Gas & constipation

Think poor little Zoe is slightly constipated which is causing A LOT of gas.
I swear, the farts coming out of this child sound like they should be coming out of an adult. Hmm... I guess that's kinda stupid though. Not like a baby fart would sound different but for some reason I thought they would... higher pitched maybe? lol

Anyway, I think it might be the problem that's keeping her awake during the day and her difficulty going to and staying asleep.
Not sure what would be causing it. Maybe something I ate not going over well in the breastmilk? *shrugs*
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We're totally going to buy a bouncer. She really enjoys being bounced and moved. Not so much the swing right now. I think the vibrations a bouncer would offer will go over well with her. Maybe help shake out that excess gas lol.
Probably get that this weekend. Also hoping to get that new carseat too.
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Cloth diapering is easier than expected. It sounds SO intimidating on paper. All of that washing and care, but it's been pretty easy and simple so far. It's not like you have to wash them by hand or anything lol. Just pop them in to the washer and dryer and voila.
Only thing that is a pain is restuffing the little green baby bamboo diapers.
The bamboo inserts are slicker than the microfiber ones so move all over the place, and the covers are smaller in the crotch area, so we had to buy some ice tongs to stuff with. It takes a while, but oh well. I really like those diapers. They fit her best right now. The microfiber ones fit and work well too, but they are SO bulky. Baby def looks like she's carrying around junk in the trunk lol ;)

I think we're gonna have to double stuff a diaper for night time. She's been sleeping a little longer and all of that pee is soaking one insert and leaking a little from the back. Should be a simple fix.

Anywho.... Zoe is sleeping on my lap right now. Gonna go watch some tv. Not even gonna try to take a nap b/c I know she's gonna be awake again soon.

Photos!!

What she's wearing today. Neither DH or I are really big football fans, but DH's uncle gave this outfit to us and well... it's just too cute not to put her in lol.

Love the look on her face. Kinda psycho.....

How does she always know?

I swear.... this child always... ALWAYS wakes up while we're eating. It never fails.
I thought at first, that maybe she smelled the food cooking and that's what wakes her, but nope.
I slow cooked some ribs in the oven the other day. Cooked them for 3 hours and the entire house smelled like it.
Fed her and put her in her bassinet in our room.
Sat down to eat, and yep... she started to whimper and cry. WTH?? lol
And we've been eating at random times too so it's not like she's on a schedule that just so happens to coincide with when we're eating.
Weird....
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DH gave up his guy's night yesterday to stay at home and help me out. Awwwww... and thank frickin goodness!!

Zoe was not napping well at all yesterday. Waking up every hour on the hour for some reason. I couldn't get in a nap to save my life.
I wasn't exhausted, but I was damn tired.

She slept REALLY well last night though. We all went to bed at about 10pm. She didn't wake up until 3. I actually got up at 2:30 to pump, she woke and DH got up with her.
She got up at 9:30 this morning. WOO! YAY sleep!!
Actually it wasn't a good sleep this morning though.
The noises she makes when she's sleeping always wake me up and she was making a lot of them starting at around 6. Thought she was actually waking up a few times but it was just her dreaming I guess.
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Zoe might've smiled at me last night! YAY! DH and I were sitting on the loveseat. I had her kinda sitting up on the boppy pillow on my lap and she looked right at me and gave me a half smile heh.
I can't wait to see more of those. She has the cutest dimples that she got from her daddy :)

1 month old

Wow.... already and only. It's crazy.

Our little month old Zoe is doing well. She's still a fussy butt, but we love her anyway ;) heh
Her skin is peeling in spots. Bottom of her feet and her fingers mostly.
Also her hair is starting to fall out. It's only at the side of her head right now.
She also has baby acne and she has terrible baby dandruff :P lol We're brushing her head to try to help w/ the dandruff but it doesn't look like it's doing much to help *shrugs*

She's also having some weird sleep cycles in the morning. Well, it's only been 2 days, but I imagine it will happen again.
She's on her own schedule at night. She'll go to bed around 9-10 after eating. Wake up around 1-2am. Eat, then will usually go right back to sleep, then will wake up again 4-5.
Well for the last 2 days, she's only been wanting to sleep for an hour when she wakes up the 2nd time. I am NOT happy about that lol. It takes me forever to get back to sleep nevermind that I pump after putting her back down so that gives me a whopping 30mins to try to get back to sleep before she wakes up again. BLEH!!!!
I'm so tired right now. Gonna pump after this post and hopefully sneak in a nap before she wakes up.

What else what else...
Oh Zoe is now a cloth diapered baby :D
She was actually outgrowing her newborn size disposable diapers, but thankfully we only had a few left anyway. Ran out of them yesterday and started cloth diapering last night.
So far so good.
She's in the smaller size ones on the smallest setting. They're the perfect fit right now. Still waiting for her to have a big poop in one just to see how they hold up to it. So far she's only had really small poops and lots of pee.

Uhm.... I'm doing good for the most part. Fanny pack is mostly pain free now thank goodness. Incision kinda aches every once in a while but it's mild and goes away quickly.
Pumping is still damn annoying and I still hate it.
Still not getting nearly what I should. Not looking forward to my 6w PP appointment, but I can't wait to bring up the milk supply problem. I know I could call sooner, but meh, I don't feel like it to be honest. No reason other than just lazy :P
And yeah... other than being tired right now... I'm feeling decent.
Oh I forgot to add that my face is totally breaking out. BLEH! And I have AWFUL dandruff right now.
I feel SOOOOOO attractive... :\

Will post some photos later!

Hurry hurry

Lol, seems like that's how all of my activities are now. Hurry up before the baby wakes up! lol

Anywho.... really do need to hurry. Can hear her starting to stir.

So... my nipples are purple. OUCH. They actually don't hurt THAT bad, but just the thought of them being purple makes them hurt lol. The new nipple pump thingamajigs def are helping with the soreness. Not completely taking it away but it's enough.

*to be continued.....*
*finally back...*

Mom duties..... sigh! heh

Ya know what... baby nails frickin HURT!!!!
I swear Zoe has little raptor claws attached to those tiny cute little fingers. Claws that constantly want to dig out my still beating heart whenever she has a little bit of tummy time on my stomach.
OUCH!
Those things are just shy of being tiny little razor blades.

Bewb pains

I can't lay on either side for too long... haven't even dared lay on my stomach yet.
If I lay on either side for too long, that bewbie starts to ache like crazy and I'm paying for it for a few days after.

My right one is just now starting to feel normal again. Who knew breastfeeding/pumping would be so damn annoying!! Screw those bitches that want to take formula away from everyone! They can go lick balls.

I'm this close to giving up pumping. My supply just seems to be going down down down no matter WTH I'm doing :(
It was somewhat satisfying before... seeing how much I was getting and knowing it would feed Zoe, but now.....  pffft.... I just feel like I'm wasting my time trying to continue with it when I'm getting less and less with each pumping.
I massage, take fenugreek religiously, pump every 2-3 hours for at least 15mins, drinking a ton of water and still... my body wants to show me just how much it still sucks by decreasing my supply. Awesome :\

Even though I hate doing it with a passion, I'll stick with it until the bitter end and then jump for joy when I don't have to worry about doing it any longer :P lol
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Zoe is getting SO frickin big!! I can't believe how much she's grown in this short amount of time. She's gonna outgrow her almost 1yo cousin soon.
She's wearing 0-3m stuff, but I put her in a 3m old onesie yesterday and it fit w/ only just a little bit of slack O_O
I dunno why she's so big since I'm only 5'1" and DH is only 5'9". No one on DH's side is super tall.
My brother and dad are 6'1 & 6'2 but that's hardly giant or anything.
*shrugs* Maybe she won't actually be tall. She's just having some major growth spurts right now and it will slow down later.

Mo money mo money!

Wish we had... Mo money... sigh.

When we were at Babies R Us yesterday... saw some smaller carseats. Thought about it for the rest of the day and have decided that I want one of them to replace the one we have.
There's nothing technically wrong with what we bought. It was cheap and it works, BUT, it's slightly too large for the car and it's super frickin bulky and awkward to carry around. It doesn't even fit on to those baby seats at restaraunts so we have to set her on the table which sucks... and it takes up an entire shopping cart so we have to roll around 2 of them. It's light, BUT I have short arms so I swing it a bit more than I should b/c I just can't hold on to it right.
Anyway... yeah, I want a smaller one, which means it's probably going to cost us more money than we like to get one. Not sure if DH is prepared for that but I sure as hell am. I do not want to be lugging around the huge one when I do finally start to go out by myself.
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I'm surprised by how much patience I have with Zoe.
Hmm.... that sounds kinda bad lol.

It's just that I never really had much exposure to small children before other than my neices. I was never the maternal type and hearing someone elses child crying just got on my last nerve most of the time.
But hearing and seeing Zoe cry.... I just can't feel anything but love and compassion for my little munchkin.
I don't like it when she's super fussy, but only b/c I don't know how to make her feel better.
Never thought I'd be this way to be honest.
Yes I wanted children more than anything, but I had NO idea if I was cut out for it. Anywho, I'm sure my patience will grow thin over time lol, but for now... I'll enjoy feeling this way :)
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Oh, not sure when it started, but Zoe is not crying b/c of diaper changes any longer! WOOOO!
If she was fussy before, she'll cry if we're changing her, but she's not actually crying because of the diaper changes.
Thank frickin goodness!!! lol
She enjoys staring at the dark violet curtains or the black picture frame and just wiggles all around. She's so cute.
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And finally. Googled up about how long docs want women to wait to TTC again after a c-sec.
Most said about 6 months.
If that's the case... I'm fine with that.
Although I do have a fire under my butt wanting to try again quickly, I know I need to let my body heal and I need/want to spend as much time with Zoe as possible before another LO arrives to divide my attention between.
Plus 6 months would allow me to hopefully lose more weight and get healthier for the next pregnancy.
Yes this pregnancy was pretty uneventful other than the GD, but I still want to be at a healthier weight. Hopefully get rid of or at least make sure this damn nasty fanny pack is smaller since I'm sure I'll get another c-sec.

Weepy

Is it normal to still be weepy this long after giving birth?
I'm not crying at random things, but certain things can set it off.
I'm not feeling sad or anything, no baby blues, but just feeling a bit weepy still.
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Everything is good here. Zoe seems to be a lot more alert. Well, not hugely alert or anything, she just seems to want to look at everything around her a bit more.

Like last night. She was actually awake when we went to dinner w/ family and she was just as content as could be looking around at everything.
Could've just been b/c that's the first time she's actually been awake when out of the house (and not crying :P ).
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We FINALLY went to Babies R Us today. It's on such a crap part of town with the most gawd awful traffic imaginable.
I wanted to go though and sigh, just makes me wish we had one on this side of town. SO much to look at... so little time. We bought a few things.... few more medela bottles and nipple things, erm.... and other stuff that I can't remember.
It was a good trip *nodnod*

When we got home.... my new nipple breastshield things.
http://www.medelabreastfeedingus.com/products/577/personalfit-breastshields
I was using a size 27mm but it was just a tad too small imo, so ordered a 30. Used them twice so far. Can tell that the others were def too small, but we'll see if it helps w/ the soreness any.