Well... that was unexpected

Going to get a little political for a minute...
But damn... really? Trump?????
I figured Hillary would be president, but Trump??? Geezus.
Now don't get me wrong.... neither of them are worth a shit. 2 turds in a giant turd sandwich. But it still amazes me that Trump was even in the running to begin with. I can see why Hillary was. At least she was in politics before and everything was pointing towards her running for president. But Trump seemed to just say... Fuck it, why not? And welp.. here he is... America's next president. Just.. WTF???

These next 4 years are going to be.... interesting. That's for sure. At least this will give comedians worldwide a whole lot of material for the next 4 years... like when Bush jr was in office. :\

Good lord man... just don't put us in WW3 dude.

And remember folks... whatever your political views... just remember we all still have to live with one another. Play nice... even if you don't want to ;) lol

I love the cold!

It's been a while since I could actually feel cold and it's just so so nice. SO nice! I love cold weather b/c it means I can snuggle up in some blankets and get all warm and snuggly. Love it!
Kinda wish we had a wood burning fireplace.. although no fireplace would be best. Just put a couple logs in one night... toast some marshmallows with the kids and just sit in front of it and enjoy. Sigh.. sounds so nice.
Right now I have my old lady cardigan on. It's perfect. Lightweight but still thick enough to keep the cold off.
Need to go get a couple more cheap ones. I have a black one somewhere.... no idea where it is though.

Only thing bad about the cold is making sure the kids stay warm. They want to be naked so bad all the time for some reason (I don't remember being this way as a kid lol). So it's pretty cool in the house and here my monkeys are running around without a shirt on.... or Zoe will get it in to her head to go change in to a skirt :\
I'm sure we'll be dealing with a lot of colds this fall & winter.
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Ezra is on the floor on his little play mat trying to talk to the toys hanging down. He's starting to get a little fussy but it's so darn cute!! Love it when babies start finding their voice (that isn't screaming and crying).
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We really need to stop procrastinating and take Oren in to get some food allergy things done. Not sure what they would do, but something needs to happen. The fiber gummies seemed to help at first, but then he still gets gross poo too and it ends up irritating his butt and his poor balls.
Yes... his poor little berries.
He wasn't even sitting in his poop for that long since I make sure to check him often in the morning since he usually goes then. But it was long enough to irritate everything down there and he screams and cries and kicks during diaper changes. I feel so bad for him b/c I NEED to clean the poop off, but I know it hurts him so much. Next time, I'm just going to pop him in the shower to wash him off. Maybe the warm water will help to keep the pain down some.
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Zoe's attitude just keeps growing and growing. Joy :\
Most of the time, she's perfectly fine, but then she gets it in to her head to pitch an attitude. Pfft.. mommy don't play that girl. She already got sent to her room today.. not even an hour after waking up.
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DH joked about going primal this week when I asked him what he wanted for dinners (before we went grocery shopping). I said fine. He thought I was joking.
So far so good on the dinners, but my breakfast and lunches need some work.
I REALLY need to start eating better b/c the weight is really piling on right now. My body is in "Winter is coming. Pack on all the pounds!!" mode right now.
I really don't know if I'm going to have any pants and I can wear. So annoyed with myself, but it's also difficult eating non carby crap when you have to prepare everything. I have to take care of 3 kids... pump and then cook up some noncarb food? Pfft yeah right.
Sigh.. I do need to try though. While I'm hoping next year can be focused on getting healthy... I'd like to make it to next year not feeling like a whale.
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I dunno what has happened, but I've been peeing a little randomly. It's only just a tiny amount, but it's enough that I NEED to wear panty liners now or else I'd be changing undies multiple times a day. WTH??
I guess it's time to start doing some kegels or something.
Seriously though.. it just started randomly about 2 weeks ago. I thought maybe it was vaginal discharge at first, but no.. it's pee. :\
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My nipples are killing me right now. The increase in suction has been wreaking havoc on my poor nipples :( Hope they get used to it soon and I hope I see an increase in my milk supply too.
So far, it's been staying steady, which isn't enough to keep up with what Ez is eating. Still have enough milk stored up to only give him milk for maybe another week if my supply doesn't increase.
I'm cool with giving formula, but again.... I dunno.. it's been nice that I could provide enough that we didn't have to.
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Ok, going to try to take a quick nap before Oren wakes up from his.

Why Day light savings time??? WHY????

Can we all agree that that crap is unnecessary now and get rid of it already? Screw tradition bullshit, JUST STOP!
Of course Oren's internal clock woke him up at his usual time, which was an hour early now. Same with Ez too for that matter. Sigh....

And today was just shitty. The kids were just... just bad. They didn't do anything horrific or anything, just in general, not listening and being little turds. My energy is drained.
And every single time I picked Ezra up... he spit up on me. Every. Single. Time.
Sigh....

Oren is in bed and Zoe will be following soon....... I just wanna watch TWD and go to bed right after. I'm done with today... bring on tomorrow and nothing but the election crap on FB :\

Well that was slightly gross

Ok.. so when I was pregnant with Oren.. these moles popped up on my areolas. They were only as big as a montgomery glands so it's not like they were popping out like I was growing multiple nipples or anything. Just small moles that were darker than my areolas.
So anyway... I had one on my left one that was starting to.. I dunno... separate from it a bit b/c of the pumping.
Remember when I said that pumping caused the darker skin on my areola to essentially rub/flake off?
Well that has happened with some of the moles too.
It's just... weird. Had it happen last night and saw it stuck to the inside of the flange and I dunno.. got a little disgusted by it but also happy that it came off too rofl.
It's just weird that pumping is doing this to my nips. Is it the same for breastfeeding? Imagining that there isn't as much friction with an infant so they wouldn't cause something like this to happen lol.
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So I know this is going to seem really insensitive since one of the dogs did just die yesterday, but we have been discussing about what our next dog is going to be for a while now.
I don't see it as replacing if/when we get another dog.. it's just adding another member to the family.

Anyway.... a part of me really wants to just adopt a dog, BUT... I also want pure bred dogs. One we're going to have to save for b/c pure breds are frickin expensive!

First... while I would love to get a pug... I also want a BIG dog. If there was a local breeder of them in our state.. I would want an Irish Wolfhound.
But since there isn't... I want a Bullmastiff.
But DH doesn't want one quite that big and the drool......
I'd be happy with a corgi too. Small but not... and those stubby legs would be awesome too lol.
I dunno.. we probably won't be getting another dog to add to the pack any time soon. Well if it was up to me, we'd already have another dog lol.
We'll see what happens. Just know that it's going to be a puppy.
I think it's great that people adopt adult dogs, but I need to raise the dog myself to be able to trust it.. especially if it's a large breed. With 3 small children.. whatever dog we get is going to have to get used to being around them.

Post before bed

Didn't really want to leave a depressing post up as the only one today. Well... It wasn't all depressing, but ya know.

Anyone else get creeped and weirded out by women that call their sexual partner 'daddy'?
Just fucking..... NO NO NO.
How gross is that?? I mean seriously think about that shit. Ew....
I don't think any woman would like it if men went around calling their sexual partner 'mommy'. YUCK
And it's just weird that any guy likes being refered to that as well. Just.... No.

Oo, sounds like Ez actually went to sleep pretty quick. Was posting while I waited for him to settle and he did fairly quick.
Think maybe starting next week, I'll put him in his bassinet for one of his naps during the day. We'll see though. I just feel so bad when he's trying to nap and some noise wakes him and he gets upset.
While he's used to some noise, he definitely hasn't gotten used to all of it.

Anyway, this ended up shorter than expected and sleep is calling :)

RIP Puppers

So our oldest dog finally went to doggy heaven today.
It's sad, but I'm more relieved than anything. She was going downhill really REALLY fast and we were going to take her to get put to sleep either today or tomorrow. She passed away just this morning.
I'm just glad that she's not suffering any longer though. Not even 3 or 4 months ago... she was lively and running around and barking it up with the other dogs and then just a shitty switch was turned on and her age started catching up with her. We thought it was just arthritis, but no... she was just preparing to die :(
Not sure how old she was. We got her when we were still living with DH's parents way way way back in the day. She was at least 15yo. Just a mutt.
MiL found 2 puppies on the side of the road. Brought them home, got them healthy and kept them both. The female dog along w/ a dog we had got out of the yard one day and her dog ended up getting pregnant.
Can't remember exactly how many puppies she had. They gave them all away, but one of the people couldn't keep the pup so gave it back and that's how DH and I ended up with her. Not by choice really, but oh well.
She was a super annoying doofy dog, but she lived a very long and hopefully great life.
RIP puppers.
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In other not so depressing news...
We started giving Oren fiber gummies. The probiotics we gave him weren't doing anything.
The fiber gummies are helping some w/ his nasty poops. He had a nasty one this morning, but the ones before it seemed normal-ish. Looked like they were soft turds before getting smooshed.
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Zoe keeps wanting to come lay down with us during the night. DH questioned if it was b/c she was scared or what... no.... the reason is b/c she's 4 and this is what some kids do lol.
And she is good at sneaking in to our room without my noticing. Like I've mentioned before, I wake up to every little sound the kids make, but she goes in to ninja mode.
I was just getting up to pump this morning and her monitor came on. Looked at it and noticed that she wasn't in bed. I had just put on all the pumping stuff and was going to check on her really quick. Opened the door to our room and there she was... just standing there all silhouetted and creepy looking. Made me jump lol.
And the night before... she had come in to the room while I was pumping. DH got up to put her back in bed. But 10mins later... I'm sitting there, still pumping and messing around on my phone. I look up and see her standing by the bassinet w/ her blanket over her. Just standing there all silent. I seriously had a few moments there when it crossed my mind if it was really Zoe or some evil demon spawn under the blanket.... ROFL.
She finally started to move, but very slowly towards the pet stairs at the end of our bed. She had to move slow b/c she couldn't see anything from under the blanket but knew the general direction she had to go. When she finally hit the stairs, she pushed the blanket out some so she could see them and as carefully as she could, tried to go up them without making a sound.
I couldn't help but start quietly cracking up. I should've taken her to bed again but didn't have the heart to. Not after all the effort she went to to try to keep quiet lol. Sigh....
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I'm going to try to increase my milk supply. I do not want to add in more pumping sessions so I'll be pumping for longer a few times a day until hopefully my supply increases. So instead of the normal 30mins, I'll probably end up pumping for around 40-50min total.
Hope it works.
We're going through the milk we have faster than I thought. I think it's safe to say that Ezra needs to be bumped up to at least 4oz now and no less. Pretty sure the other 2 were on 4oz of formula by this point.. if not more.
Anywho.... FX that my poor nipples can handle it and FX that my boobs make more milk!
Nothing against formula at all, but it's been nice not having to supplement too.

Yay neighborhood!

So we took the kids to this shopping center thing last night. Select stores were passing out candy and HOLY SHIT... there were so many people!!! Great right? Yeah, no... the sidewalks weren't big enough for the amount of traffic and the stores were not prepared for the number of kids.
Supposedly, a lot of stores ran out of candy which is a load of bullshit. Felt like a lot of them either didn't give candy to begin with OR, their employee assigned to give the candy said F-it and gave it all out really quick so they could leave.

But yeah.. that was a big clusterf-. Kids seemed to have fun even though they didn't get much.

Oh but we got there early b/c Moe's has $5 burritos on mondays. Everyone else had the same idea AND that Moe's seemed to only have first day employees working. Seriously... DH stood in line for almost half an hour and there really weren't that many people in front of him.

Anyway, we hit up some of the stores, but just kinda hoofed it back to the car and went home to go trick or treating in the neighborhood.
First half of the neighborhood was dead. Almost no porch lights on.
But the back half came through. Still not a ton of lights, but a lot in a relatively small area. So we walked the kids around and they loved it and got a lot of candy from the neighbors :) Started off not so great, but ended well with Oren and Zoe getting lots of candy.
Only reason to have more than one kid... you get more candy on Halloween! :P rofl

No pics. It was dark, my phone was under Ez in the stroller and yeah... I already posted pics of them in their costumes lol.

Anyway, hoping next year we'll have coordinated costumes :D I want to dress up too damnit! I didn't this year, but next year I will :)
DH wants to participate in the trunk or treat at his church and I want to give out candy here. Or I'm hoping to. We'll see what happens.
SiL and her husband came over with niece and walked around with us this year. Maybe one of them could stay behind and give out candy.