throat. I haven't thrown up, but I have kind of gagged up a little mucus. Nope... doesn't come from the wall, it's just other stuff that is being forced out. :\
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Actually kind of worried that I don't have any symptoms yet. That nausea and gagging before must've been just from the cold/coughing b/c I haven't really had it since then. Well no, that's not true. I do sometimes get nauseous if I haven't eaten anything in a while, but that's been it really other than the coughing stuff.
I know I shouldn't worry. I think it took a while to get symptoms with my other 2. Plenty of time to get morning sickness and whatnot.

OH... I have been exhausted. Going to bed earlier and getting to sleep much much faster than I normally do. That's actually been pretty nice to actually get a good deep sleep in and falling asleep faster.
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Anywho... time to get the Zoenator to bed :)

No more coughing please!

Ok, this cough needs to go away already. I have that wall of mucus stuck in the back of my throat that is making me constantly cough and gag. I'm coughing so much that I'm constantly peeing myself and my chest, abs, sides are aching b/c of the coughing.
I better not get Oren sick again with this. Poor guy took forever to get over this cold.
Zoe is almost over hers though thankfully.
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Ok... something is seriously wrong with my nephew. He's 2yo and just.... super anti-social. Like seriously anti-social to the point of freaking the F out around people he doesn't know.
I mostly blame it on his parents b/c they never take their kids anywhere. Never expose him to anyone else ya know. I love my SiL and she's so sweet, but I dunno WTF her problem is with not getting her license. If she would just go get it, she could take her kids places and not be so reliant on my lazy ass brother. She knows how to drive... she's a good driver, but for some damn reason, she won't get her license. It's frickin frustrating.
Anyway....

So I went over to my mom's this afternoon. She's not planning on being here this Christmas and wanted to give us money to get the kids something for her.
So I'm over there with Zoe and Oren and my brother shows up with his boy. I open the door and the kid instantly starts freaking out. My brother pushes him in and he starts SCREAMING and banging his head against the door.
My brother kind of pushes him in more but the boy is still just totally having a meltdown and again.. full on starts to run and bang head first in to the door. Not lightly, but full force with his head. WTF?
That shit can't be normal can it?
I could see if he did it by accident, but he was doing it on purpose and HARD. If my brother hadn't stopped him, I have no doubt that he would've knocked himself out. That's how hard he was hitting his head on the door.
I dunno... just something is not right here. Obviously he needs to be socialized a lot more but the tantrum he pulled today was extremely worrying.
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On a lighter note... have most of the presents wrapped :D DH just needs to wrap the bigger ones b/c I don't want to and we're good to go lol.
We're leaving a few of Zoe's unwrapped that we'll just bring out on Christmas.
So excited for her. Really hope she likes what she gets :)
This will be the first year where she's really understood what is going on and is excited. Shopping for kids on Christmas is so much dang fun!!!
You get to experience that wonder and excitement again through them. It's awesome!
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We got to see Star Wars on Friday morning! YAY! Dropped Oren off with MiL and DH, Zoe and myself went to the 9am showing :D Lots of people there in their Star Wars shirts (us included).
It was a great fun movie. It kept Zoe's attention for about half of it lol. She was good overall though. Kept quiet even when she got bored lol.
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I think that's been it so far.
Oh I told my mom the news. I had to. I was dying to tell someone else. Heck, I would tell everyone, but DH wants to wait :\
I would say we could tell his mom, but his mom really loves to gossip and can't keep a secret to save her life lol.
I think DH wants to wait until Oren's birthday to share the news... pretty much exactly how I was thinking we could... (having him in a Big Brother shirt).
Man..... Can't believe Oren is going to be 1 in just a few months.
Time sure does fly by.

Results of 3rd beta

Just got a call back for the beta and result was 6800. It was 6800smething but the phone kind of cut out for a sec while she was saying it.
So... YAY :)
She transferred me to setup my appointment but no one answered so left a message. Will probably call back in just a second though.

*hours later*

Aw crap. I thought I had posted this and I didn't. Crapola... Sorry everyone for making you wait!

I ended up calling not too long after I thought I had posted and my first appointment is Jan 12th at 1:30 :)
I think by then I'm going to be past the gummy bear stage and in to tiny baby one lol. Gummy bear stage is so darn cute too ;) hehe

FX everything remains to be just fine!

Oh yeah.... I live in the south. That explains a lot

It's early, haven't gotten results back yet but I'll post again when I do.

Lets talk for a moment about how fucking racist people are though. Holy shitballs.
My state got 2... TWO refugees and people are losing their GD racist shit over that.
Seriously people???
And of course these racist assholes spouting off their fear and hate.. their go to argument when confronted about their racist comments is usually... "Well give them your address and let them move in with you then."
Seriously...... that is their best argument?? Bitch.. I'm not giving anyone my address other than Amazon.

Anyway... I'm sure it's the same everywhere, but it just makes my blood boil seeing so much fear and hate towards a group of people. Just... is this 2015??
These people are on FB so I can assume that they look at the news and from what I see...all of the crimes committed in this state so far are from Americans so.... yeah. Should be just go ahead and assume ALL Americans are murderers, thieves, rapists, etc? No?

Oh so not all white people are KKK racists that like hanging black folk? Not all black folk riot and are gang members? Not all Mexicans are drug dealers? Oh saying they are is racist and ignorant?
But it's ok to say Muslims and Syrian refugees are all terrorists?

If I could pick a superpower right now.. it would be to slap the shit out of people over the internet. I'd never get to sleep, but damn... I'd be making this world a better place one slap at a time.