Hi Dada!!

So, Zoe has been saying Dada every once in a while. Not in context at all and it's just part of her babbling vocabulary.
Welp, yesterday, DH came home from work, and I was holding her and waving to him and saying
"Hi daddy!" or " Hi Dada!"
Well what comes out of her mouth?
" Hi Dada!"
Cue my eyes bulging out of my head!!
She just seems to be repeating it, and she'll say it if you say Hi to her. Not quite sure if she actually realizes what she's saying but it was such a shock and delight to hear her say it! SQUEEEEE
One step closer to talking :D

She also learned a new trick that I've been trying to teach her the wrong way.
That noise that you can make by running your finger up and down your lips while making a sound... or patting the mouth while making a sound... I don't want to say it but easiest way... like stereotypical 'indian' war song kind of thing.
Anyway.... I was trying to teach her it by doing it on myself, then trying on her. She just wasn't getting it though.
I finally figured, maybe I should try it while she's making a noise, she got it instantly. :D It's SO stinkin adorable.

I'm gonna have to figure out a way to post video soon.
Just too cute not to share :)
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I talked to DH a bit more about the dog and he wants to wait until Zoe is at least 3. It kinda sucks b/c I would like one NOW lol, but I know waiting would probably be for the best since she'll be a bit older and will be able to interact with a puppy a bit better.
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Man, last night SUUUUUUCKED. Zoe was great again... she did wake, but went back to sleep not even 5 minutes later.
I was wide awake though. I woke up at 2:30, didn't get back to sleep until frickin 5!!! Just insomnia mixed with an upset stomach made worse by my stupidity lol.
So I was up, with an upset stomach when I realized that I hadn't taken my nighttime metformin.
Figured I should go ahead and take it..... HUGE mistake. As soon as the metformin hit my system... I was gagging trying not to puke.
I finally said screw it and had to. Thankfully it wasn't a lot, but still... BLEH.
I should've known better but nope.

GAH!! Dumbass!!

Thanks mental_floss for finally making me realize that I'm a total dumbass!!
I've totally been using the word anxious wrong. SIGH!!!
How embarrassing.

I'm up early today. Woke up at 5am, Zoe woke up a few minutes later. Decided to just go ahead and feed her. If she had woken up earlier I wouldn't have.
Went back to sleep finally at around 6 and then only got in about 30 more minutes of sleep before I woke and couldn't get back to sleep.
Oh welp....
Zoe is actually still sleeping. Any other day when I actually want more sleep in the morning she would be wide awake. Lol, always seems to work like this.

Zoe is such a silly baby though. We block her in to the living room while she's crawling around. Well in one of the spots, we have a stepper. Now the stepper alone doesn't stop her. She figured out how to slide over it pretty quick. Well if she does it, we'll go get her. She'll actually try to crawl away quicker!! It's SO funny b/c she only gets maybe a foot or 2 away before she flops.
Same with if she's going after one of the dog's toys or a piece of something. She's a clever little girl and knows now that she's not supposed to play with certain things and if she spots that we're about to stop her from getting something, she'll try to race crawl towards it before we get to her. LOL
It's so funny and so cute. But I can see this becoming a HUGE frustration when she's older if she keeps it up hehe.
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I brought up getting another dog to DH yesterday.
Actually, he asked If I wanted anything for Mother's Day other than me not having to cook... and that's when I said... " A puppy" lol
He said yes, they're cute and irresistible, but he wants to wait to get another dog. Not sure how long though. I'll have to ask him.

He really didn't enjoy having 3 dogs. BUT that was mostly b/c 2 of them are large. Not super big, but around 70lbs each.
While I would actually love another big dog, I think for our next, we're going to try to get a smaller one. Nothing over 30lbs probably if we can help it.
There are lots of pure breed dogs I would like too. Such as... dachshund, Pomeranian, Pekinese, Corgi ( I think those get a little too large), or a Bull Terrier (the Target dog, not a pit bull), but after looking at the local no-kill shelter pups... I'm sure we'll be getting a shelter puppy which I'm totally fine with too.

I'll just keep an eye out for puppies. I'm sure if there's something out there that fits us perfectly, DH will have a hard time saying no.. MUAHAHAHA

Rambling a bit

Zoe is finally down for her first nap of the day and I just want to take this opportunity to type out some thoughts.

So apparently, DH is still hell bent on visiting his friends in Europe next year. These are the same people we went on that road trip with.
Now, another European vacation would be nice, don't get me wrong, but I can not see how we would afford it! Not sure where DH thinks we're gonna be getting the money to go.
We did FINALLY open a savings account, but by the time next year rolls around, we'll probably have enough in it for one plane ticket and a little bit of spending money.
We're almost out of credit card debt and I do not want to put another HUGE purchase on it like a trip to Europe that we don't need to take.
And don't get me started on if I'm pregnant which I hope to be (more on that in a min).
I already asked him if we were going to get the next baby an expensive crib to and without missing a beat DH said "Yeah, why wouldn't we?" Nevermind that we would also have to buy another dresser too.
AND we're planning on trading in one of the cars (probably my mazda) to get something larger hopefully before a 2nd child arrives.
Sooooo...... where exactly is the money for a HUGE trip like that supposed to come from again??
Oh and I forgot, we need to refinance our house which takes money........
DH is usually really great with our money, but not in this case. He just sees his friend's FB posts on all of the different places in Europe they've gone while living there and he gets that look in his eyes.
I just want to shake him out of it.
Of course they can travel like they do.
First... They live over there!!!
2nd... His friend's military job pays for almost every large expense they have. Pays for their kids to go to a nice private school. Pays their rent etc... so almost all of his paycheck is free to do with whatever they want. This is why they have super nice things and can vacation to wherever the hell they want.
THEY have the money..... WE don't.
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And me getting pregnant.... sigh... not any time soon. Probably not until next year if I don't frickin do something already.
I hate sounding like a broken record. I hate that I allow myself to go back to old ways or to continue being lazy, but I still do it.
What the hell is it going to take for me to finally stick to something??
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Enough self pity....

Anyone follow celeb news and see that the choreographer Wade Robson is now saying that Michael Jackson molested him as a child.

It seriously disgusts me that people actually think that MJ WASN'T a child molester and is calling Wade a liar.

MJ exhibited classic pedophile behavior and even admitted to it. Like having sleep overs with kids...
showers, and lord knows what else.
It's like MJ's problems, money and fame have blinded people in to believing or even excusing his behavior.
Yes he made some great music, but that does not mean that somehow makes him incapable of doing some pretty heinous things to children.

I'm not saying Wade is telling the truth or lying or whatever, but it is SO clear that MJ was a child molester and it just makes me so sick when people defend him.

I guess that shouldn't be surprising though. Just look at R Kelly. Actual fucking video proof that he screwed underage girls, but there he is.... still popular and making music.

Look at Chris Brown..... fucking proof that he beat the ever living shit out of Rihanna but he's still popular, making music, getting invited to award shows and whatnot as if nothing ever happened.

Shit like that... that these people get away with and then have IDIOTS defending them just makes you lose faith in humanity sometimes.

CIO

Zoe had her 9 month checkup yesterday.
She is 19lbs 5oz and 28.something inches long. She's jumped up in percentiles. She was close to 50%, but both of those are now 75%.
What can we say, she's a good eater :)
I'm so nervous about giving her non-pureed foods though. Not including puffs. I'm sure I won't be once she starts getting teeth. Her doc checked and said that she should be getting some in the next couple of weeks. Felt like an area of her bottom gums are a bit swollen.
She only had one shot yesterday and only cried for a second before giving the nurse a death stare lol.

And of course the doc asked how she was sleeping and we confessed to feeding her when she woke. It was suggested that we just let her cry it out...again.
We did that last night and Zoe actually did really well. She only did her minor half asleep fussing and not for long. Hopoefully if we actually stick to this, she'll learn to settle herself better.
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I want to get another puppy. There's just that hole that needs to be filled by a furbuddy. I've been looking at shelters and there's a good one that I would like to adopt a puppy from.
It would be nice for Zoe to grow up with a puppy by her side.
It would have to be a small dog though. While I like big dogs, something smaller would be better for us right now.
We'll see what happens. I know DH wants to wait before we get another dog though.

RIP

DH found our oldest dog dead this morning.
Had a feeling she wasnt going to pull through this, but didnt expect it to happen this quickly.
Just thankful that it didnt seem as though she was suffering and hopefully went peacefully while she slept.
We just got back from burying her at inlaw's land.
The 2nd oldest dog keeps running outside looking for her in her usual spots. She is a sweet dog and loved her buddy. It is going to take her a while to realize that she isnt coming back.

We're ok though. I think bc she  was old and we suspected this was going to happen, it's not as devastating. Still sucks though and we're both pretty heartbroken.
We're gonna miss that old mutt.

Good girl Bing. Good girl.....

Babble

That is what our days are filled with right now lol.
She is one talkative little girl. She doesn't actually say words, but it's still adorable to listen to her go on and on.
She is saying Dadadadada, but not saying it in context yet. Whenever we say it to her, she just gives us this look and then continues on with what she was doing lol.

She has her 9m appointment well, on the day she turns 9m. Excited to see how much she weighs now. We try weighing her at home but our scale isn't as accurate I guess.
If it is though, then she's almost 20lbs.
I have not built up the momma muscles that I should have. I can barely hold her for a few minutes without getting fatigued lol. I'm such a weakling.
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Our poor dog isn't doing well. She's our oldest and I think she probably doesn't have much longer with us.
She is about... hmm... 14 or 15 years old. Just a mutt. She's been pretty healthy and active her entire life, but she has slowed WAY down this last year and she's been puking and not eating or drinking for the last couple of days.
Hoping she's just come down with something and it will pass soon, but I can't remember a time when she hasn't eaten anything.
Poor pup. Our 2nd oldest dog is going to be devastated whenever it does happen. That is her best buddy and I really don't know what she is going to do with herself. :(
Sigh we'll see what happens I guess, but we're prepared for the worst.

BLAAAARGH! Stop licking me!!!

I sit with my legs up on the couch/chair. Rarely do I sit with my legs hanging down and feet touching the ground.
Anyway, Zoe is still mastering pulling herself up to her feet, she did this while I was sitting on the recliner and suddenly, I feel this tickle weirdness on my leg. I look down and the girl is lizard tonguing my leg!! ROFL
It tickled so much but felt SO weird b/c she also was trying to suck too. I swear... weird baby!
I can't believe she's only a few days away from 9 months old!! Insane how quickly this first year goes by. Pregnancy was a snail's pace compared to this.

Speaking of pregnancy.... I can't wait to have another baby!!! I still have baby fever something fierce!!
While I do feel rushed, I think if it takes a little longer than we hope, like say, getting pregnant next year, then we'll be ok with that, but I would very much like for it to happen this year.
Just gotta get my lazy ass up which is what I'm struggling with... what I always struggle with.
If losing weight was easy though, hell, there wouldn't be so many overweight miserable people walking around.
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We don't have nearly enough 9m old clothes for Zoe. I know, I was shocked too when I realized that! lol
We had a TON of 3-6 and 6m old stuff, but 9m, nope. Hesitate to buy her much more than what she has though. But hey, I actually enjoy baby clothes shopping :D Think I'll try to convince DH to go to Once Upon a Child this weekend. Get some cute stuff for her :)
Her 2nd storage bin of clothes is already packed to the max. And I bet that about 30% of the stuff she never wore and 90% she only wore once.
Baby clothes are SO F-ing cute, but SO not worth paying full price for :P lol Well, for most of it. For a special outfit, I can make an exception, but every day clothes.... 2nd hand *nodnod*
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Can't wait for Zoe to start talking. She still baby babbles, which is adorable, but to hear her say an actual word would be SO frickin adorable!
I really want her to start saying Dada/Daddy. I can't wait for her to say Mama, but I'd rather her say Dada or Daddy first :)
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Uhm, what else has been going on..... pretty much nothing.
Uuuuuuuuhm...... oh rant and bitchfest opportunity...

MiL and SiL (DH's youngest sister).... UUUUUUUUUUGH I want to smack the crap out of them both.

First... MiL took my 2 nieces to a small fair that was down the road. Sweet right? Well, she also let them both play whatever fair game that won them both a goldfish a piece. That's the first UGH!!! The thing is, the fish died pretty quick. It should've been left at that, but oh no.... MiL is the queen of impulse buying.
She took them to Petsmart and bought them both a betta (Siamese fighting fish) without even consulting with the parents and asking if it was ok. What, The, FUCK.
THEN she has the nerve to call up their mom and tell them that they have pets now. And that's it. Leaves it up to my brother and his wife to buy EVERYTHING for these 2 new pet fish.
I'm sure most people would just stick these poor fish in to a bowl and let them die there, but thankfully my brother and his wife know better (b/c of me). So they went out and ended up spending over $100 on fish supplies b/c MiL is an inconsiderate IDIOT. Ok that's harsh... I do love my MiL, but this really pissed me off if you couldn't tell.
I'm sorry but you just don't do shit like that. OMG she better never NEVER do that with Zoe.

Now the 2nd thing.
My brother and his wife want to move in to MiL's old house. SiL (DH's youngest sister), was living there not too long ago, but she and her family moved in to their own home.
MiL NEEDS the money that she would be getting from renting her home to my brother.
Well, the thing is... as I've mentioned before... MiL is a hoarder and still has shit in that house. Yeah, shit that was left there even when her daughter lived there. Shit that probably hasn't seen the light of day in more than 20+ years.
And now... SiL has left a lot of her crap there as well. What, the FUCK??? So you move in to your own home, but don't bother taking all of your shit with you??

And my brother and his wife have been asking her to move in for gosh... at least 2 months now and they (Mil and SiL) haven't even pretended that they're trying to clear out their shit!!!
It's INFURIATING!
MiL does nothing all day (unless she's looking after SiL's girl), she could easily take her ass to that house and clean up some every day.
And the worst part... I just know that DH is going to be guilt tripped in to helping them (aka doing ALL of the work) to clean it all out.
Just clean the shit out already, my brother and his family move in and start paying rent.. and now MiL could have some money to spend on more useless shit. It would be a winwin for everyone.
I just can't convey how annoyed and angry I am about that.


ANYWHORE....
I think there might've been something else I wanted to mention but I can't remember.