Sunday, May 8, 2016

Stupid Junior sizes!!

UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGH.... I had a nice long post and stupid keyboard deleted it all!!!!!!!!

Anyway....

Yesterday started off with taking the van in to get the auto dimming rear view mirror put in and also get the car seat covers put on.
DH struggled with Oren's carseat for a good half hour before we said screw it and put it forward facing. I'm uneasy about it since rear facing is so much safer, but we were planning on forward facing for the trip anyway and Oren seems to really like it.

That took about 2hrs total.

We then headed to Walmart down the road from the dealership.
Let the frustration commence!
I found the shirts that I wanted. Super light weight ones that go over tank tops. Great right?
NOPE! ALL of them were in frickin junior sizes!!!! WTF???
Not a single damn shirt in women size..... nope. Every single one they had was junior. And even the junior XL and XXL are too damn small for me!!
SO F-ing annoyed by that shit.
Why do juniors get all of these super cute light flowy clothes and women get all dumpy looking shit. Or if it's not dumpy then it's super expensive b/c they know there aren't any other options out there.
I just don't understand why they can't have the same shit but in women and junior sizes. Ya know... just b/c I'm old and bigger doesn't mean I don't want light clothes that don't make me look like an old school frumpy librarian.

Anyway... I did end up buying another tank top, shorts and a light t-shirt w/ butterflies on it. Not entirely what I wanted but whatever.

We (DH, Oren and myself... Zoe spent the night with granny)... then got lunch and headed home.

MiL and aunt did us a HUGE favor and came over so DH and I could go to the movies to see Capt America! YAY!
That movie was GREAT! Well.. if you like comic book movies :D

So that was really nice of them to do for us and I wanted to say thanks so we took them out to dinner at a hibachi place. Expensive but really good :)

So yeah... overall, yesterday was a pretty darn nice day. Some frustrations and whatnots, but it was a nice day :)

Zoe spent the night again with granny or aunt. They also have niece too. Why? B/c SiL has HFM now and SiL and BiL will use any frickin excuse (or no excuse at all) to get rid of niece.
They are just so damn annoying and thankfully MiL and aunt both share my disdain of BiL. lol

I know it's so juvenile to talk behind someone's back, but you just don't know BiL. Like I said... he's just an annoying idiot know it all that you want to punch in the face. UGH I don't even want to talk about him anymore b/c it makes my blood boil when I do.
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Oh and finally.. my frickin calf muscles keep wanting to charlie horse on me when I'm stretching in bed. That's always a nice feeling :\
Middle of the night one night, I stretched and HOLY MOTHER OF SHIT PAIN! I had to hold in my yelp of pain so I wouldn't wake DH up. Thankfully I was able to get rid of it quick by moving my foot around some but still... OUCH!

Saturday, May 7, 2016

Empty Threats

It's 3am and I've been up for an hour already trying to get back to sleep. UGH!
Really wish I would stop doing this already. It's been like this for... gosh..... over a month now?
Wake up in the middle of the night and not being able to get back to sleep for a couple of hours. Seriously don't know how I function during the day w/ no caffeine in me most of the time lol.
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Anywho... on to the ranting..
So we went out to dinner tonight and of course annoying ass BiL is there next to niece. Niece and Zoe are sitting across from one another which I'm not a fan of but they don't see eachother that often so whatever.... at least they're not sitting next to eachother.
Niece does not have an inside voice and is constantly yelling while they play and eat.
She tosses the doll she had towards Zoe for some reason (think she was making it fly)... and it hits my hand just right for it to hurt, so I take it away from her.
Instant cry/yelling. Yeah... this momma don't play with that mess.
Fast Forward and the girl is constantly disobeying BiL. He finally gets fed up with her and tells her that she's not spending the night at her granny's house (something he didn't even bother to ask MiL btw until a few minutes before and even then it was just a passing "Oh, can she?"...asshole).

He sounds serious about it....
Yeah.. that's until it's time to leave and he practically throws niece in to their car and runs away. Seriously... he couldn't get her in to their car seat fast enough :\
Dude.... seriously???
This is why you're raising a GD brat that doesn't listen to a word you say and has 0 respect for your authority as a parent.
I really try not to judge as much as I used to (seriously.. I'm trying rofl)... but this crap pisses me right off especially b/c everyone can see that what you're doing is total bullshit that's turning your kid in to a little monster.

If I threaten Zoe with something.. like taking away a toy, time out, a pop on the butt or hand, etc... I'm following through with it if she keeps up her bad behavior.
I am lazy as shit and really do not like punishing her, but she knows not to push her luck too far b/c mommy doesn't do empty threats.
Just UUUUUUUUGH, it's so frustrating!!!!
Zoe and niece love eachother so much, but I'll be damned if niece's bad behavior rubs off on Zoe.
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Damn you diabetes!!
We went to Mexican tonight. I had 2 shrimp quesadillas. It comes with a simple sour cream and guacamole salad and I usually order a side of refried beans.
Yeah.. I should've known better than to get the beans. My sugar after was 168!! Yikes.
Sigh... I was so hoping I'd be able to skip the extra monitoring, but it doesn't look like I'll be that lucky.
/sob
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My feet will never be used to wearing regular shoes. I need to loosen up the shoe laces or something.
Wore them tonight to help break them in and my toes started falling asleep and my pinky toe on my left foot started to ache b/c it was getting squished.
Come on already feet! Cooperate!!!
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OOF.... baby is awake and moving. Not big movements, but movements right on my bladder.
Pregnancy is going well. I'm 26w and still feel like I should be further along than I am lol. I just feel SO huge right now and can't imagine how big I'm going to be/feel when I am further.
I really do need to start walking. 1 to break in the shoes, and 2 b/c it will help with the diabetes.
But damnit... I just don't wanna! I want to blob out on the couch and not do anything.
Going to make more effort though. I know Zoe will enjoy going for a walk... not sure about Oren since he'll have to go in the stroller lol.
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Really want to buy a few clothes. I hate spending money before this trip though even though it's kind of needed.
I need more bras. I switch between 2.... yeah... just 2. The rest of my bras are nursing bras or sports bras. I have 2 that actually make my boobs look decent and of course they're my more expensive ones which is why I only have 2 that I always wear. That's not gonna work for a 2 week trip where I can't wash clothes lol.
Could you imagine how funk they would be? And boy have I been having a lot of boob sweat.. lol.. YUCK.
I would also like some sort of sheer shirt or something to go over my tank tops. I'm at the point of saying F it and showing off my fat arms and dark armpits, but if I can find some good, cheap, light weight shirts to wear over them that won't make me sweat.. awesome!
It's just that cheap and good part that's going to be hard to find. Hoping to stop by Walmart and maybe Kohls to see what they have. I do need a couple more cheap shorts too and hoping for some slip on shoes. ;) hehe

Oh and has anyone checked out Walmarts dress selections online?? Looks like they're sporting a lot of super cut dresses! They're all really short, but they would totally work as a long shirt too. Just some really cute designs. Have my reservations about them though b/c they're all being modeled by a little Asian chick. That usually happens when it's being made by a Chinese company which whatever... they gotta eat... but the sizes could be off. Their idea of a size XL could actually be a size M here lol.
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Guess I'll stop rambling... sigh. I'm not really tired yet, but maybe it will kick in soon......

Friday, May 6, 2016

Stop pooping so much!!

Good lord, this boy is a poop machine! And it's nasty loose poop too.
I guess we need to feed him more fiber foods to try to help with that. He's almost leaked poop for about 2? weeks now. It's so gross and I'm tired of his poor little butt looking terrible bc of it.

And of course he's in that exploratory phase right now and discovered he has a penis down there so always goes for a grab or tries grabbing his dirty disgusting diaper. Bleh.
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We're going to be putting Oren's car seat forward facing for the trip. I don't like it and would prefer to keep him rear facing, but the boy hates riding in the car and well... we're gonna be doing about 2 weeks worth of driving. With the entertainment system to hopefully keep him occupied, we're hoping that turning him around will help to keep him quiet and entertained. We bought one of those mirrors you can use to look at your LO when they're rearfacing. Tried to angle it so he could see the monitor but it didn't work lol. Oh well.

We have all of the hotels reserved though. We didn't really find a lot of places to stop though. Kind of disappointed in that, but whatever.

We're both dreading and excited about this trip. It's just SO much driving, but hopefully it will be a really great experience :)
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Zoe is pretty much rash free now and has been for a while now. Her HFM rash never got really bad.
Oren's is mostly dried up, but he still has a few reddish spots on his knees.
I think DH's is going away now too. He still has some red spots on his elbows, but I think the stuff on his hands and feet are mostly gone.
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Frickin love the van! lol It's just such a nice ride and I really enjoy driving it... minus the parking :P I'm still not used to how long it is and I'm always terrible at parking heh. I'm always paranoid that when I back out I'm going to hit the other parked cars b/c I can't judge properly how long the van is.
Other than that though.. WOO! New car! :D
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I keep forgetting that Mother's day is right around the corner. Told DH that all I want is some Diet dr pepper and not having to cook lol.
Would love it if he tried to do some sort of homemade craft thing with the kids, but maybe another year. Doubt DH will do anything like that on his own without a push lol. Or maybe he'll surprise me! Yeah right lol.
I'm good though either way. I'm not picky or expect some jewelry or wasted flowers or anything like that. I just want some soda and meals cooked by someone else :D hehe
And maybe to not have to change poop too.... :P
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OOO our Asian pear trees have some pears on them! YAY! I'm sure they've already been attacked by bugs though. There are a ton of peaches on the peach tree, but DH said all the ones he saw already look like they've been attacked by bugs. Not sure if it is bugs or maybe b/c it's not being pollinated by another peach tree so the fruit looks bad. *shrugs*
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About to go out and try out the vacuum in the van. Zoe got crumbs everywhere and there's a little bit of dirt here and there. Hope it works well :D Gosh I love that van and how awesome is it that they thought enough to put in a vacuum. How great is that for families??
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Oren is driving me crazy right now. About to put him down for a nap even though I'm sure he's going to cry/scream bloody murder. He's already crying at EVERYTHING right now.
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Sorry my post is all over the place... trying to remember what the heck I wanted to post, but it's not coming to me. I'm sure it will later tonight and I'll forget all about it again tomorrow lol.
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Morning fasting was once again higher than it should be this morning. 98.
I tried eating a granola bar in the middle of the night at around 2:30.
I know some pregnant women wake up hungry, but not this gal. I had to force it down.
It didn't help at all.
Maybe I should try it again but do it 2 hrs before I get up. That would feel like cheating though. Not really a fasting reading.

But other than that damn fasting number.. it's been pretty easy to portion control. Sure.. I want a little more of this or that, but at least I don't need to be so strict with limiting carbs and whatnot. Makes it a lot easier to eat better when you don't have to eliminate so much :)
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Hmm.. I can't remember what the heck I wanted to post.... oh well....

Thursday, May 5, 2016

Ranting and other junk

I can't stand my BiL.
Overall, there's nothing wrong with him really, but he's just one of those types of people who just rubs everyone the wrong way.
He's a know-it-all, but doesn't actually know shit and he's just annoying as heck to be around.
I really don't understand how SiL got with him other than him being a total pushover when it comes to her. That's not a bad thing, but everything else about his personality sucks. Ok.. not everything else.. but like I said.. he's just not someone that you want to hang out with if you had a choice.
I dunno.. it's difficult to explain but I'm sure we all have that family member that's like that. Just someone that just rubs you the wrong way and you're not entirely sure why.
Just... I want to punch him in the face every time he posts on FB.
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We'll definitely be helping to pay to get the Terrain fixed. Really glad about that. I just feel so bad that it broke down right when they got it. Even though we never had a problem with it, it still makes me feel guilty.. like we caused it somehow lol.
Hopefully it's nothing too serious and an easy quick fix.
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I definitely have GD again.. it's just not as severe. I fixed steak and mac and cheese last night. I was able to eat a serving of the mac and cheese (sharing it with Oren) and my blood sugar was 115. Right under the max number. (pretty sure max is 120)
Really not sure how I passed the 1hr test. I must've been right under the max or something.
Anyway... for now, I think I'm going to try to just take my blood sugar in the morning and then after I eat something questionable. I'll continue that until my next appointment and then take it from there.
Glad that I had some leftover strips and stuff to test with.
Do not want to end up on the news b/c I gave birth to a giant baby LOL.
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Zoe is so darn cute.
Her infatuation with Spiderman is over.... now it's all about Robin. DH started watching Young Justice yesterday and she was totally hooked. Every time Robin wasn't on she'd ask "Where's Robin??" And now she's calling herself Robin.
Love it :D

Oren is also just so cute!
He was playing with one of DH's old phones yesterday. Put it up to his ear and said "Hello?" in to it. Clear as day. Shocked the heck out of me lol. He did it again after I did it and handed it back to him too :D
My big little guy!
Now he just needs to stop waking up in the middle of the night crying :\
He's still not walking on his own, but he is letting go more often now. Totally not worried at all about it. He'll walk when he's ready and that's the day when I never get to relax ever again lol.

Wednesday, May 4, 2016

Wow, that's bad luck

So we gave the Terrain to inlaws the other day... DH got a call from FiL yesterday saying that it keeps cutting off.
Really???
We never had a problem with it before and all of a sudden this shit happens to them? UGH.

Makes me feel terrible that we're giving them a messed up car. Just some seriously bad luck. Hopefully it's nothing too serious and I think we should help them with the cost of repair.

They came over last night to check the oven for us. FiL has some thing to check to see if the switch on the oven still worked. I guess it did b/c they were saying it was the elements that were bad. Going to cost us about 150 to replace them both, but DH is skeptical if it is what is wrong since both the broiler and the other one stopped working at the same time.
Not sure what DH wants to do about it.
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DH did go to work today. Thankfully his rash hasn't bubbled up to blisters.. they just look like bright red spots.
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We gotta take the van in this saturday. Wanted to see Civil War then, but may not be able to. We'll see.
Anywho, we're getting the seat covers and the auto dimming rear view mirror. Hoping that since we made an appointment and time to come in that we won't be stuck there ALL day long.
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Let the kids stay up last night to visit with inlaws. They don't get a lot of alone time with them so we let them stay up. Was hoping that they would sleep in but pfft... dunno what fantasy land I was hoping I'd be in. Oren woke up around 2am screaming bloody murder. I went and checked on him and that only made him cry/scream harder.
He must've had a bad dream or something.
Anywho... he still woke up his usual time... sigh.
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Just got a call back from my OB office and well... apparently I don't have GD this time around? Uhm.... what????
I'm still going to check my sugar for a while b/c I think they're going to be concerned about my fasting level if they keep coming back higher than it should be. It was only 91 this morning but that's still elevated.
But still too... WOO!
I did eat a BIG bowl of cereal this morning so I could check my sugar level after. Did screw up some b/c I took one of my prenatals just a few mins ago. It's gummi and I'm sure full of sugar. Oops. We'll see.

The only thing that came back a little off was my iron level. It was a little low so they're calling in a prescription for iron pills.
Looks like I'm gonna be trying to eat more iron rich foods too for an extra boost.

But still... this is some really unexpected news. Who the hell knew that this was even a possibility. Figured if you had GD once, you'd always get it again.. especially with my medical history too.

EDIT: Took blood sugar and it was 130. So I think I do have GD still, it's just that this time, my body is tolerating carbs and whatnot a bit more.
So while I can have a sandwich or something if I wanted.. I can't go all out or anything. I still have to portion control.. just not be AS strict.
Still... I'll take it!

Tuesday, May 3, 2016

Boooooo

I still haven't heard back from the doc office yet. I just started taking my blood sugar levels yesterday and so far.. after eating it's been fine, but the morning fasting is doing what it did before.
It was frickin 102 this morning! Grrrr
I don't want to take glyburide again damnit! Nothing against taking the pill, I just don't want to go in twice a frickin week once again. It was easy with none... ok with Zoe... and now with 2?? UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGH. Just a giant PITA.
And of course there's nothing I can really do to help the fasting level. BLEH

In somewhat better news.. for dinner, I had tomato soup and a grilled cheese sandwich. Thought b/c of the sugar in the tomatoes and then the bread that my sugar would be a little high, but nope.. it was only 90! YAY! Going to have to play around with some stuff to see just how much of something I can have. Potatoes, rice and bread mostly. Hoping I'll actually be able to have a serving of something and still be within an OK range.
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Terrain is almost signed over to inlaws. Just glad we're able to help them out a little since the whole wreck happened.
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DH is home again today. He still feels ok, but his rash is still very angry looking in spots. HFM is making its way through everyone who hasn't had it before. Niece's father has it now too.
Again... thankfully it's not terrible in general. Just more of a nuisance once the fever passes.

I don't see how you can prevent this from spreading. I've read that people can stay contagious for up to a few weeks after the signs of it have passed. I mean obviously washing your hands, not coughing in to them, etc will help, but who really remembers to do that ALL the time. I'm sure everyone touches their face at some point or quickly sneezes or coughs in to their hand even if they usually don't.

Again though.. thankfully it looks like I probably already had this strain of it when I was little. No symptoms of it thankfully.
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There's a concert we want to go to..... 3 days before I'm hoping to have my c-sec done lol. It's Blink 182 and A Day To Remember. I wanna go! There are seats at the venue so I wouldn't be standing or anything... and I've never had preterm labor or anything like that before so I think it would be ok. Uncomfortable, but ok.
We'll see I guess lol.
That is cutting it pretty darn close heh

Monday, May 2, 2016

Meep

Poor DH just can't catch a break. His HFM rash isn't that bad, but still causing some sensitivity issues on his hands and feet. Some areas look like they're getting a little worse, but overall he looks and feels fine.
He didn't go to work today and may not go tomorrow.

Sucks that this mess is so contagious, but at least it's not too bad. Just a day of a fever and that's it really.

Thankfully I haven't had any symptoms of it. Every time my foot or hand itches though I think I'm getting it lol.
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We didn't go to the fair on Saturday. Boo :( Zoe was really looking forward to it, but DH wasn't up for it which is understandable. Oh well.. there's always the state fair in Oct and this fair will come around again next year where we'll hopefully be able to go... with 3 kids O_O

Did get myself some new shoes though.
Turns out I don't have wide feet. Or well... my toes still don't taper in like a lot of tennis shoes do, but that's it.
Regular shoes still feel tight on my feet, but that's probably just b/c I'm not used to wearing them. Need to break them in and get used to it before the trip.
They're ugly adidas ones. Dark blue and a bright pink. All the shoes that I actually liked the look of either didn't feel right or they didn't have my size. Figures. :\
Oh well... they don't have to be pretty.. they just gotta keep my feet comfy.
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DH's dad got in to an accident 2 days after my mom did. He's ok. The airbag ripped up his arm, but he's ok thankfully.
Some a-hole douchebag cut off a car or 2 in front of him causing the guy he cut off to brake suddenly which caused a domino effect. That asshole was hit, but sped off along with the guy that rearended FiL.
Just.. WTF is wrong with people. Sigh...
Of course their truck was the most messed up out of the bunch and they don't have the right insurance to get it fixed. I guess it's a good thing they wanted the terrain bc they def need it now.
Oh and to top it all off.. the cop that showed up gave the victims the tickets since the other assholes ran. Seriously???
Makes me want to get a dashcam.
Could get a lot of views showing the sheer stupidity and assholery of the drivers here. Like this one woman that pulled out in to the opposite traffic in front of us. She had barely any room, but enough to get out of the way... that's IF she hadn't had her frickin nose stuck in her phone and SLOWED DOWN once she started pulling out causing us to need to brake hard to keep from hitting her stupid ass.
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Anyway, in other news... still haven't heard back from doc office yet. Think we're going out to get Zoe some shoes today... so I'm sure they'll call when we're gone :\
I'm sure the news is gonna be what I expect it to be. I took my fasting blood this morning and it was 98... it's not supposed to be above 90. Sigh... GD.. you bastard!