Wednesday, February 3, 2016

Uuuuuuugh... is it next Thursday yet??? (ranting and cursing ahead)

I don't know if my sanity will be able to last another week of watching my niece.
It's not just her... b/c Zoe starts acting up too, which just.... UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGH

Zoe is learning some bad habits and she's also learning that her momma isn't going to take any of that crap. There were SO many time outs and taking away toys and pops on their butts today.... and today wasn't even that bad. Just small incidents like not listening (that was the theme of the day it seems), and talking back and doing things they both know they shouldn't do. Sprinkle in a ton.. A TON of whining and yeah..... today SUCKED BALLS.

Holy crap, I haven't been this stressed out in a while.
I would seriously be taking a few shots to calm my nerves down if I wasn't pregnant and I am not a big drinker at all.
I texted DH and told him I wasn't cooking. I just... no..... I was not cooking. I'd rather starve than just have to deal with anything else today.

I did bake cookies earlier (before I got to my F- it point)..... I totally stress baked b/c I needed some kind of sweet comfort to get me through the rest of the time niece was here.

THEN her GD dad didn't show up until almost 5:30. The bastard gets off before 4 and has gotten here at just after 4 to pick her up. There was NO FUCKING REASON for him to be late. But his excuse? He stopped home to let their dogs out and to play some.
Dude.... WTF??? What the flying fuck?? Your dogs couldn't wait another 30 fucking minutes??
UGH Gawd that really fucking ticked me off (if you couldn't tell by the F bombs... sorry for them all but UGH!).
But it's not surprising from him or SiL. They take advantage of MiL ALL the damn time and pick their daughter up late on a very regular basis for absolute bullshit reasons... if they even bother giving a reason.
Hell, they've even left their daughter with MiL and not picked her up at all and tell MiL nothing. Like oh... she's gonna spend the night with you and we're not going to bother telling you that or ask if it's ok.

Just... ugh.... I want it to be next Thursday already so I don't have to do this anymore. I want my days back with ONLY my kids.

Seriously... Kudos to people out there who take care of someone elses children or work with kids... b/c I sure as hell wouldn't be able to do it. I would go insane if I had to do this on a regular basis.

Oh I love my niece.. but I love her from afar.... just go home and stay there.

I am not a 'love other people's kids!' person at all.. even if they are related to me.

!2w appointment

Sorry I didn't post yesterday after my appointment.

My appointment went well though :) Had to do the usual. Pee in a cup, weighed, blood pressure. Then I got a surprise ultrasound so they could check the baby's heart and everything was fine as far as that :)
Baby was wiggling around and kicking out its legs and heartrate was 169 :)
SO relieved!!
Didn't get any good shots of the baby. She was having trouble getting a good view b/c baby is right at the point of being under my giant fat pooch. Oh well. What I saw was enough to help put my mind at ease.
I then went and talked with the doc for a quick second and learned that the genetic testing wouldn't be done until next visit (16w). That's kind of disappointing b/c I was hoping to just get it out of the way, but oh well.
Then I went and got blood taken... think it was about 6 or 7 vials. Just all the standard stuff including the thyroid thing.
So yeah, pretty standard appointment I think. Was in and out really quick b/c I was one of the only people there.
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Think I've been dehydrated these last few days and finally felt it yesterday. My whole uterus area was aching like crazy and I'm still feeling it a bit on the right side. Need to make sure to drink plenty of water today.
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Frickin niece..... She's a biter and good lord does it piss me off when she does it. Last time she did it, she almost broke the skin on Zoe's fingers. I spanked her little butt and bit her back :\
I hate spanking and lord knows I don't bite on a normal basis lol, but it just felt like that needed to be done to teach her to not do it.
She didn't bite yesterday so... maybe it worked a little? But while I was at my appointment yesterday, DH says Zoe tried to bite her cousin. UGH... yeah.... learning some great frickin habits there. :\
I can't wait until this is over with though. No more added stress... and deprogramming Zoe to get rid of all the new habits she picks up from her cousin :\
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And finally... in better more exciting news....
SiL is going to be induced Thursday morning! :D She had an appointment yesterday or MOnday and baby's heartrate was a bit high so they're not going to let her go any further pretty much. SO happy and excited for her. I hope it goes smooth and quick. Can't wait to see what her lil girl will look like! She's gonna be such a little cutey!

Monday, February 1, 2016

I wants it!!! Give to me!!!!

I wanted to go to the Korean store this weekend and since the baby furniture place is over in that area we went there too. DH gravitated towards this one pretty modern looking set as soon as he saw it.



The crib can be 2 different colors too like the dresser. The one in the store had the back and front of the crib this pretty blue color and the sides were white.
DH liked this 'oiled' finished look that was on another crib that we could get on this if we wanted. Not really sure how it would look. It's hard to tell from the photo but the crib looks very contemporary so not sure how a natural looking finish would look. He also liked this weird black one w/ a red distressed look under the black... if that makes any sense. Like imagine if something had originally been painted red and then someone came and painted over that with black. And over the years, the edges wore down to reveal the red again..... that's how it looked. I didn't really like it, but honestly don't care too much on the colors so long as they're not totally hideous lol.

But.... what else I saw in the store.... I wants it... I wants it for Zoe!!!
It was flipped the other way around, but holy... crap... I want it for Zoe SO damn much!!!! The little doors by the stairs leads in to this adorable little hidey hole spot that actually wraps around to behind the desk and it's lit inside too so it's not like the child would be sitting in the dark in there. And it has a ton of storage space w/ the stairs being drawers and the ones on the sides and the ones at the desk.
I love it! I want it! I wish I was young again so it could be mine! rofl
It was $3100 though... on sale! YIKES. But... we'd be spending that much on that crib/dresser set if we end up getting it.... so if we just got this for Zoe and gave the new baby Zoe's crib and dresser... it would work out to about the same.
DH doesn't wanna do it though... boo :( He says she's too young for it.. and she probably is. I don't think I would trust her too much to come down the steps without injuring herself lol. She was fine doing it at the place (after she busted her lip open playing with a drawer on another piece)... but I was also right there to watch her. Could you imagine a toddler having unsupervised access to stairs all the time? UGH..... Danger.. Danger!!!!!
So maybe in a couple of years this will be something we could get her... not sure what we would do with her crib though, so I doubt this will ever happen :(
I told DH to ask his coworker that does enjoys working with wood how much it would cost him to make it for us lol. And hey, if it's cheaper, that could be an option :D
Anywho.. isn't that so cool?
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UUUUGH, Zoe is being so damn whiny this morning. She's trying to do things her cousin is and can't and so the whining starts... lots and lots of whining.
Driving me frickin crazy and it's only 10am.

Oh last Friday when BiL came to pick up niece... good lord he is such an awkward frickin weirdo. I'm weird, but in a good nerdy shy way. He's weird in just a... I dunno... awkward creeper kind of way. Just pick up your child and frickin leave. Don't hang around here to socialize b/c I don't frickin want to. Go away. I'm not saying he's trying to get with me or anything stupid like that... he's just that type of awkward personality that butts their way in to a conversation and then makes the entire conversation extremely uncomfortable for everyone.. ya know?
Anyway... I really hope he just picks her up and leaves.... just take your child and GO.
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And apparently MiL was wrong... as usual. I don't want to paint MiL in a bad light b/c she's really not a bad person... she just does some really annoying shit.
Like not listening or half listening.
She's the type to ask you a question a bazillion times and every single time won't listen or will only half listen to the answer.
So SiL was not induced yesterday. She has another ultrasound today and from what MiL says, will have a doctor appointment tomorrow.... but who knows if that's true or not.. or the whole truth.
I'm sure SiL won't be allowed to go too much longer though. Not sure how many weeks she is but I'm fairly sure she's in her 39th.
So yeah... no new niece yet, but soon.
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I have my next appointment tomorrow afternoon. I'll report back with whatever goes on. Hopefully with some good news. I just can't shake the worry that I'm feeling.
Doesn't help going on to the August DD board and seeing a few women leaving b/c of miscarriage or finding out they have a blighted ovum :(


Friday, January 29, 2016

Not so bad.....

So yesterday was the first day I had to watch my niece. It went down how I thought it would, but wasn't too bad. She and Zoe both got in trouble some, but overall, they both did ok.
Good lord is my niece hard headed though and she has ignoring down to a damn science.
I wanted to bash my head against a brick wall trying to get her to pick up after herself. Zoe did great and did as she was told, but her cousin... UUUUUGH. I had to stand over her and constantly repeat for her to pick up the toys she wasn't playing with. Girl is going to get it that her Aunt aint playing around and isn't gonna take her crap lol.

It's past 10:30 now and she is sleeping on the couch. Once her mom left, she said her tummy hurt and kinda faceplanted on to the couch. I put a blanket over her and she went right to sleep. Not complaining at all. She can sleep for however long she wants. Had to keep Oren from pulling her hair but Zoe has been good at keeping quiet and letting her sleep :)
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Did I mention that Oren is clapping a little now? I know I mentioned the waving, but he's kind of figured out clapping now too. :) It's so cute watching him grow up. I just love it. Loved it with Zoe, love it with him and will love it with this new one. It's just so fun watching your kids discover all of these things that you just don't notice any longer.
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Have I mentioned that if all goes well... my kids are going to be spaced out exactly (by month) how DH and his siblings are spaced out AND if this is a girl.. then that will be the same too.. girl, boy, girl. lol I think that's kind of fun and neat :)
I do kind of want another girl b/c I just love my Zoe so much, but gosh.. another boy would be just as awesome too. Plus having another boy would balance the girl/boy ratio a bit lol. Well... not really. My brother has 2 girls and 1 boy. Sil has 1 girl, older SiL is having a girl.... I have a girl, and then Oren.... so yeah... 5/2 right now :P
I know older SiL wants more. When she was going through Zoe's old clothes she said she was going to hold on to the boy stuff just in case she has a boy (after this one).
Anywho... DH wants another boy b/c he doesn't want Oren to go through what he did. Most of his cousins are girls so he was kind of alone and not as close to them as his sisters were. I don't want that for Oren :( Even if this is another girl, I just hope all my kids are really close.
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UGH.... I'm about to unfollow one of the women in Oren's DD group. She is an anti-vaxxer and keeps posting up stupid ass anti-vax BS 'facts'. Really wish I could call her out on her bullshit, but people like that are so far in to that crap that you could show them the undeniable truth about something and they wouldn't listen. Just.... UGH...
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I threw up yesterday. I had just gotten done eating and went to check on the girls b/c they had been in the bathroom for a while. That was a HUGE mistake b/c niece had just gotten done taking a poop in the potty and boy did it stink! I instantly started gagging while trying to make sure she wiped her butt and ran out and threw up in the kitchen sink. Even thinking about it now is making me gag.
Yeah... morning sickness still here strong.
It's funny though b/c it doesn't usually start until I start making my breakfast. I get hungry... get up to start cooking, start getting whatever and that's when the nausea starts. WTF? o_O
So going by that and how strong it still is... I think baby is doing ok in there. I am still worried though.
I know I said I wasn't going to use doppler again but I have a couple more times. Not as much as I was before, but I still use it to try to find baby. I think baby might be just under my giant fat roll so that's not going to help finding baby lol.
Gosh, I just hope this little peanut is ok in there. Please be ok.
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And finally....
I still haven't gotten photos off the camera yet. I remembered that I still needed to post photos of Oren in that stitch outfit and those are on the camera. I'm gonna be busy sewing this weekend so may not get the chance, but if I have a minute I'll try to remember to do that :)

Wednesday, January 27, 2016

Uuuuuugh, 2 weeks!!!!

MiL and FiL are flying out to Cali today to visit with SiL and be there when she gives birth. Since she has GD, they're not letting her go over 40w so if nothing by Sunday, she'll be induced then, so her baby should be born sometimes between now and probably Monday or Tuesday. SO happy for her and can't wait to see what her little girl looks like :D SHe's going to be such an amazing mom.

Her and her husband were supposed to be moving to Chicago on Feb 12th. Yeah.... that soon after the baby and she was going to be driving. Yikes. Not sure if that's still going to happen. I think his transfer was delayed b/c he failed sometime so it's not going to be that soon, but still too soon after she gives birth. Just hope however the baby comes.. she heals up quick so the trip there isn't so bad.

But.... now I'm stuck babysitting my demon niece that MiL usually watches for the 2w while they're gone. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

She's coming over tomorrow and I'm dreading it already. Zoe's going to love it, but uuuuuuuuuuuuugh. I'm going to have to watch them like a hawk. Zoe knows what she's not supposed to get in to, but my niece... she doesn't give a shit. From the stories MiL tells of what she does.... I'm not going to have a moments rest.
This is going to suck..... SUCK!!!!!
Need to clean up. Or more like put stuff up that she could get her hands on.
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OOO bought my first couple of swathes of reduced price fabric yesterday lol. We went out to eat with inlaws and then went to Walmart after. Had to look at their fabric and found just 2 that I liked. This super pink stuff and some soft greyish colored stuff. Now I need to come up with a design for what I wanted to do so I can try to create it :D
If I can figure it out and make a bunch of different designs... I'm going to start selling them on etsy. Would love to bring in a little bit of income to help out.
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Oren started waving :D It only started just a couple days ago. He only does it sometimes, but gets so happy when he does do it. It's adorable :D He clapped a couple of times today too. Yay :D
He's getting so big.
Need to get him off his paci so much though. Can already tell that his teeth shape is growing in to that thumbsucker shape. Zoe's was doing the same too, but we started weaning her off of her paci a bit more before taking it away cold turkey. He likes his paci and uses it all the time, but also doesn't seem like he really needs it to fall asleep. He just likes it.... if that makes any sense.

Also got him down to 2 bottles of 3oz at night. He doesn't get upset anymore when that amount is gone so I think it's time to reduce it again to 2.5. Slowly but surely.
I fed him once last night. He woke up again at around 4am, but for some reason I got it in to my head to just give him his paci instead. He cried for about 30sec then went back to sleep and didn't wake again until 7am. I think that's a win in my book :D lol
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Alrighty... gonna screw around a bit more on the net and then finish up these curtain things for DH.
Frickin fabric.com didn't send us our entire order. DH ordered something like 36yards of fabric and they only sent half. He had to call them and get them to send more, but it probably won't be sent until Thursday at the earliest. That's why we went to Walmart. He needed something cheap to use in place of the fabric until that came in. So we bought some cheap sheets. lol... 
Did I mention why he needs it?
Him and a few others are doing interviews starting Friday and there will be 4 interviews going on at the same time in one giant room. He wanted them all to be seperated and as private as possible so he bought some pipe and the fabric to make barriers.
All I gotta say is that his job better pay him back for all of the crap he bought for this. It was NOT cheap.

Monday, January 25, 2016

No more morning sickness please

Uuuuuuugh... this morning was rough and it came out of nowhere.
Morning sickness has been getting better, but not today it seems. Just the thought.. the THOUGHT of something smelling bad triggered it hard and I started to wretch in the kitchen sink. Thankfully I hadn't eaten anything yet (was just about to cook), but that sucks too b/c my body just kept trying to make something/anything come up.

Ya know.... I had sympathy for women that had morning sickness before, but now... I get it. I get how miserable it can get. And heck.. mine is still mild in comparison to what a lot of women go through. It's just now.. I've gotten a glimpse of it and it SUCKS lol

But on a more positive note...

Oren slept almost through the night last night! WOO!! Put him down at 6:30, and he didn't wake up until just after 5!! I kept waking up at the times he usually wakes, but being able to go back to sleep was so so nice lol. And it was close enough to when DH gets up for work so he got up and fed him. Yeeeeeeees.
Now if Oren would just keep doing this... that would be great! But I'm sure this was a fluke and he'll be back to his usual sleep habits... /sob


Alrighty.. going to try to catch a quick nap while Oren naps. Even though I got more sleep last night.. I woke up super tired.

Sunday, January 24, 2016

Before I forget again

Here are some pics before I forget to post them again lol... I'm sure there are some that I'm still forgetting that I said I would post... but oh well... these are the ones off my phone... will do the camera later :P


First up... Zoe with her MLP puzzle she completed all on her own :)



Outside with the kids and Oren not looking very amused lol


Sweet moment with the kiddos. Zoe is getting a little more annoyed with him sometimes.. and vice versa, but man do they love eachother. Hope they adore their new sibling just as much :)


And finally Oren in his Big Brother onesie that I made him. I just took a comic poster I found on google and added the letters over it in an art program then erased the background. Wasn't that difficult and really happy with ho it came out :)

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Morning sickness is a little better. It's worse some days and better others.
It's getting a lot more achy laying slightly on my stomach. I haven't actually slept on my stomach in... gosh... 2? 3? years now, but I do hug up on a pillow and kinda lean and that is causing some serious aching in the uterus region.

I did try the Doppler a couple of times since I last posted and still can't find anything. Boo. Little worried but trying to remind myself that baby is still tiny, I'm still fat and that doesn't add up to finding the heartbeat easy lol. Ill be 12w this coming Friday and appointment is on the following Tuesday. Come on baby... be ok!
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It snowed a little bit on Saturday morning. YAY. I know that's not a big deal, especially for those up north lol, but here it's always a big deal. It didn't stick in this area at all, but it was still so pretty to see.
Just annoyed that this winter has been so warm and it's supposed to be warming up some this week and maybe next. Think one day it's supposed to get to 70. WTF??? So we got like... 2 weeks total worth of actual semi winter weather. Booooo
I don't like cold feet, but it's so nice to snuggle up under a blanket to get warm.
Guess I shouldn't complain too much... poor Oren is getting sick again b/c he keeps kicking his blanket off and his room gets super cold. SO I supposed warmer weather will be good for him.
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OO I got a sewing machine! YAY!
Only got it b/c DH wanted me to sew him some curtain things for work (using them as barriers so they can do multiple interviews in the same room). BUt hey... once I'm done with that... I can use it for whatever I want. So excited to come up with stuff to make.
Already have a great idea that I think could sell well if I think up some cute designs. Muahahaha Would be great for kids rooms and nurseries :D I'm sure it's already been done, but oh well.. I'll just pretend for now that I'm the first to think of it :P lol
Will have to buy more fabric, but looks like most places have those little precut things which would work fine. Plus I could work with felt at first and that stuff is dirt cheap.
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Think there may have been something else I wanted to mention but can't remember now.
Oh well.. this has already been a long post. If I think of it, I'll post again :D