WTF body??

I slept like total shite last night.
I got about 4 hours total of sleep.
Feeling ok for now, but I'm sure I'll be the walking dead later.

Did have a surprise when I went to the bathroom at 1am though. Wiped away some blood. WTF??
I'm on cd19. I've been taking OPKs multiple times a day (actually remembering to so I haven't skipped any days).... and just yeah... WTF?

Wonky hormones I guess. Thinking the hormone problem is the cause for the sleep and lack of weight loss too. Not sure what my body is doing.

On this current path though, I think January is going to be the earliest we're actually going to have a real chance at TTC. Hell, maybe even later than that.
I am going to start exercising next week so hopefully that helps whatever is going on. Obviously I'd rather be pregnant right now, but if we have to wait a LITTLE bit longer, then I'm ok with it.... but just so long as my body keeps doing what it should be doing, like losing weight, getting more regular, etc.

Need to finish up some of the baby shower and gift stuff I want to do. Have the baby shower planned for Oct 19th. It's not going to be a lot of people, going to basically just be a family get together, but still.. I want it nice for SiL.

Zoe last night.... man. I dunno what crawled up her booty but damn.
She spent 45min crying her eyes out when we put her to bed. I don't mean minor fussing... no sir. This was full on nuclear meltdown mode she was in.
Her window was open too. I was afraid someone was going to hear her and think we were abusing her or something.
I checked on her 3 times and as soon as I picked her up, the crying stopped and she'd be pointing to things as if nothing was wrong. As soon as I put her back in her crib though... it was the end of the world. SIGH!

Ya know what...

I want to be able to wear a sweater dress without it looking like a moomoo or me looking pregnant in it. Does anyone other than young girls/babies and skinny girls look good in them? I dunno, but they're damn cute (the dresses).

My weight is really annoying me right now. Other than a very small dessert which is homemade so no extra junk... my weight is being stubborn as hell and not moving at all.
It went back up after being bad during my birthday and the weekend, then went back down a couple pounds, and now.... nothin.

And it's like, one day, my ring feels loose, then the next, it's snug again.
I wish my body would make up its mind already.
One thing that has improved is my #2 activity.
I'm trying out eliminating certain foods that may trigger my digestion issues. Eggs, peppers, mushrooms, and broccoli.
So far so good.
The broccoli is the newest one I've stopped since it caused diarrhea a few hours later.
Well it's only the floret part. I'm ok if I eat the stem.

Anyway.... so that's going well, but it sucks b/c I love all of those things :(
Going to try to add back egg yolks next week and see what my body does.

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Zoe is doing well. She was NOT happy with either of her naps today though. Screamed her cute little head off for about 5-10min and then finally went to sleep. It's warm in her room now since we have the AC off and I'm too paranoid to keep her window open. Now if there were some security bars on the window I'd keep it open but ya know lol.

She's been dairy free now and... not really sure if it's improving anything. Not sure if it is, how long it would take to actually see an improvement. We'll stick with it a couple more weeks and then go from there. She loves her almond milk though.

Still no walking from her. She's gonna be 14m soon. I know I shouldn't worry but I do a little. 

Almond milk

Forgot to mention that we have taken Zoe off of dairy for a little bit.
It's just to see if dairy may be the cause of her skin problems.
Switched to Almond milk and almond & coconut yogurt. Didn't even know they made yogurt out of those :D
She really likes the milk though. It's unsweetened of course.
Hoping that we'll start seeing some improvement soon.
She's started getting some eczema spots again on her legs. Guess it's b/c the weather is starting to get cooler and dryer.

Oops

Forgot to post again...

The concert was great!! Not a whole lot of people, but that's not really surprising. STP is an old-ish band. I'm sure if it had been someone a bit more current the teens would've filled that place to the brim.

Anyway, it was still a great concert. Both bands sounded amazing.

We came home and got a bit drunk. Well, I was just a little drunk but DH.. man, he drank WAY too much and paid for it w/ throwing up, dry heaves and a hangover the next morning lol.

I missed Zoe the entire time though. It just didn't feel right her not being here with us.
Even though it was nice being able to sleep in or not getting woken during the night.... I wanted her here.

She did NOT do well at MiL's when it was bedtime. I think that's mainly b/c they didn't want to let her cry.
They said they put her in the pack n play they had and she would start crying so they would pick her up. Sigh....
So... first half of the night (until 3am), FiL slept w/ Zoe on his lap in a recliner in the living room. Then, MiL took over and did the same thing lol.

I know some of that was Zoe not being in a familiar environment, but I'm sure she would've fallen asleep if they had just let her cry a bit.

Zoe was VERY happy to come home though. We didn't get home until her bedtime and she went right to sleep and didn't wake once. Woke up after 9am which isn't normal for her now.
THEN she kept dozing off until her 2nd nap which DH had to go wake her up at 4pm b/c she was still sound asleep.

Poor baby.... the inlaws weren't the only ones that didn't get much sleep it seems.

She's gone right back to her old sleep schedule though so it's all good :)

Old woman

That's what I feel like anyway.
And old woman that didn't want her baby to spend the night away yet LOL.
I can just see myself now when Zoe is ready to move out..... UUUUUUUUGH, I'm gonna be that blubbering mess.
Even though I enjoy some Me time, I want my baby near me at all times too.

Sigh.... I'm sure everything will be ok though. Zoe enjoys her time w/ the inlaws.

We went apple picking yesterday in the mountains. Boy... I would love to live somewhere that had a view of the mountains in the background. Gorgeous and just so.... serene.  I wouldn't want to live on one though. The roads are a bit too much for my nerves lol.

It was a good day though. Bad for diet, but good for the soul :) Well... not counting the steep hills that we had to climb in the orchard. Really surprised I'm not sore today.

I'll post some photos of that later.
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Hmmm...
We went to a steak house for lunch. Meh.... we were going to go to a bakery too but we had MiL with us along with SiL's toddler and yeah, it wasn't going to happen b/c apparently, we were MiL's taxi for the day too. :\
Whatever. I didn't mind having to take her somewhere, but it would've been nice if we could've stopped at the bakery as we had planned to do instead of making it all about where she needed to go.
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Also, I think if we ever have a boy.... we've settled on a first name for him.
We both do still like the name Ziggy and while as a child and possibly a teen it would be a good name, it's not really a great adult professional name lol.

So, while on the way home from apple picking.... I came up with Bishop :D
It's not common but not out there, and it sounds like a nice STRONG name. DH really liked it too so yep heh. Now to just ovulate again so we can actually have a chance damnit!

I've been feeling something from the right side. Hopefully it's something growing.

Anyway, gonna relax some before we go get our eardrums blown out at the concert. Can't wait!
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Oh and I forgot another sexay momma that made me do the head swivel GURL to.
LisaB! I saw that photo you posted on FB! GUUUUUUUUURL. Makin me all jealous! lol

Damn you ladies for doing the right thing and losing the baby weight! *fist shake* ;)

Babies are gross

Ehehehe, one of my DD group ppl reminded me just how gross our LO's are.
Her LO found cat kibble to be mighty tasty.
I have to laugh b/c Zoe has more than once gone after the dog food. She did manage to put some of it in to her mouth but she spit it out right as I got to her to do a finger sweep.

She's still a gross one. More than once she'll be crawling around and I'll see her pick some mystery something up, pop it in to her mouth and then say "mmmmm" *barf*
I don't even want to know...... well I do, but I don't.
I can imagine that this is only going to get worse as she gets more mobile and can reach more things.

Girl has had some NASTY poop today. I swear... all but 3 diapers were poop diapers!! It's kinda funny seeing whole foods in them. Like cut up grapes or entire black eye peas lol.

She's wanting to talk so much! Her Star Wars is getting better. Got her to say Yogurt today too :D
I'm sure she says a lot of things, we just haven't figured it out yet heh.
Love her stinky little ass so much!
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Started OPKs today. Probably could wait a while longer. I'm only on cd10 right now and with how my body hasn't been doing much... yeah.

OH!! I busted out the thermometer when I started spotting.
I managed to take my temp twice then and both were high 98's.... *shrugs* That's pretty high for not ovulating? So..... holding out a little hope that I could have?

Temp today was usual pre-O stuff though... 97.6. I had to take it at 3:30 am though. Woke up needing to pee so had to take it b/c I knew I wasn't going to get another solid 4 more hours.

 My weight is not wanting to budge. I think I need to eliminate possible foods that cause inflammation. Tomatoes, mushrooms, eggs, hot sauce.... maybe dairy too.
Get rid of those for a bit to see how my body does. It sucks though b/c I LOVE those so much :( Figures that the foods I adore are ones that are causing possible problems.
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And finally..... a GURL moment....

Saw your photo on FB Shari and GUUUUUUUURL *head swivel*... you look amazing!!!

Things are good

Well, not our monetary situation atm, but other than that... yeah.

My weight has stalled, but it's a bit like gestational diabetes.... just have to figure out what's going to work.
I'm still sticking with primal though. It's just been a lot easier this time FINALLY for some reason. I'm really not struggling w/ wanting junk food... although a soda sounds really good right now lol. Water gets boring!

Zoe is doing well. Her hair seems to finally be thickening and getting longer. Still very very slowly, but it's getting there. One of these days I'll be able to put some pig tails on her head!

She's grinding her teeth though. She'll be crawling to wherever and that sound will suddenly start and UUUUGH, it makes my teeth hurt! I hope she doesn't keep doing it. Would hate for her to damage her teeth.

She's trying to talk which is ADORABLE!! Well, she's trying to say actual words that is. She does a lot of baby babbling.
I got her to say Star Wars earlier! lol
I'm wearing a star wars shirt and she kept pointing at it so I couldn't resist hehe.
DH got her to say pictures and yeah... she's just growing up so fast!