10w3d

Holy crud that is weird to see.... 10weeks. WOW

Is it strange that I'm still not really THAT excited?
Don't get me wrong, I am more than thrilled to be pregnant, but it still feels like I just can't let myself totally believe it.
I think it's all of the horror stories/experiences I keep reading. Not that I go looking for it, they just appear on the various websites that I go to.
Like someone losing their baby at 14w or later. It scares me to death and it feels like if I allow myself to just totally be happy that something bad is going to happen and completely blindside me.
Makes me emotional that I'm even like that.
I want this more than anything and I still can't fully enjoy it.
I hope this feeling will fade away.
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Ok enough feeling sorry for myself.... nothing much going on today. Had a gag-attack this morning b/c I was imagining smelling my dog's farts lol. UGH it was awful last night. I dunno how that much gas and stank can come out of a dog his size.
Be warned people wanting a smooshed face dog (like a pug).... they 100% will fart!
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I'm so jealous when I read about preg women having wet dreams. LOL That's embarassing to admit, but come on.. who doesn't want a free, no work required orgasm??
I had a dream the other night where I was just starting to O. The dream woke me up, but not b/c I was actually Oing IRL. Booooooooo... could've at least let me stay asleep to finish it.... sigh. ;)
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Oh yeah.. I need to start working on the mural again! I said I would after this last u/s. I need to get on that. August really isn't that far away and with my slow ass.. I need all the time I can get.
I'll start on it this weekend. DH is going to be out of the house so I'll have some time to myself... not that I don't now.. I'm just being lazy :P

Just for a reminder... here's what I have so far. It's been like this for over a year now. Just never wanted to work on it because of kinda obvious infertile/miscarriage reasons.

Going to completely cover this wall and have it bleed over a little to the adjacent walls.
I'm going to work on this one after I get done with this small area first

Going to make a little sign post mural with a big tree on the corner that wraps around. I think that will be a bit easier to do. Get me warmed up to work on the larger more complicated wall.